16 June 2018

SUNDAY SATSANG, June 17,, 11 AM CALIFORNIA TIME

SHAKTI, DEVOTION, AWAKENING

Feeling others' energies and meeting there.


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10 June 2018

09 June 2018

SUNDAY SATSANG, June 10, 11AM CALIFORNIA TIME

SHAKTI, DEVOTION, AWAKENING
The fantasy nature of all experience, including the world, thoughts, emotions, one's body, and energies. Using magic to create states in others.



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If you find Satsang valuable and are so moved, please consider donating to support my work of feeding hundreds of homeless cats in Los Angeles, and also to support my teaching. I do not charge for anything; Satsang; personal direction by email or skype, or rare retreats. Even my two books are free downloads from wearesentience.com.

08 June 2018


BUTTERFLY STUDENTS

Robert said he had no desire to have a lot of students. He wanted ten who would stay with him no matter what happened, no matter what he did or what he said.

You see, Robert was not of this world, not of the mundane world of humanity. He wanted to take you to God and then even beyond God. He wanted to take you beyond all words, all concepts, and all human points of view. To that end he was always doing actions to drive students away, or at least to test them. Few could tolerate his lack of ego stroking. He burned people with his words and actions. So they ran away to nw teachers who spoke nicely, and never hurt their feelings.

Even I did not stay with him all the way. I could not move with him to Sedona even though I was the one who instigated the move. Shakti would not let me move with him. Mary moved with him, but she had already abandoned him in her heart because of Robert’s, what Mary called, his womanizing.

Robert moved to Sedona and found all the students there to be liars and manipulators, and all failed to support him as they had promised to do in order to entice him to move there. Robert even told me ahead of time that none would keep their promises.

Now I feel similarly to how he felt. So far, even my most advanced students have been butterflies, hopping from one teacher to another, or one environment to another.

You see, all teachings are false, only words. When you are without words and concepts the whole world changes into a kaleidoscope of changing images, objects, emptiness, fullness that keeps changing and you are that totality. You relax into that. Everything flows and yet you feel the power of Shakti within and around you, a quiet yet massive presence always there with you, holding you, loving you and you loving her. You don’t have to destroy the mind, but you do have to drop deeper into your body and the subtle bodies below it.

I am still looking for students who are not butterflies and who can stay and take my train to God.

06 June 2018

Exquisite devotion is something that not even God can resist

Nisargadatta made Jean Dunn one of two successors.  In one of his books he tells the sangha she got everything because of her love of me.  Bhakti is the sweetest and surest to realization, but the intensity of the love, the worship, and surrender required are out of the reach of most people.  There is a kind of simplicity and naiivette required, an abilty to attain and sustain total devotion.

Look to this poem:

When I put my mind on you
There is nothing but you
The air I breathe is You, the endless field of presence is You. 
God is You, God has your face
Your face is like an energy field giving me  the sweetest energy. Sweet it is. 
You are the field of God in which I disappear, I which I yearn, I long to disappear, but it just happens, it happens without a will.
The will is what stops this, the will is the  that is solid. This sometimes sneaks in and leaves as soon as it comes.
You are God.

And when I surrender into this field that has your face, I am God as well.


04 June 2018

THE THREE GURUS

THE THREE GURUS

The video The Three Gurus can be found on youtube.com.

Thirty three people left comments, and about 30 were negative, saying these guys have big egos, or were fooling themselves.

But these commentators really have no idea of what they are talking about.

A true guru just is not understandable from a mundane, non-spiritual point of view. They do not operate from mind, concepts, or conventional morality. A true guru is guided by a spiritual intuition, by energies or “feel,” as opposed to understanding of judgment.

They are operating from a perspective to free their students from the ordinary life and ordinary suffering endemic to man, and “elevate” them to a state of unconditional happiness and having access to “Shakti,” AKA the power that knows the way, kundalini, the Holy Ghost, the manifest God within.

This destination is totally outside of the human condition and judgment. Here, one has access to energies, bliss, and seemingly magical control over events or even people that really has nothing to do with them as people, but is all about the power that acts through them.

