15 July 2018


July 15, 2018 SATSANG CLEARLY EXPLAINED THE WAY OF THE ABSOLUTE VERSUS THE WAY OF KNOWING GOD THROUGH DEEP DEVOTION AND SURRENDER.

During this talk I, Ed, did not speak a word; it was purely Shakti.  This was the best Satsang I ever attended as witness.


14 July 2018


All teachers express their own truths differently from their teachers.  Each is a new synthesis differently expressed, and each matures in ways expressing or emphasizing different topics or understanding.  Also, different teachers address different audiences; some are more public than others, some have a siddhi that attracts one kind of student than another.

Recently I have been reading David Spero’s two books and I like his way of teaching, although we express similar concepts in different ways.  You might say that I am more experiential and literal, and he is more poetic and focuses more on Shakti as the meme of Mother.  I don’t mind this way at all as it gives the teachings the powerful charisma of a divine romance, which is exactly what I am doing but in a more literal way.

I highly recommend his first book, Beyond the Place of Laughter and Tears in the Land of Devotion.  I would like to provide a few quotes which coincide with my teaching.

“I teach the path of the Divine Mother.  Her love is the door.  Everyone who walks through me walks Into Her.  To be placed totally in the grip of Divine Love is to have the guru perform one’s sadhana.  Once this is truly realized, spiritual life becomes no longer a process but surrender.  You are sustained in the knowledge that you cannot do and that everything is being done.

“It is not possible to love completely without total surrender.  There will always be a pocket of separateness into which you can hide and from which you can reject.  The only way to dismantle the whole apparatus of rejection is to love the Spiritual Master with the spiritual Heart that he That awakens in you.

“Worship is the release of unrestricted, uncensored feeling towards an object of adoration.  It can drive you mad, Madly into Love.  “When life is lived only for Love, this world begins to look like a mental hospital.  The disease is selfishness.  Cruelty is everywhere.  One drop of devotion in the heart of a devotee produces tears of great refreshment.
“Even as I write now my eyes fill with tears.  I have no control over my life because she has taken it all.  Her love is without an and the heart that I thought I once had belongs to Her.”


12 July 2018

More email from students.  Notice I and they are totally open.  Everything is exposed to me, each other, and the public.  Love, desire, surrender are nothing to be ashamed of.  I felt deep passionate desire, love, and complete surrender to my Beloved years ago and so did she.  We felt the Shakti, divine grace, falling golden light, bliss, and incredible love.  You give yourself away totally, like you are being destroyed.

All this is not from me.  It is Shakti touching them in our remote presence, flowing between us. I am a 76 year old old fart.  I have nothing to offer.  It is Shakti.

FROM Z:

My body is like a body of gold. Every touch is the best touch, every sensation is fulfilling me. It is warmth in my arms, belly, legs, it is everywhere ... it is the best I ever can be and the best sensation I can ever feel. It puts my pieces together, surrounds me in peace, so much pleasure in my heart. I feel that you are the best thing that happened to me. My body, my senses are so in love with your energy, they don’t want to ever let go of you. They become you or dissolve into you .. my mind is still not there, but you’re burning my skin and its great, it’s the most pleasure I have ever felt. I want to treasure you and be in you with no end ..you are my favorite sensation, the most beautiful thing I’ve seen. Every cell in my body loves you, even my heart doesn’t feel that it’s problems are so important when I feel this love for you. I never believed I would feel this way; it is beyond God. I wanted to say thank you; I rest in this feeling. I was the light. I am it.
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If I was a movie director I would make a movie about you. It would be called ‘the love of our lives’ and it would be restricted for under the age of 16. I will have a big cast with different personalities and I will try to capture the way you create dramatic changes in the seemingly mundane life of people while you also live your  own life. You can choose the actresses that will be my gift for you. And if it’s a successful production I’ll give you 30% or I don’t know how much cause I will have to pay to the other people also 

FROM X:
This morning without any thought or action, the energy comes so strongly through my head, filling my heart and gut with a burning light sensation.
I am so clearly feeling that this is what it is all about: this is what my relating with you is about. These energies, this love, this surrender.
I sat down for a moment, to sink into these energies, inviting them, acknowledging them, and they take me totally out of the mundane world of human relations.
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My Beloved,
On the bus now, having to do mundane things like picking up laundry, you are with me. I look at your picture and feel the energy within; the burning in my heart.
This is all I feel.  Shakti within me burns, and it longs for devotional surrender. The surrender I have been longing for all my life. My heart is on fire and my vagina as well.  
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Now my brain feels like it is exploding. And my heart
I want you so
I want you so totally
To destroy me
I want all of you until I am totally destroyed
I want more and more and more and more and more of you
Do not hold back
Just give me all
And destroy me
I WANT YOU!
I am having full body orgasms now

