I fell asleep on the bus home the other day and missed my stop, when I woke up it really struck me that I am not the body. The body was inactive on the bus, while my knowing was only of itself during sleep, but as soon as my knowingness of the body returned I found it in another location from where I expected! Needlessly to say I walked home.
The 'I' thought is still there, but as my attention is placed more and more on beingness it is more clear that I am not Ryan, nor a body, or the World, but I am entirely beyond all. This is a very freeing feeling, even at my early stage of understanding. I do not worry much anymore about what will happen, but rather sit back and watch as life takes it's course.
Sittings are becoming more easy. I notice longer periods where I do not know where I am or who I am. There are some thoughts, and the mind does get restless after some time, but nothing like it used to.
I know many Sages, and Jnani's have disliked the world, but for me, at this stage, it seems a beautiful lie. I think this may be because of my age and situation, but who am I to complain?! Beingness is beautiful, and knowledge of that beingness is such a special gift that I dare not betray it with words. Thank you for your continuing help, Sir, and as always I will continue you to update you as it all unfolds.