Trying to understand a guru’s behaviors or teachings is impossible unless you have experienced that God within you yourself, unless you have awakened to Shakti.

The biggest tool the guru has is to get people to love him or her. That one pointed love, devotion, worship is frowned upon as encouraging slavery in the student. Instead, it can turn students into people who have gone beyond their human hood and are acting as agents of the life force, Shakti.

The boundary restrictions enforced on other healing professionals are often in direct conflict with the invisible intent of Shakti, and thus come complaints about gurus being manipulative, sexual abusers, hypocrites, or even criminals. A true guru operates by feel, love, and energies, not by logic, moral principles, or pleasing language or accommodating attitudes. He is nt a goody-goody, smiling all day, and blowing kisses at babies.

Outsiders, including ashramites who are not very seasoned, just don’t understand a guru's teachings or his
behaviors. They don’t see with the eyes or the touch of Shakti. I know, I know. The beginner thinks that I speak bull, that I am just an apologist for behaviors or teachings that demand public censure, but the public has no idea of the guru’s realm, and that is why trust and surrender are needed to overcome doubt.

Unless one becomes one-pointed, surrendered, worshipful, one will not find Shakti easily. He or she will have to walk a different and usually much longer and less pleasant path.

You see, there are so many expectations and preconceptions abuot how a guru should act and speak, and how they should treat all stdents with friendly speech, etc. They often site the Ramana Maharshi model as to how a “true” guru should be and forget all about Nusargadatta who was a smoker, meat eater, used brusk language and was very critical about lots of students’ attitudes and behaviors, and frequently kicked visitors out of his Satsangs.

This is not to say that there are not a lot of fake gurus in the world, or immature gurus, but the spiritual world is very different from the human world, and until you have differing self-realization experiences, you have no way of judging.

Choosing a guru is not like selecting an orthopedic surgeon for a knee replacement operation, where you can check Yelp or a dozen other search engines to see how many stars your reviewed guru has. Often the best teachers have the worst ratings because they act outside all acceptable boxes in their attempts to free people. Finding then is like fndinga jewel of an aggressive surgical genius that no one likes because he has a rotten bedside manner.

The Three Gurus: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PZrj283rUvo

See my earlier post on this same subject:
https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=10214416870208840&set=a.1155457099873.24090.1631088671&type=3&theater


Email to me:

Hi Edward 

I came to Satsang last week -
 and have listened to most of your videos since then
 and today listening to the latest one 
again you mention the beloved that left you.
when you talk about this I cry and cry because I feel this with the man I love
 and he left me and has blocked me on facebook.
He came here to my country from XXX twice to be with me -
 I wont bore u with the story but 
you see on the world level, and friends and family and councellor,
they say my man is bad for me - a narcissist a manipulator - 
but when you talk about the beloved 
all of me recognizies him as this so I felt to speak to u about it 
and see if you feel anything about this .
Are they still your beloveds if they leave u and want other people and don't want you anymore ?
I sort of turned myself upside down to be what he wanted and then he had an awakening 
and left me and was mean and abusive and told me he would fuck me up if I wasn't true …
I feel I live in two worlds where my thoughts and feelings are for him and here where I am supposed to get on with my life without him …
when he left me the first time was when I had a huge awakening from thought - nearly went mad with grief 
ok if you can help - 
with care 

Ed’s Response:

Yes, they remain my beloveds.  They always will remain so, and they always come back. Each has easy access into my heart.

But also be prepared for a new beloved that will bring a new and deeper awakening.

It is not up to you to fix your situation with him.  It is all up to Shakti and what she wants, and she often seems cruel and capricious.  But she has her own way.  The more you can feel her as energies within you, the more you can trust what she is doing with you.

Each of my beloveds gave me a different awakening.  The first was to self-realization itself; she gave me the ability to see and feel the divine within myself and others.  The second brought me great power and ability to transform people, animals, with energies.  Yes, each brought heartbreak,  but heartbreak is actually a wonderful openness, much to be desired.

Blessed are those who travel a Bhaktic path, because it is so rich and devotional.