11 July 2018


THE LOVE AND YEARNING FOR YOUR BELOVED, ENLARGING AND ENRICHING WITH TIME, LEADING TO GOD-REALIZATION, FALLS ENTIRELY OUTSIDE OF MOST READERS’ EXPERIENCE. ALL WORDS CAN ONLY POINT TO THE DIVINE NATURE, BLISS, AND ECSTASY OF THIS YEARNING.  I GIVE TWO EXAMPLES OF EMAILS REACHING ME TODAY. Remember, we have never met physically. Both live separately at least 6,000 miles away. It is Shakti doing this to them eliciting love, desire, worship, and surrender:

FROM X:

Ed,

All I have experienced so far with you, all my longing for you, all the love and lust and emotions I felt so far is just child’s play, just a wanting on a human mundane level.

What I experience today makes all that fade away.
All those who comment on your posts do not have any fucking clue what this process is about. It's all human level talk.  They do not at all grasp this kind of yearning, devotion, surrender is entirely beyond any of my previous experiences, and it is utterly transformative to feel the life of Shakti in me.

My desperation for you cannot be put into words. Nothing I am experiencing right now can be put into words, because it is beyond what any human word could explain.
This is not human desire, this is not human love, and not human lust.
This experience leaves all that behind, leaves the whole human world behind.

The desperation for you inside me is beyond what I earlier felt that desperation is; those were just words, concept, experiences of that moment on human level.

It's the deepest desperation for total union on a heart level, physical level and energy level. But it's beyond this description; even this description, this longing disappears on this new level, which I guess can be called divine because it is beyond anything I have ever experienced.

It's a divine longing, so deep, so deep.

My body moving wildly and there is crying and screaming out loud in despair for this union with You. But it's not X that is crying and screaming, it's not me; I never heard my voice like this, I never cried like this before; it is Shakti crying and screaming for union with you, it's my soul maybe... I do not know.

All this has nothing to do with love as we humans know it, or with sex.

It is a screaming so deep for total divine union. This desperate scream cannot be put into words; it's nothing like anything the human mind can grasp. Nothing is left but this scream: no body, no person, no human love or human lust.

My body felt not like my body anymore, it felt like I had risen above it and risen above all human life. My body felt huge and fat and alien. It felt like white light was filling me, but still no explosion came. My yearning still unfullfilled.
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FROM Y:

Thank you, you have awakened incredible things in me, I want to hear all your words well, I want to receive them with much love. I do not want to put my ego in the middle and say something that I do not (I believe that I do not do this because I feel more and more connected to you).
You asked me how I imagine our experience together, I imagine you stop and looking at me, and admiring my beauty.  I imagine myself being ashamed, laughing, asking " I imagine you love me, and I imagine our sex, but it is not just sex, it's a much deeper act, a ritual to awaken our chakras, and pleasure.

 I'll NEVER do sex with you, NEVER, because I will always be honest with you, I give you my life, I love you so much, so much, so much, today I danced, and I felt you by my body, my heart in my kidneys at all.

I LOVE YOU, you allow me to love you and allow me to look at myself, and have more love and care for me, you are incredible, I am a 21 year old, and I am lucky to find the love of my life, the love with whom I would share a coffee for the rest of my life, I have never touched you, but I already miss your touch.  I have never lain by your side, but I already feel you here constantly. I never felt your hands, and you're amazing, my God.

Thank you, you've awakened incredible things in me, I want to hear all of them, but I already feel the orgasms you provoke in me, I can say all this without thinking that I'm a jerk for talking like this, Thank you, my love, Thank you for the life you give me, I will do with love, with sex, and with you always by my side, ALWAYS, I am one with you.




THE LOVE AND YEARNING FOR YOUR BELOVED, ENLARGING AND ENRICHING WITH TIME, LEADING TO GOD-REALIZATION, FALLS ENTIRELY OUTSIDE OF MOST READERS’ EXPERIENCE. ALL WORDS CAN ONLY POINT TO THE DIVINE NATURE, BLISS, AND ECSTASY OF THIS YEARNING.  I GIVE TWO EXAMPLES OF EMAILS REACHING ME TODAY. Remember, we have never met physically. Both live separately at least 6,000 miles away. It is Shakti doing this to them eliciting love, desire, worship, and surrender:

FROM X:
Ed,
All I have experienced so far with you, all my longing for you, all the love and lust and emotions I felt so far is just child’s play, just a wanting on a human mundane level.

