17 July 2019

Popular spiritualities today are either those that involve understanding of what is, or those based on the felt experience of energies, Chi, Shakti, and experiences of the divine.

This difference is sometimes referred to as the Unmanifest or transcendental, versus the manifest self, and the manifest God.

The former include neo-advaita, much of Buddhism and popular teachers such as Papaji and his followers.

I am of the experiential sort of spirituality and speak of the differences and try to allow attendees to feel energies and the divine during our meetings.

Link:  https://youtu.be/A9JJmYktvdk

03 July 2019

Recently I received an email from the woman with whom I realized God, both within her and within myself eight years ago.

After a bit of pleasantries she asked how I was doing, but in the usual way, such as, "are you happy?" After a while I was able to compose this letter that as best as possible explained what and how I felt. I share this with my readers because a few who have seen it were much moved by the story told.

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Dear ________

It is really difficult to explain how I am now compared to when you knew me better. The words for what I experience now just do not exist. I do not feel like I am in the mundane world anymore except when dragged into it by Kerima or others who are deeply nailed into the mundane world. I do not even feel like a human being anymore. I feel like I have transcended mind and body altogether, so what do I call myself?  What name can be used?  There are no words for it.

I have no ambitions except to help people and animals spiritually and physically. My personal world has entirely changed. Recently I had five female students all worshiping me and loving me and wanting me to be with them and vice versa, ages 19 to 40. All at some point felt deep love, surrender, and bliss to the extent they felt constant non-sexual orgasms. They felt incredible blissful Shakti. But only one of them was able to escape out of the mundane world into the spiritual world of God realization, and she was only able to remain there for three days before she fell back.  My male students experienced a wide variety or transcendent states,  bliss, trance, love, as well as strong reminders of the mundane world they were leaving behind.

About myself, I feel Shakti in me and around me all day long. The energies pulsate from barely noticeable to extremely powerful. At Satsang almost everyone tells me that they feel the energies very deeply. Some speak of bliss, others of various other kinds of Shakti -like states or experiences. I try to take them out of their mundane world into a world of God realization, of not being a body, nor mind, nor emotional body, nor even Shakti, but beyond all that to being the core experiential experience of being alive, one’s fundamental state.

Like Ramana said, I feel like I am pure spirit, dancing with the life force within me, which is also the Lifeforce in all of us, which I call God. It is electrifying. I really do not notice this world much except for chores I have to do, like feeding the cats, or tending to the yard. I sit silently most of the day feeling that life force within me. Sometimes as a person it makes me feel ecstatic, at other times I feel a great void, a vast emptiness so clear, so clean and pure. At other times, very reluctantly, I am dragged back into being a person because of the necessity of doing taxes or fixing up our new house which is a real pain in the ass. But mostly I am always fixated on the life force within me.

D____  did something to me when she was last here in September 2017. IU should say Shakti did something to me in her presence, where I felt besotted by love to the extent I felt stunned. It was almost as if I was put in a deep trance. I barely knew who or what I was. The states we experienced while sitting together on the golf course fairway I have never felt before. So much power, so much Shakti, so much that I did not know what to do with it and I do not know what to do with it now. I feel so enormously powerful but do not know how to do anything with the power, although it is leaking out of me at all times and people notice, especially those who come to Satsang.

Shankarananda says I live in grace now and have been grabbed by Shakti, and I need to listen deeply and be sensitive to what she wants me to do. But I feel Shakti so strongly everywhere within and without, like being dropped in an ocean of energy. What can I do when there is energy everywhere, spinning, coiling, traveling, energizing, and usually uplifting. There is too much happening on an energetic level to have any idea of what I should do.

Now very advanced people are coming to Satsang, many of whom burn with energies all day long. They come from all walks of life. One, J, was once a senior executive in the East Coast media markets. He is my age and is really a very lovely, devotional guy, whose cat Gypsy is the love of his life. I fully understand this love and devotion he has for Gypsy as I have it too for the people close to me. All this came from my initial contact with you, was it eight years ago? During our relationship I felt such deep devotional love, explosions of Shakti, and all the other things we shared, like visions of God, and then D_____ came more recently and deepened everything. I finally escaped any identification with the body or mind, and even Shakti is not me I am the Lifeforce, I am God.