03 June 2018


VIDEO JUNE 3, 2018 SATSANG

Today’s Sarsang was very powerful, filled with Shakti.  We speak about the need to tread one path and learn the methods, stages and specific manifestation of Shakti on that path, as well as exploring the power of devotion.  Following many paths or teachers will just confuse you and undermine progress.


01 June 2018

SHAKTI



For the past eight months I have felt Shakti descending into me and acting through me ever more powerfully.  She is shattering the concepts that kept me limited.  She wants me to do more, to announce her presence in the world and her ability to change and to heal.

I feel her as a constantly descending energy in all areas of my body, but especially my brain. My body seems to grow heavier with her added gravitas, her mountainous presence, her current.  My body is relaxed as never before.  My mind is silent.  Her energies drive out concepts from my mind and I see past them into an ever changing flux of energies.
My brain is washed in constant internal tickling energy.  I feel her power within me and am tempted to trick myself and to assume her mantle as my own.  But I am not a fool.  I know the power is hers and the only way to continue this wonderful transformation is to surrender to her.

I wish I could understand this process, how it works, why it works, because this has always been my nature: to understand.  And letting go of understand yet again is hard, I know I just need to worship her and surrender to her directions and invitations.  This is my great delight to surrender to her, to love her, to worship her, prostrated at her feet.

28 May 2018

    The mind gives shape and substance to all aspects of experiences. It solidifies and puts experiences and processes into time and limits.
If you witness experience without the mind’s maps, words, concepts, it is very different than experiencing with the mind.
    Experience without the mind “feels” very different. Everything in the world and inner world perceived without mind is constantly changing, lacks definite shape, and really is not subject to time.
    The world experienced without mind is not the world most know: it is ever changing energies, emotions, processes, outside of time, which we would never notice as long as the thinking mind dominates. Without mind, the world appears as an infinitely malleable fabric; with the mind it becomes 4 dimensional spacetime with objects and processes. It becomes captured by concepts which gives the underlying world a reality it does not have. World without mind is unreal.

27 May 2018

Shaktipat and the Ever Changing Un Reality


Ed shares energies with his audience so that they discover their own Subtle and emotional bodies, which morphs into a discussion of the fantasy nature of our experience and of the world, and the feeling of the unreality of it all after identifications drop away.  There is a Q&A section afterwards.


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26 May 2018

SUNDAY SATSANG, May 27, 11 AM CALIFORNIA TIME


SUBJECT MATTER: Shaktipat by means of words, tone, cadence, and meaning, as well as by modulating my energy field so that attendees can feel  Shakti, from love, to bliss, to stillness, to Self.

Subject 2:  The fantasy nature of all experience, including the world, thoughts, emotions, one's body, and energies.  Using magic to create states in others.

Link: https://zoom.us/j/2950292557?pwd&status=success

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If you find Satsang valuable and are so moved, please consider donating to support my work of feeding hundreds of homeless cats in Los Angeles, and also to support my teaching. I do not charge for anything; Satsang; personal direction by email or skype, or rare retreats. Even my two books are free downloads from wearesentience.com.

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25 May 2018

WE LIVE IN AN IMAGINAL WORLD THAT ALLOWS FOR MAGICIANS



BY the time we are 20, most of us are rather certain that our bodies and the world are real in the sense that our experience appears to show an external world, and us, as bodies living within it.  But in fact, we live in our imagination, our concepts and interpretations regarding the nature of objects in the external world, and also with respect to the nature of processes in our inner world.

This will be very difficult concept for many people to grasp.  But the way we experience external worlds, relationships, and our internal world is extremely fluid.  Essentially no two people share the same experience because of varying backgrounds and educations.  But as a society we share a common Weltgeist regarding the reality of objects in the external world and the natures of our own subjective phenomena such as dream, sleep, being this, emotions, internal energies, happiness, bliss and energies.