What I experience today makes all that fade away.
All those who comment on your posts do not have any fucking clue what this process is about. It's all human level talk.  They do not at all grasp this kind of yearning, devotion, surrender is entirely beyond any of my previous experiences, and it is utterly transformative to feel the life of Shakti in me.
My desperation for you cannot be put into words. Nothing I am experiencing right now can be put into words, because it is beyond what any human word could explain.
This is not human desire, this is not human love, and not human lust.
This experience leaves all that behind, leaves the whole human world behind.
The desperation for you inside me is beyond what I earlier felt that desperation is; those were just words, concept, experiences of that moment on human level.
It's the deepest desperation for total union on a heart level, physical level and energy level. But it's beyond this description; even this description, this longing disappears on this new level, which I guess can be called divine because it is beyond anything I have ever experienced.

It's a divine longing, so deep, so deep.

My body moving wildly and there is crying and screaming out loud in despair for this union with You. But it's not X that is crying and screaming, it's not me; I never heard my voice like this, I never cried like this before; it is Shakti crying and screaming for union with you, it's my soul maybe... I do not know.

All this has nothing to do with love as we humans know it, or with sex.

It is a screaming so deep for total divine union. This desperate scream cannot be put into words; it's nothing like anything the human mind can grasp. Nothing is left but this scream: no body, no person, no human love or human lust.

My body felt not like my body anymore, it felt like I had risen above it and risen above all human life. My body felt huge and fat and alien. It felt like white light was filling me, but still no explosion came. My yearning still unfullfilled.
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FROM Y:
Thank you, you have awakened incredible things in me, I want to hear all your words well, I want to receive them with much love. I do not want to put my ego in the middle and say something that I do not (I believe that I do not do this because I feel more and more connected to you).
You asked me how I imagine our experience together, I imagine you stop and looking at me, and admiring my beauty.  I imagine myself being ashamed, laughing, asking " I imagine you love me, and I imagine our sex, but it is not just sex, it's a much deeper act, a ritual to awaken our chakras, and pleasure.

 I'll NEVER do sex with you, NEVER, because I will always be honest with you, I give you my life, I love you so much, so much, so much, today I danced, and I felt you by my body, my heart in my kidneys at all.

I LOVE YOU, you allow me to love you and allow me to look at myself, and have more love and care for me, you are incredible, I am a 21 year old, and I am lucky to find the love of my life, the love with whom I would share a coffee for the rest of my life, I have never touched you, but I already miss your touch.  I have never lain by your side, but I already feel you here constantly. I never felt your hands, and you're amazing, my God.

Thank you, you've awakened incredible things in me, I want to hear all of them, but I already feel the orgasms you provoke in me, I can say all this without thinking that I'm a jerk for talking like this, Thank you, my love, Thank you for the life you give me, I will do with love, with sex, and with you always by my side, ALWAYS, I am one with you.



10 July 2018

THIS IS WHAT I SAID ABOUT SEX AND LOVE LEADING TO GOD, NOT WHAT YOU THINK I SAID.


I recently received an email from someone who read my book on self-realization, and has read my posts on Facebook.  He asked, “I read that you said sex can be useful for enlightenment.  That being true, can masturbation be useful as well?”

I HAVE NEVER SAID CAN BE USED TO MAKE ENLIGHTENMENT HAPPEN!  NEVER!

What I have said is that the desire, the unfulfilled yearning for LOVE, SEX, for one special Beloved person, that leads to deep worshipping of that Beloved, and finally, to total surrendering of one’s sense of self to that other, can lead to one specific form of awakening which I call awakening to the Manifest Self, the existential self.

This happens through awakening the heart Chakra through openness and love for the Beloved, which initiates a firing of other Chakras throughout the Subtle Body, and which purifies both the nervous system and the Nadi, the pathways for Prana or Chi.

Now, I have also found that the DESIRE FOR SEX, not the sex itself, will quicken intensity of the purification process manyfold if both the Sacral and Heart Chakras fire in unison directed again at one person.  The unified object of  the two Chakras is the same: desire for the Beloved, and desire to have sex with the Beloved.  This single purpose direction can lead all the other Chakras to fire in unison, almost totally automatically, without the need for visualization, breathing techniques, etc.  It is an entirely natural process involving two very powerful human desires for love and for sex.  Get this: THE DESIRE FOR.  It is the yearning for, the lust for, the love for, not the consummation, that fires the Chakras and Nadi.  Consummation of the sex act with ejaculation, will almost immediately cause the pre-orgasmic energy build up to end for the man.