So, I cannot really say how I am as a person whether I am accepting life for am happy or sad. I feel way beyond this, that these words do not fit me and have not fit me for several years.  But still I get pulled back into the world if I am not careful or if I have not allowed myself enough quiet time and space.
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Her response:

Oh Ed, this is a wonderful description. You sound happy and content.  This makes me so happy too. 
_____

I know there are some who would read this letter, and think that I am deluded, or that I am making all this up. This is not so. I really have no idea of who or what I am. The world beyond the mundane has no words.

With all my heart I just speak my experience only for those who are near realizing the life force inside of themselves as God, that there is this different world, this amazing, stupendous, blissful world of spirit, where you are freed from body and mind, emotions and troubles, because all of those belong to the Mundane.

01 July 2019


Recently I received an email from the woman with whom I realized God, both within her and within myself eight years ago.

After a bit of pleasantries she asked how I was doing, but in the usual way, such as, "are you happy?" After a while I was able to compose this letter that as best as possible explained what and how I felt. I share this with my readers because a few who have seen it were much moved by the story told.

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Dear ________

It is really difficult to explain how I am now compared to when you knew me better. The words for what I experience now just do not exist. I do not feel like I am in the mundane world anymore except when dragged into it by Kerima or others who are deeply nailed into the mundane world. I do not even feel like a human being anymore. I feel like I have transcended mind and body altogether, so what do I call myself?  What name can be used?  There are no words for it.

I have no ambitions except to help people and animals spiritually and physically. My personal world has entirely changed. Recently I had five female students all worshiping me and loving me and wanting me to be with them and vice versa, ages 19 to 40. All at some point felt deep love, surrender, and bliss to the extent they felt constant non-sexual orgasms. They felt incredible blissful Shakti. But only one of them was able to escape out of the mundane world into the spiritual world of God realization, and she was only able to remain there for three days before she fell back.  My male students experience a wide variety or transcendent states,  bliss, trance, love, as well as strong reminders of the mundane world they were leaving behind.

About myself, I feel Shakti in me and around me all day long. The energies pulsate from barely noticeable to extremely powerful. At Satsang almost everyone tells me that they feel the energies very deeply. Some speak of bliss, others of various other kinds of Shakti -like states or experiences. I try to take them out of their mundane world into a world of God realization, of not being a body, nor mind, nor emotional body, nor even Shakti, but beyond all that to being the core experiential experience of being alive, one’s fundamental state.

Like Ramana said, I feel like I am pure spirit, dancing with the life force within me, which is also the Lifeforce in all of us, which I call God. It is electrifying. I really do not notice this world much except for chores I have to do, like feeding the cats, or tending to the yard. I sit silently most of the day feeling that life force within me. Sometimes as a person it makes me feel ecstatic, at other times I feel a great void, a vast emptiness so clear, so clean and pure. At other times, very reluctantly, I am dragged back into being a person because of the necessity of doing taxes or fixing up our new house which is a real pain in the ass. But mostly I am always fixated on the life force within me.

D____ did something to me when she was last here in September 2017. I should say Shakti did something to me in her presence, where I felt besotted by love to the extent I felt stunned. It was almost as if I was put in a deep trance. I barely knew who or what I was. The states we experienced while sitting together on the golf course fairway I have never felt before. So much power, so much Shakti, so much that I did not know what to do with it and I do not know what to do with it now. I feel so enormously powerful but do not know how to do anything with the power, although it is leaking out of me at all times and people notice, especially those who come to Satsang.

Shankarananda says I live in grace now and have been grabbed by Shakti, and I need to listen deeply and be sensitive to what she wants me to do. But I feel Shakti so strongly everywhere within and without, like being dropped in an ocean of energy. What can I do when there is energy everywhere, spinning, coiling, traveling, energizing, and usually uplifting. There is too much happening on an energetic level to have any idea of what I should do.