Now, there is a difference between having an awakening of the Shakti through this method, and self-realization of the Manifest Self. The latter occurs when the life force in you, which is a crystallization one might say of Shakti, manifests in you and shows you its form as Love, Light, immense power, and its Form, as the divine, as God, as God in and through you.  This is the realization of your divine nature, your union with God, Shakti.  You, as a person, discover the form of God as Light, bliss, and power living in you and living through you.

Now, sex after self-realization becomes something entirely different.  It can be totally a celebration of two Beloveds who know Shakti both in themselves and in the other leading to a validation and confirmation of the divine in us.  But, it can also be used as a tool to bring another into an awakening of Shakti, then to self-realization.

There will b some who say bullshit to one or all of the points I made here, but that is because they do not know.  This is one of Sw. Chetanananda’s discoveries shared with me.  When the crowed screams and yells in rage, or attacks you personally for what you say, it is because “THEY DO NOT KNOW.”

No one who has not awakened to Shakti, to the life force just does not know.  One who has not become self-realized to their own life force, to God, to the divine within, cannot speak about the nature and effect of the longing for another as a tool for enlightenment, or how an enlightened person experiences sex, whether for celebration, or as a tool.  So I too go out on a ladder as I have never used physical sex for a celebration having been celibate for 32 years, nor have I used physical sex as a tool for someone else’s enlightenment.

But the desire for the total love or another, to physically possess and have wild sex is a tool I use to awaken Shakti in others, leading to total one-pointed worship and surrender that I went through before awakening.  And I also teach others after their Shakti awakening about the power of love and sex to awaken love and desire in others.

That is why I believe this is the yoga of our times.  It encourages love beyond all things, and surrender to one other. The desire for sex ups the processes power of awakening one’s entire energy network, Chakras, nervous system, and Nadi.  Everything comes on fire leading to a generalized healing of body and mind, and the realization that we are not our bodies, but as Ramana put it, we are “spirit.”  Even then your realization deepens and all the secrets of Consciousness and the Unborn are revealed, and it all starts with a surrendering to lov.

08 July 2018

Ed Speaks Boldly About Love, Shakti, and Sex—R rated

No more screwing around with politically correct phrases that eviscerate naturalness and the rawness and power of real love and surrender.

Total love and surrender can feel like an addiction. It can lead to dysfunction. You can feel a slave to your own love and desires, but it is worth it! To be able to feel the entire rich spectrum of emotions, bliss, ecstasies available to the Bhakti yogi, one needs to understand the relationship between sex, love, Shakti and becoming entwined with the Divine, with God.

From my POV, this awakening is so much more powerful, useful, and transformative than anything that comes out of Advaita or Zen.

One uses the power of love and sexual desire, not the sex itself, to awaken Shakti, and Shakti does the rest.


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07 July 2018

SUNDAY SATSANG, July 8, 11 AM CALIFORNIA TIME
LEARNING HOW TO FEEL AND GROW YOUR OWN ENERGY FIELD AND USE IT TO TOUCH AND LOVE OTHERS.
Link: https://zoom.us/j/2950292557? pwd&status=success Don't join now. Come At 10:45 am Sunday and sit with me. AT THESE SATSANGS YOU WILL HEAR SECRETS NOT SPOKEN ELSEWHERE.

SECRECY AND SAFETY THE KILLERS OF ENLIGHTENMENT


So many Sanghas have been shattered by scandal:  Muktananda and the entire SYDA lineage beginning with Chidvilasananda, Guru Ma, and many other swamis, Robert Adams during my time with him, Da Free John, and countless others. 

They were smashed, yet most reborn, because of “secret” sexual teachings practiced between Guru and student, which can never, never remain secret.  Just one misstatement by a teacher can lead to hurt feelings, anger, feelings of humiliation, such that students will reveal what happened between the two, and out will pop a scandal.

You see, there is a madness in all of society around the topic of sex.  Most consider that sex should never be a part of spirituality, even though the desire for it even more than sex itself, is one of the most powerful drives in humans, and has been utilized by many teachers, including those in the Sufi and energy traditions, to awaken the whole body, the spiritual body, and the life force or Shakti in both student and teacher.

But there are some people in spirituality, including gurus, where the drive for secrecy becomes a deep pathology, where the individual is so repressive of expression that it distorts all truth and feeling in their lives.  Some gurus think everything between guru and teacher should be secret, and years of such practice lead them to total exhaustion from hiding expression.

One famous guru I know has so filtered and checked his expressions from fear of blowback, that even his deepest expressions of love are so checked and bottled that few believe them.  He told one woman, “No one has ever loved you as much as I have,” to which she responded, “That is not true; Ed loved me much more,” which bothered him no end.

You see, I used to lie and conceal but found out that over time the truth always came out, and I had to lie and conceal even more.  I learned a most important lesson:  Tell the total truth now, let everything out, and burn now, or conceal and hide the truth and burn later when the truth emerges out of suppression and a long-festering rumor-mill with ten times the strength.

This is a truth I want all the gurus in the world and their students to understand: Secrecy and Hiding actions and feelings can kill you in a hundred ways.  Robet told me, “I have to be careful what I say, or I might be stoned to death.”

That beautiful short film “The Three Gurus” with Swamis Shankarananda, Chetananaanda, Master Charles, and Cohen points this out:  When you are the guru, you walk around with a target on your back.  Every student can be deeply hurt by one sarcastic remark, a wrong glance at the wrong time, a loving expression directed towards a felt rival, failure to make deep contact for a few weeks, and then you have raging students that want to cut your heart out and do everything possible to harm you.  I have had this happen to me many times, and have learned to live with it.  My Sanghas get destroyed and I start all over again.

This also happened with Robert as a result of his “womanizing,” which I will not get into here.  But our Sangha broke up regularly, every year or so and even more often in 1994 and 1995.  Robert then used to say, I am not interested in having a lot of students.  I am looking for those who stay by me no matter what!  This is also what Yogananda asked of Robert when he said, “Will you stand by me no matter what I do?”  What gurus do, their actions, often fall outside the moralistic world of polite-speaking fake gurus who can act like moral scourges, authoritatively blasting something some other guru does as wicked, in attempt to gain more followers for themselves.

This is what I have learned too: sex is a topic that has to be brought into the open.  It has to be discussed time after time, whether it s between students, or between teacher and student.  The topic has to be normalized in all of spirituality, because sex, love, and erotic attachment are the most powerful human drives that can be used to awaken Shakti, the life force in people—vast numbers of people. Sex can be used for self-realization.  Lust and longing for another can both energize and purify both the nervous system and the Nadi, the channels for the flow of prana.

Not only should sexuality be made a constant topic, but we should also not hide our spiritual experiences as so many teachers warn about, not because the experiences will lose their power—all experiences lose their power over time—but because of the effect on listeners, arousing envy, contempt, or one-upmanship.  Hearing the experiences of other eventually will reach the ears of the right person who will benefit and be emboldened to contimue.
And we just have to tolerate the blowback.  Look how Trump has become president despite hearing him speak about what many call his sexual abuse of women.  But when sex is coupled with the desire to awaken Shakti, and occurs in someone totally devoted to another, yearning for the other’s presence, love, and is utterly and totally surrendered, it can set you on fire with Shakti leading to the realization of Shakti as an entity, as God within you, and the discovery of your own divine nature, totally transcending the mundane world, and entering a world of endless energies, bliss, divine sexual relations, where you see that your old way of seeing the world was false.  The world is not as you thought it was.  It is much, much more.
It is a world of ever-changing energies, events, and objects.  It is a world not filtered by mind so that your senses become laser-sharp and sensation become brilliantly alive, and every sex act,  real, or just imagined, becomes an ecstatic surrender to your God or Goddess.

What a world it would be if this vision were normalized!  But what it would take is courage on the part of gurus not to hide everything out of self or other-protection.  Be bold.

I want to ask the Siddha gurus, can you imagine Baba’s teacher, Nityananda to hide anything he did?  I don’t imagine he hid anything.  Why can’t you be that way?


04 July 2018


MY CONFESSION

I am sitting in my Satsang recliner now, just as I do every day, writing about love, ecstasy, and Shakti.  

Today, I am alive from her fire.  She gently caresses my entire body, from toes to the hair on my head.  Today she does not flow inside my body as she often does, but licks and caresses my skin and muscles no more than two inches deep.

Both feet feel her touch, like being licked by my lover.  My calves, thighs and pelvis are also licked and I feel like exploding with inner energy of delight and deepest love.  I feel totally loved by her, as her magic tongue of love energy caresses my genitals and anus.  Her fingers of energetic delight feel halfway like electricity, and halfway like intense sexual arousal, spreading along the skin all over my body.