Now very advanced people are coming to Satsang, many of whom burn with energies all day long. They come from all walks of life. One, J, was once a senior executive in the East Coast media markets. He is my age and is really a very lovely, devotional guy, whose cat Gypsy is the love of his life. I fully understand this love and devotion he has for Gypsy as I have it too for the people close to me. All this came from my initial contact with you, was it eight years ago? During our relationship I felt such deep devotional love, explosions of Shakti, and all the other things we shared, like visions of God, and then D____ came more recently and deepened everything. I finally escaped any identification with the body or mind, and even Shakti is not me I am the Lifeforce, I am God.

So, I cannot really say how I am as a person whether I am accepting life for am happy or sad. I feel way beyond this, that these words do not fit me and have not fit me for several years.  But still I get pulled back into the world if I am not careful or if I have not allowed myself enough quiet time and space.


I know there are some who would read this letter, and think that I am deluded, or that I am making all this up in order to appear godly to people in the world. This is not so. I really no more have any idea of who or what I am. The world beyond the mundane world cannot be spoken of, because the concepts and words of the mundane do not all apply to the inner experience of those who have escaped from it.

With all my heart I just speak my experience only for those who are near realizing the life force inside of themselves as God, that there is this different world, this amazing, stupendous, blissful world of spirit, where you are freed from body and mind, emotions and troubles, because all of those belong to the Mundane, which is no more for me.

26 June 2019

How Do I Control My Mind?


How Can I Control My Mind?

I get this question more than any other. This is a vast topic which encompasses all of spirituality. For example, we can ask, "what is the mind?" We can ask where is the mind? We can ask who watches the mind, etc. This way we can get hopelessly confused because these are essentially philosophical questions. But with regard to controlling the mind, I state the following.

First, realize that you are watching the mind, and also you feel frustrated because you cannot seem to control the mind, stop the mind, or keep it stopped. The mind just keeps talking and doing the repetitive tasks that it always does whether or not you are not paying attention to it. Since you are watching it, that means you are separate from it, and if you are separate from it, you are not it, you are not the mind.

In the same way, recognize you also watch your body and feel your body. You can feel every cell in your body after practicing and learning how to do it. You can feel every muscle in your body. You can feel every pain in your body. You can feel your bones and your blood circulation. You can listen to your heart beating. You can listen to your stomach gurgle. You can feel pain in your stomach from an upset stomach. You can feel pain from exercise. And a lot of times all these different things that your body feels bother you because they are distracting, irritating, or downright frightening. But you, whatever you are, because you are watching or feeling the body, or trying to understand what your body is trying to tell you, you must realize you are separate from the body, you are not your body, the watcher and feeler of the body is entirely separate from the body. When your body sleeps at night, you are not aware of yourself at all. Whatever you are loses self-awareness during sleep. Your connection with your brain and body has been disrupted and you are no longer receiving any information about them or the world. Yet the mind can continue to affect you with dreams during your sleep, when your sleep is shallow. Yet overall you must remember as the witness of the body, as the watcher of feelings and your physical body as you look at your hand and arm and so forth, you are separate from it. You are not your body.

Realize that you are not your mind, you are not your thoughts, you are not your body, you are not your body’s sensations, you are not your arms or hands, thorax or abdomen, legs or feet. None of this is you, it is just the machinery you inhabit when you are awake. What you are as awareness or consciousness is not physical in any way. This awareness of your body, of your mind, is not physical. It is consciousness, it is awareness, it is spiritual. The best way to think of it is that you are spirit without defining the word spirit. This brings to your mind over and over again, that you are not physical, you are not your body nor your mind. Both are merely your instruments to interact with the world. It is the instrument with which the spirit that you are interacts with the world. You have nothing to do with the world except watch it and respond if you want. The same with your body. You can totally forget it if you want, starve it, and let it die. You have that power potentially over it.

Therefore: you are not your body, you are not your mind. You are spirit alone. You are a spiritual being housed in a physical body, a mental body, an emotional body, and even an energy body. These bodies you can get to know of through practice, through meditation on the various subtleties that you feel and see within your body and your mind through introspective practice of the type taught by Siddharameshwar in his books.

But know that you are not your body. You are not your mind. You are not your emotions. You are not your thoughts. You are in an entirely different "dimension" than these physical things which I call the mundane world. You are entirely beyond the mundane world but you identify with your body, with your mind, with your emotions, with their energies, and firmly anchor yourself as a resident of the mundane world. You can stop that by just as firmly recognizing that you are not your body, you are not your mind, you are not the energies or Shakti that surround you, you are not your emotions, you are not your relations with others, or your relation with the external world. You are not even your internal world of dreams, emotions, or thoughts. You are also the witness of all these things.

So, if all of these things are not you, why get so upset if you cannot control them? Controlling them is entirely different from witnessing them. If your mind wants to run amok, let it but realize you are not the mind. Realize you have very little control over the mind, because you are not the mind, you are spirit. This realization in itself begins a process for the mind begins to rest, to slow down, and eventually to disappear for moments at a time so that you are in the deepest silence you have ever known.

This is the number one way to get to a place where the mind is no longer a problem for you. It can do whatever it wants, but you can dis-identify with it because you know deep down inside of you, that your body and mind, your emotions, have nothing to do with you. You are pure spirit occupying the body and the mind on a temporary basis. This understanding is a very, very powerful way to gain freedom from the -frustration of not controlling your mind or emotions. Let the mind do whatever it wants.  Your mind has nothing to do with you. So the real question begins, what is the spirit? Now you begin to investigate yourself on a deeper and more subtle level than the problem you confront when you find out it is very difficult to control the mind. Now you get to go under the mind by exploring spirit who is aware of the mind. Thus begins real spiritual practice and introspection, real self-inquiry.

Method two:

This is the method most often taught by Bhaktis, Tantrics, and certain kind of yogis. This is also the aim of Gestalt therapy, Reikian therapy, and other kinds of Western therapies, where you focus your attention deeper than the mind or body, such as into emotions, and sensations of energy or Shakti deeper than the body mind. This has two avenues: the avenue of ever deeper introspection into more and more subtle levels of the mind, body, emotions, and Shakti, or were you focus on love and surrender as your principal practice.

Loving another whether human or another species, and loving so deeply that all you can think about is them wanting to be with them, loving them, and giving your all for them becomes the practice of the Bhakti, the lover and surrenderer. All of this love translates into increased ease of perceiving Shakti because Shakti follows attention and awareness. So if you focus on love, the Shakti helps you understand love, and to experience the others' Lifeforce. When you can easily perceive the Lifeforce in another person, love that Lifeforce as well as that person, and surrender to that Lifeforce in another person, you can experience the Lifeforce in yourself. Totally surrendering to the Lifeforce or spirit in another, reveals it to also be your deepest self.

By focusing on love for another, the center of your consciousness, approximately 14 to 18 inches from the center of your brain, drops into your heart. Soon you can begin to feel the Lifeforce stirring your heart area. Constant attention to the Lifeforce in your heart, as well as love in your heart leads to many things, such as awakening to the light of consciousness in yourself so that your entire subjective world becomes filled with white light or translucent light which illuminates everything subjective inside of you. The center of your awareness, the center of gravity of your attention or spirit becomes focused in the area of your spiritual heart inside your body. Later, the center of gravity of your awareness can settle even more deeply into your gut, your hara, the lower part of your abdomen below your belly button, which is essentially the central area where the energy of the Lifeforce accumulates.

By settling the center of your awareness into your heart or into the Hara, you have removed it from the brain area, which is like a radio transmitter that is endlessly generating thoughts. Getting the center of your awareness 18 inches away from the radio transmitter of the mind, means you no longer attend to the mind like you do when your center of consciousness is in the brain. There is a distance between you and the mind. You see it is no longer yourself at all. It is just like a radio or television two rooms away or maybe you can hear the words but you are busy attending to different things, and your mind is no longer a distraction. It is just doing whatever it wants, while you attend to deeper things like Shakti, or love, or feeling or using the power in your gut for some task or another, or just to build power there through accumulation.