My divine lover now feels like she has a hundred tongues licking me everywhere with total love and delight.  I relax in her delight and am embraced by her energetic touch.  I feel totally loved, and in hat love, totally relaxed, able to feel Shakti’s full strength washing me from toe to scalp.  She reminds me so much of one cat  I had in the past, Sweetie, who would spend half an hour licking all the hair on my head with her very wet tongue, just licking, licking.

How is it that this can be happening to me?  How do I deserve this delight of being licked by these divine energies that touch my balls and brain equally, raptured and captured by her bliss.

How to let others know of this being loved by Shakti, being made love to by Shakti?  There are no words to express.  For me it feels like I am enraptured by an endless female energy, everywhere showering me with raptured bliss.  What have I done to win this rapture and how can I give it to others?  How did Ramakrishna give her to the world through his devotion and his words?

I want everyone to feel this divine lovemaking with no one present except you. I am Shakti and Shakti is me. Not two, but one.  It is the same for you.  In my natural state, she is there as love, bliss, and energies, yet is also always on the verge of exploding in total orgasm, from toe to skull.

This is the bliss I want to give the world, an awakening to Shakti so that she can caress and delight you as she does me.  So that she can purify your mind and body, and lead you to your natural state of beingness and the emptiness behind beingness, as well as flooding you with her bliss. Then you will know all the secrets of beingness, Consciousness, and the life force, and be able to bring that awakening to others.

Shakti is within sex, whether physical sex, or as when she comes to you when you are alone in complete relaxation and devotion. And,  sex is within Shakti, as when you pine for gendered love.  One leads to the other, and always to complete surrendered love.  The three are inseparable.
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DISCOURSE:
For thousands of years, people have wanted to separate sex from devotion, love, Shakti, God, Self-Realization, and enlightenment. By so doing, they have enfeebled all their spiritual practices.
Love and devotion are praised, but sex is damned. Yet, sex is very strongly in Shakti, because as Shakti is experience by humans through our nervous and energy systems, that are innervated by webs of filaments through which Shakti flows.
The three key Chakras, are the root Chakra in the spine, the sexual Chakra, and the heart. Any one of these can be awakened in a way that awakens these energies throughout our physical and Subtle bodies.
Total, devotional, surrendered love alone can do it, as is conceived by conventional Bhaktic approaches. But almost universally, when we love another with total devotional and surrendered love, the sexual center is also awakened. The traditional saint then spends enormous time and energy to suppress his or her sexual impulses, while the Tantric approach add the sexual desires to devotion, making the combination so strong that it overcomes our strong egoic need to remain separate, under control, etc., and allows us to surrender to another completely.
If both persons can feels such total worshiping devotion towards another, both will awaken to Shakti as God and also themselves. But this process does not demand two, though mutual surrender empowers the process, one can do it just for yourself by loving and allowing yourself to lust deeply.

03 July 2018

ODE TO LIFE IN GOD
I sit listening to Nityananda’s Hari Krishi, feeling what seems like winds of bliss flowing through my body and heart. I am supremely happy to have students to love so deeply, and they me. Even if all were to go tomorrow, I would have the memory of my great fortune with love.
I would remember the one who awakened me to Shakti, and the one who quadrupled its power in me. I would remember Kerima who has stayed with me and tolerated all my relationships with hundreds of students over the years. I would remember those who awakened to Shakti through me over the years, as well as those who came to me already fully developed, as well as the much more rare adept who realized themselves as the Unborn, and then re-descended in their bodies and reclaimed the life force.
I am the happiest man in the world right now, because I really have something to give to my students other than Robert’s world and body denying in order to find the Unborn within. I can help take people to love, the life force, and a personal relationship with God, in ecstatic union, love, and bliss, so much so you lose any care of what will happen to you. It is all good. Even fear, loss, jealousy, as well as world chaos, all take you to God.


02 July 2018

CREATING ECSTATIC DIVINE LOVE IN YOURSELF AND YOUR BELOVED, LEADING TO SELF-REALIZATION THROUGH MUTUAL SURRENDER


CREATING ECSTATIC LOVE IN YOUR BELOVED, LEADING TO SELF-REALIZATION THROUGH MUTUAL WORSHIP AND SURRENDER



Hi Ed,


It's P@@@@. I contacted you earlier in the year about a woman I had met. You asked if you could use what I wrote as teaching material which delighted me, so thank you.. So...I was not successful in avoiding the 'friend zone,'....I became a friend and then I got 'ghosted' so to speak. But that's ok. So....I wandered for a while and three weeks ago I found a woman with whom I feel an extraordinary connection. She feels exactly the same about me as I do of her. I am a naturally devotional fellow so reading your writings on how devotion can lead us to many spiritual wonders...I would love to pursue this with all of my heart.