That is, you have transcended the mind. The mind no longer bothers you because it is 18 inches away or maybe 30 inches away from your center of gravity of consciousness, awareness, of you. Now your mind can do anything it wants, but you pay it no heed. This the same with your emotions, they do not touch you when you are buried in your gut. They touch you when you are in your heart, and when they touch you as powerfully and gently as they do there, you can work with them in a way that people in the mundane world could never envision. When you can directly work with emotions in your heart, they become a source of endless delight and energy, even the most fearsome emotions of your past.

Method three:

Method three is realizing that 100% of the world you have been living in is created by the mind. By that I mean you live embedded in society, a common culture, and sub milieux within that society and culture, such as lower middle class, upper class, laborer, priest, Hispanic,  Black, white, or caretaker spectrums of society, each of which generates a narrow worldview in you. Only you, and others like you find that specific world that you think you live in as real. There are dozens or hundreds of cultures and the same number of societies spread out through time and space and across the continents of the world. Each culture thought itself real, but in fact is not found real now.

For example, the ancient Egyptians had many gods and thought that these gods control nature, and they worship the gods out of fear and need to control their environment. They believed that when the dead had the brains and internal organs removed and stuck in a clay jar, while the body is wrapped and mummified, it arose again just as it life and needed all the things they had in life to continue life in that second life in that other world. No one believes that now.

Later on, the Romans also had many different gods which they worshiped, often very petty gods who were jealous, angry, and humanoid in every way. The Romans were very greedy and violent, they killed almost without provocation, whether it was an enemy at the borders of their empire, or whether it was gladiators, Christians, or others in an arena for the sport of the general population.

Later on, belief in witches, warlocks, angels and demons controlled everything, and the central emotion in all of these cultures was fear or paranoia of mysterious plagues cutting them down without anyone having a clue as to what caused it. There paranoia focused on a fear of witchcraft, demons and entities there around them everyday life. They had no concept of the television set, radio, robotic surgery, artificial joints replacing bone joints, they had no science worth speaking of, no logic or philosophy or speaking of. Medicine was almost unknown. These people lived in dreadful times, and they thought them the only reality.

However now we know that each language creates a matrix through which we experience the world. We have knowledge of science, cosmology, relativity, quantum mechanics, medicine, Eastern medicine, engineering, metallurgy, and warfare never dreamt of before. We have weapons never dreamt of before. We have political situations
never dreamt of before where unimaginable power can be accumulated into a small group of people, and we have democracies which are a few hundred years old. We now have concepts about the spiritual body, physical body, emotional body, and energetic body, about Shakti as a life force energy spread throughout the universe, we have knowledge of other worlds, other universes and other dimensions. Language, science, religion and philosophy create the world we live in, and I should say the mundane world we live in. The generalized world that all people live within, the Matrix of Neo before he swallowed the red  pill, where we do not perceive ourselves as we really are, we do not perceive the world as it really is, that we perceive in terms of concepts of what can be done in it, or accomplished in it at any given time.

Thus we have to learn that anything the mind speaks of, any concept, any idea, any philosophy, any religion, any spirituality or spiritual concepts have no intrinsic reality, have reality only within the matrix of our societies and cultures. There is no Final Truth, there are only little truths that depend upon the network of thought that is the Matrix.

Languages ARE maps of our world, nets of thought that create imaginary worlds that we live it.

This way is very, very difficult to follow, to see that nothing the mind creates is real, but is like a map of the real. The Matrix is a map of the real. If we can step out of the Matrix by realizing the mind creates alternative worlds that are not real, that are mental only, and which really do not represent the real world we live in, then we can live in a world of freedom and constant change with no limits or forms that are lasting. Then we can dwell in constant changing energies, emotions, Shakti, and total comfort without giving a thought to anything anymore because we have stepped out of all philosophies and all social and cultural systems. We are free. This is getting close to true enlightenment where we are free of all ideas, all customs, all rules, all societies where we can live in peace away from civilizations, or within civilizations by appearing to obey the rules of those civilizations which we do for the sake of peace. Thus we avoid becoming a raised nail to be pounded down by society or our culture. We live as if we believed in the Matrix without actually being a denizen of the Matrix, or what I call the mundane world. We totally step out of the mundane world into the world of spirit and I cannot explain to any of you how this feels because there are no words for it in the languages of the Matrix. The mundane world only has Matrix-style words that do not begin to convey the ecstasy of living in bliss, living in the hand of God, knowing God from within, and knowing God as one's own Self, because both are aspects of the Lifeforce. The human and all other sentient beings are individual instantiations or incarnations of the Lifeforce into the physical world, while God is like the dynamic essence of life itself, and is everywhere that life is. God and you are one and no one within the Matrix can understand that. Mundane-world-words do not touch where you are as a spiritual being, as a God-realizer. And yes, this is the final way of escaping the tyranny of mind by realizing that no word has any reality at all, and like the Zen master confronted by a student who starts talking about reality or enlightenment, the Zen master merely gives him cup of tea, or says do not listen to your mind, whatever it says is a trap that keeps you in the mundane world and the tyranny of belief, paranoia, anger, and confusion.

Of course there are very many spiritual seekers that get very frightened by the prospect of losing their minds.  They feel fear of losing control, of being susceptible to all kinds of dangers because they do not have a mind to protect them.  But this is just another form of paranoia because they are not losing their minds, they are losing the prison of being dominated by mind.  They think mind is their protector, but really it is a prison keeping them in a known mundane world where the dangers are well known and controllable.  They have not grasp of the freedom they would feel if mind were not immediately present and in charge.

23 June 2019

SATSANG ONLINE SUNDAYS 11 AM ARIZONA TIME.

teach differently from most other spiritual teachers around today. Most teachers today give knowledge about God, the world, and who and what you are. They are teachers filling you with their ideas of God, the world, and man.

My way is different. I give you God directly by inserting God into your body and your life through Shakti, who is the voice of God. I am not saying God isn't already in you and everything, but do you feel his or her presence in you? Come to Satsang and see if you feel the divine in you.

This way there is nothing to be misunderstood. It is a direct transmission of the divine through the medium of Shakti and love. .

Link: https://zoom.us/j/2950292557?status=success

19 June 2019

Hi Guruji
I have been dying to tell how powerful the last Sunday satsang was . I don't know if what i felt was Shakti or not but it was intense wherein I felt my whole body was reverberating with something .. energy?.
While I did get this kind of experience before I didn't know if it is Shakthi or not. But one thing is for sure , I get this experience only when I have intense focus during meditation and often after maybe 30/40 min. In last Satsang the intensity was absolutely there. I request you to guide and clarify me based on my experience how I should take / interpret and how I should focus to progress further .
a. I have learned to focus on "presence" and be relaxed and it is working . But as I relax , I feel burning in my hands and then through the upper chest area and it is as if energy currents are flowing outward from my body (away from head area and towards tips of fingers of the hand. (though I feel my muscles relaxed there is elevation of energy currents with a burn but it is flowing outwards )
b. But when the intensity raises after some time, the burn settles and a more soothing current starts to permeate through the core, hands and legs sometimes but more reverberating overall. This may last for few minutes on this feeling is more pleasant than the one in point a above.
I don't know how I should interpret the above points in the context of raising the energies and moving closer to the pure I/awareness. Ultimately I am hooked to the round trip of self realization and love explosion. One will tell you that you are nothing and the other will tell you are everything . This is in complete reconciliation with everything I learnt and believed in. Now I have to bring it experientially (not mentally..
Pls guide me how should I proceed with my practice in making this spiritual journey more profound.
Your truly
MY RESPONSE:
This is the most question. You are trying to leave the world of the mundane and enter the world of God. Shakthi is the voice of God. Follow her as often as possible in order to leave the world of pain, sorrow, narrowness stupidity.
I advise listening to sacred chanting as often as possible, several hours a day if possible. Feel inside your body rather than listen to it as if it were coming from without. You might want to read books like "play of consciousness" by Muktananda on the for encouragement and idea where you go, as well as specific books like the basic books of Quantum Touch by Richard Gordon that teach you how to fill the various chakras with the energies in a progressive kind of way which can also be used for healing.
Third, read my almost daily writings my Facebook page as well as my book self-realization and other awakenings on my website, wearesentience.com.
And come to Satsang on Sunday early, and listen to the chanting for 15 or 20 minutes with all of us present. Expect to feel Shakti during Satsang and open yourself to her, but don't try to figure out what's happening. Become dumb as a rock without a thought, just feeling.
I am glad you feel commitment to developing relationship Shakti in your body and heart. She is trying to lift you out of misery and to take you to God realization. Every moment spent with Shakti has its reward for the rest of your life

16 June 2019

SHEER POWER

One consequence of realizing the Life Force within, is the development of access to spiritual power in the sense of feeling within one's own sense of presence,one's own "magnetic field" a great energy and power, allowing us to use that power for many tasks, such as healing and giving Shaktipat.