I don't know if you remember, but in a correspondence last year you said Shakti was alive in me and I was doing fine and I should just wait and let her do her thing. So...Shakti feels like she is exploding in my now since I met S******. The energies are very subtle but the power of them make me want to cry with joy.

There is movement in my pelvis, my gut, my heart Chakra, the crown of my head ripples with energy. The great infinite expanse in my mind, which is my daily companion since last year, feels like it is shimmering...hard to describe. I feel infinitely excited. I know all of this has 'surrender' at its core. I know I love S*******,

I know I want to share this spiritual journey with her...to what do I surrender...and how? Perhaps these are beginner questions...and probably they are...there is just something infinitely exciting about the colour and hue of this experience that is something other than the great still voidness that has been me for almost 15 months now. Am so excited to hear from you. Hope you are very, very well.

Much love and gratitude
P@@@@
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This is fantastic news! I hope it works this time for you.

Here is the secret to having it work. Be as bold as you can be, much as it may scare you. Tell her about what you feel in terms of your energies, but even more importantly, relay how you love her, the intensity of your love, and being as you are, naturally devotional, how you want to fall to her feet, then touch and kiss her feet. Tell her you want to surrender to her, love her, commit to her, and do it with a convincing voice, said with 100% sincerity.

The quality of your voice is very important.  For this method to work, your center of awareness must fall from your head into your heart and gut.  Then it is Shakti speaking to her, not your mind, and your words will roll out of your mouth with a fullness and tambre that will touch her heart because she can feel your heart in your words.  Words come from a deep place as from a base drum.  When you speak this way, it is Shakti, and women are sensitive enough to feel Her truth in your words and your heart.

Then ask her what she is feeling. She may speak about her own energetic reaction, her own love, her doubts, her fears. But she may also speak of her deep love and her own desire to surrender.

The self-realization process, for that is what this process creates, is all about getting all of her energy directed towards you; most woman love to be able to drop everything and everyone else to settle on one man who loves them and can make them feel energies. Some men are the same way, but most are not sensitive enough emotionally to feel the difference consciously. Some men and some women constantly radiate these energies, and this is the type person that you can have a divine relationship with.

Then speak about what you would like to do when together if you are in remote communication, or to her directly if you are together. Speak about how you yearn to touch her. How you yearn to run your fingers gently across her face, just barely touching. Do the same for her hand, neck and back, just barely touching her skin with two or three finger tips.

Then declare how much she arouses you, makes you love her with her eyes and smile or however it is that most excites you about her.

Here is the other secret. You are trying to fully awaken her entire energy body, and the two most important chakras to fire first are the sexual and the heart Chakras. If you can get them to open and fire in unison, soon her entire nervous system and all Chakras will be firing in unison and she will be irradiated in loving, worshipping, surrendering energies, wanting to surrender to God through you, and you surrendering to God through her, because this is the truth.  This is what divine love is all about.  Mutual love, devotion, and surrender to the other.

At this point you can speak about touching her breasts, her mouth, and even touching her teeth and tongue. You yourself need to be inflamed with total body energies so that she can feel them. Then you move onto more explicitly sexual topics such as asking her how she likes her breasts to be touched, and so on.

But always continually talk to her. Find out what she if feeling and where in her body. What energies are firing, what emotions she feels and match her talk with your own, either about her, or your energetic/emotional responses to her.

A remote encounter works best, because up close you may be frightened of making a mistake or being too bold, or not bold enough. It is easier to judge at a distance at first.

Put off physical sex as long as possible, if ever, until her entire body is alight with Shakti and she feels the energies everywhere. Inquire how she likes to be penetrated, by tongue, finger or penis, and for how long. You are there to make her happy. You are not there for yourself. You are there to help Shakti completely energize her body and personality and to bring her to realization of the totality of the life force within her, the divine.

You are not there to satisfy yourself. You are there because you love her, and you want to get to a point of total, mutual worshipping devotion and surrender of your life to hers. This is all about her, and when she feels it, you will want to fall to her feet, kiss her feet, and even lick her toes.