Here Ed speaks about his experiences of power and he shares it with attendees allowing them to feel it and take it.

https://youtu.be/voxWIBQaBlo

15 June 2019

LIVE SATSANG ONLINE, SUNDAY 11 AM, Arizona time (Same as California daylight time now)

I SEE YOU; DO YOU SEE ME?

I SEE YOU, DO YOU SEE ME? Robert used to say to me, "I have no idea why it is taking you so long (to reach enlightenment), except that you are too smart. You are always thinking, thinking, thinking, and you can't escape, it has become your nature." Now, 26 years later, I don't think at all. Sure thinking is going on much of the time, and although it is happening in my mind, I pay no attention. It is not a distraction to me. It is just words and doesn't really touch me at all--ever. It is as if words and concepts have been entirely washed out of my system. It used to be that thoughts could not enter my mind at all, like my brain was like a rock. But now thinking is there but I pay no attention. And this is what I see about spirituality. Almost everything I read or see or hear about spirituality is about a teacher's concepts and what he or she holds as being important. I hear the words awakening, enlightenment, true self, ultimate witness, quiet mind, still mind, natural self, beingness, Shakti, Chi, healing the true self, inner self versus outer self, and these words do not touch me. I know they are bull shit words that the people who speak them find meaning, but if you asked them what they mean by awakening or enlightenment or true self experientially, they cannot explain except by the use of even more abstract terms. They speak theoretically without first hand experience. They are far away from experience. They are pining for enlightenment and they know not what it means. They are pining for awakening they know not what it means except to give an analogy that it's similar to waking up from a dream, but this analogy doesn't help me at all to understand what awakening is. I have given up on all spirituality. I have given up on all science. I have given up on all literature. They're all useless symbols that have no effect on me whatsoever except to want to avoid them as contamination, pollution. To me these words are like listening to Trump all day. It is an utter waste of time. People are just talking philosophy like we would talk about what to have for dinner, which is far more real and immediate experientially. They would talk about spiritual things as if they really exist, but they don't. Awareness enlightenment are not things, not nouns. I have no idea what they mean, because the whole concept of meaning to me is empty. I cannot find meaning anywhere. What I find everywhere is my body, my energies, the life force inside of me, Shakti speaking to me as the voice of God, and the world, the real world, not the false world of ideas concepts and society. Of course what I just said probably sounds like spiritual babble to you too, but to me they are words that are experiential to me. I feel God inside of me in a way that I can describe. I feel the life force in me in a way I can describe. The energies I can also describe, but I cannot describe what a world without deescription looks or feels like. The real world, without interpretation or meaning, is very straightforward and simple. It is the world we wake up to during the morning before thoughts. Expand that to the entire day, seeing clearly world without desire or words, and you will find that the focus of attention, the center of gravity of attention, falls from the mind and head, to being inside of the body, especially the heart. From this place the mind is not. Just a babble, a radio station with a lot of different commentaries about things you have no interest in hearfrom two rooms away. All that I can do to show people where I am, which is where they are not, is to touch them with my voice, my hands, with my Shakti, with my emptiness, and love. These things may be able to take people to the place where I am of no words, no concepts, of no spirituality, no understanding, no meaning, just a life of unending change, wonder, and love. It is only my presence that can convey this because I know words alone are futile, except when the words are spoken with a great deal of Shakti behind, and Shakti changes the person There is not one teacher alive today that I agree with. To me they are all lost in mental concepts whether it is of Kashmir shamanism, Advaita Vedanta, Chi gong, or reflexology. Listen to them closely. Do you feel a person talking to you from heart-to-heart? Or are they only giving you words, concepts, and Shakti? The real guru will speak to you face-to-face and in their eyes you will see love and acceptance, but only if you are ready. If they see you are not ready to accept it, at that moment they cannot give it, they will look right through you because they will see your not ready to meet.