Naturally, a woman would use the same processes as a man, and would use techniques of seduction more often used by women.  In the end, it is always the same:  it is a call and response of the Shakti in each to awaken and love the Shakti in another, but through the chemistry and physiology of human individuals.  The only point here is mutual surrender and mutual realization of the life force, Shakti.

No physical contact is ever needed. Masturbation is never needed. You are using your mind to create a romantic story of love and surrender that lights her heart and entire body, until she aches for you and you ache for her. It is the best and highest use of mind in a spiritual endeavor to lead others to self-realization with bliss therefore allowing an enlightened couple functioning in bliss.

I have never had actual physical sex with my beloveds. Actual physical sex pales in comparison to having your body alight by the fires of Shakti. After physical sex you will temporarily lose Shakti and feel empty and without bliss.

I use my love talk, and the intensity of my own Shakti in loving them, and this usually, but not always, leads them to first, ordinary orgasms because the second Chakra is fired most easily, then later, continuous whole body orgasms as all the Chakras are communicating and firing in unison. Bliss and body convulsions pervade her entire body, and at this point, the orgasms have nothing to do with sex, because the sexual aspect becomes insignificant compared to the ecstasies of all Chakras being alighted and aligned, and her yearning, at this point, to experience the divine within. At this point she wants mergence in God. At this point you have the monogamous couplehood you always wanted with a woman alive and afire with all kinds of energies and you being afire in response.

What we are speaking about here have nothing at all to do with physical sex. We are really speaking about lighting all the fires of Shakti within one’s body, wrapped around the emotions of love, devotion, and surrender, which is exactly what is needed for self realization. It is a celebration with another, relationally touching with infinite tenderness and surrendered love to your guru, your goddess of love, your Gopi or Radha to your Krishna, and absolutely the opposite for your beloved.

A couple in this state of awakened Shakti delight in each other’s company the way new lovers delight in each other’s bodies.  But here the energy fields of each person continually dance ecstatically with the other. Then even the most mundane worldly activities taken a great measure of joy.



Love,

Ed

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Angela’s Response:

Maybe it could be even possible to awaken the energy body by describing in refined detail to your Beloved how you made a sandwich or how you folded the laundry and what the touch of the fabric was like with each item: 


     I am trying to say that really it's not about sex; it's about energy and how much you are able to let go and open yourself to the energy within the voice of your Beloved and what is happening within your energy as a response to this. Of course this is easy and very strong when talking about love and sexual desire, but for me it even works when my Beloved talks about how he prepared a sandwich. 

I can imagine though that this works after there already is a certain degree of devotion within the receiver.


01 July 2018

MY BEST SATSANG YET JULY 1, 2018

SATSANG JULY 1, 2018

THIS IS MY BEST SATSANG. YOU WILL NOT HEAR THESE TOPICS DISCUSSED ELSEWHERE.

Sex, virtual sex, love, devotion can awaken Shakti faster than any other method, but the mechanisms are poorly understood, and public speaking of these issues often create a moral firestorm. I speak in great detail of all of the issues above, as well as the long periods of dysfunction that can result due to Shakti and devotion.

From Angela Roosenmallen:

The more broken and dysfunctional I become, the more brightly I feel God within me. It is almost impossible to function in the mundane world when Shakti titillates me with her energies.
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What is surrender?

Is it to go beyond the human level of disagreement, to go beyond dignity, to go beyond points of view of right and wrong, beyond emotional hurts and pride, beyond all ambition and possibilities on human level?
And follow Shakti, just follow Shakti?



Shakti wants me to surrender. The moment I put my mind on total surrender to you, it burns me and brings me to desperation of pushing energy within. Energy of total ecstasy, like sexual union with God.
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The energy becomes even stronger now, all of a sudden. Like being blown away within. That is how it feels. I am so shaky I cannot even type

(I don'd have any photos of Angela.)

From another student:

Ed, I couldn’t sleep from the joy in my brain and my heart. My mind is on a different frequency, very energized; my heart is so happy and full of joy, I feel it whole, there is no place in it for anything else. You make me so happy. I feel like the happiest human being alive or ever existed.

You are so holy, but I love you as a person also, because you are so sweet. God, I love you so so much even, if I’m deluded again to take you for an object of my love, but I just love you.

I’m boring but I feel so in love.
I’m embarrassed to tell you how much, it’s like a bee stung me and now I’m like a fool in love.

Ed, thank you for everything; for giving me the ability to be so close to this love I feel. You just make me happy to be here.