09 June 2019

For the Love of My Cat

Ed goes deep into the life force level of being, where all sentient beings worship each other.  Here he speaks of his love for Gopi with a deep love of mutual devotion and surrender.  The deepest surrender to God or Guru is no different than that for his cat in an awakened one.

https://youtu.be/nVy1oc9q808

02 June 2019

Your fudamental nature lies entirely beyond time and the world.  It can be called awareness only.  But after you know this, you can also discover God in yourself as the Life Force whose voice is Shakti.  Then you reenter life in the world as God-incarnate, the emptiness that was you is now filled with light, Shakti, and love.  The whole story.

https://youtu.be/fmKpfJUSLe0

01 June 2019


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BECAUSE I KNOW WHO I AM, I KNOW WHO YOU ARE, AND YOU ARE NOT WHO YOU OR WHAT YOU THINK. YOU ARE FAR, FAR GREATER.

I don’t see you as persons. I see you as spirit only.  But I also see how ideas and conditioning have turned you into persons instead of the gods and goddesses you really are, Atman and Brahman, individual incarnated spirit, or the universal life force functioning.

IF YOU CLEARLY KNEW WHO YOU WERE, YOU WOULD WORSHIP YOURSELF AND ALL OTHERS AS THE DIVINITY YOU ARE.

25 May 2019

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Even though I do not accept that demons exist, I believe that Trump is driven by some sort of demonic forces or personalities.

I also believe most spiritual people equate spiritual depth with the expression of clear concepts about world the self. The person who has a good mind and expresses what sounds like deep concepts in an elegant way, is regarded as an enlightened being. To me spirituality is not conceptual at all or a matter of understanding.

To me, these two things are frightening developments that do not bode well for anybody over the next three years.

There is no way that individually you can defend yourself in this kind of world except to belong to local communities of like-minded people. Swami Chatanananda is building such a community in Portland, a self-defense, self-contained spiritual community, because he sees the chaos that is coming.

I want to talk about these things, but also about the spiritual state of each of my students and my self as we join in sharing Shakti in and open hearted way.

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22 May 2019


It is so remarkable I feel now that my health is beginning to return. My bladder is no longer spastic, my peeing no longer painful, my gut no longer so bloated with constipation, my wheezing from infectious bronchitis abating. Even during the time though, that I was distracted by all the ills of my body, I was still aware that I was not the body or the thinking about the body or worries about the body. I was still aware of myself as spirit, entirely separate from the entirety of the manifestation of materiality.

However yesterday I began feeling a new delight. As the pain distractions he eased, as I sat quietly in my recliner, I felt the most gentle breath of God which appeared as a cool, translucent fire extending from the floor to the ceiling which entirely engulfed me in the room and lifted my gentle spirit up in feather arms of bliss. These cooling translucent waves flowed back and forth like the entire room was on fire with the breath of God, so light, so restful, so relaxing and accepting, so loving in its gentle touch and support. And now I feel this gentle breath in me and around me all the time as a movement of energy that does not interact with this body but is only with me as spirit.

If only I could better convey directly to my students the bliss I feel now or even the most basic God realization that I felt when I was very ill. Even that was worth a thousand pieces of gold. No treasure of this earth can touch the breath of God I am feeling at all times now.

19 May 2019

NO SATSANG TODAY, SUNDAY MAY 19
I am still distracted by multiple medical symptoms mentioned last week. But I encourage our Sangha to meet at Satsang as usual, speak to each other or be silent.
11 AM, Arizona time (Same as California daylight time now)
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11 May 2019

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I teach how to transmute human love and sexual desire into divine love and total surrender leading to God-realization. But this same process can be used to overcome depression, loss of interest in the world and similar sorts of psychic paralysis. It is dualistic, regaining interest in and love of life. It is all about relearning how to feel.