I call this world that we really live in, an imaginal world.  By imaginal world I mean we really live inside of a “space” that is superimposed on our basic experience of our own beingness, or sense of being which I have just defined below.  This beingness is our ground state, or Grundlage, upon which all experiences appear whether of the internal world or the external world.  The sense of beingness is the same for all.  It is a state of pure awareness with no objects grabbing one’s attention.  One just rests in the peacefulness and wonder of the state of existence that has no world, no body, no objects.  Not that those objects are not present within our consciousness, but awareness of beingness has not yet arisen.  So it is a state before awareness has attended to any object, inner or outer, that makes up our imaginal world.

By imaginal, I mean that all experience one has is conditioned by mind, concepts, and experience, including the experience of all inner phenomena, such as kinesthesia, muscle movement, emotions, joy, bliss, energies, thoughts, and moods.  The same holds true for all our experiences of the external world.  Everything in our external world is conditioned by our beliefs about it and our knowledge about it, whether that be a knowledge of carpentry, cosmology, atomic physics or quantum mechanics.

That is, we perceive through an ever-changing cloud of concepts, desires, wants, experience, and theories, as well as through societal conventions and accepted behaviors and constraints which we call morality.

Now, almost everyone accepts their imaginal world to be real, if not obviously fluid in many circumstances.  That is, our perceptions of reality are taken at face value.  However, the real student of this imaginal world, of this fantasy world, takes none of this reality as necessarily being real.  For this person, our experience of the tree is not real, our experience of depression is not real, our experience of elation is not real, our experience of inner energies and bliss is not real, our experience of stomach pain is not real, and in one fundamental sense, no experience, no process, and no object is real.  Why?  Because the patient observer of the imaginal world witnesses its utter fluidity and changeability, a characteristic that the casual observer and believer in the world and our inner states is unaware of.  The deep observer is aware that our inner states, concepts, understandings, and experience are constantly changing, changing, changing and he sees through the maps that our mind creates within the fantasy process of creating maps.

For the freed man or woman, nothing in any world is real, it is all subject to change, either by changing an internal belief system, or using fantasy processes ourselves to change the fantasy objects within our imaginal world.

Such fantasy manipulation or transformation can occur through verbal psychotherapy, or by being in the presence of a spiritual teachers energy field, through hypnosis, through cognitive reframing of a situation and seeing it from a different perspective, by fantasy energy work such as Quantum Touch, where various chakras and energy conduction tubes are imaginatively created and manipulated to raise energies and infuse living tissue with various kinds of energies or colors to imaginatively transform unhealthy tissues into healthy tissues.  It is all fantasy work in a fantasy world, that really seems to affect outcomes in the outer world and also in inner transformations.

The same goes true for spiritual transformation, wherein a guru speaks of objects outside of your experience or your world, such as Brahman, the absolute, the witness, Shiva, Shakti, kundalini, and provides visualization and breathing exercises where you can experience various energy states within yourself, leading to a kundalini-style awakening, or just a close relationship with the Shakti like a magician.

The Bhaktic guru poses a different model for you to understand and be in, wherein he tells you to love him or your beloved with all your might, all your heart, all your body and all your spirit.  Through this process you become one pointed, and love deepens into a great surrender and worship of the other which automatically awakens and aligns all the energy centers in the body whether it be a chakra system or just disjointed energy complexes which become unified and one pointed.  In this one-pointed state, one enters samadhi wherein the fantasy nature of the external and internal realities are clearly seen.

In this state, the I am, or beingness is totally joined seeing that all experiences lie on top of this I am, this beingness, and all these experiences, this imaginal world, disappears at night when you sleep, only to become alive again as dream sequences in your imaginal space.

Thus you clearly see upon this awakening, that the waking world has the same imaginal quality as the dream world, and both are equally subject to continuous change under the control of the life force, also defined below, or by manipulation by the guru who understands the fantasy processes of the world and of himself, and knows how to make adjustments within himself and his students so that they come to the same realization as he about the effervescent and changing nature of everything, and thereby acquiring a certain mastery over the change, so that he or she can manage change, can manage and create enlightenment in others.  In this way, the student becomes a magician, a mage of the imaginal world.

24 May 2018

THE EXPERIENTIAL DEFINITION OF THE SENSE OF BEING OR BEINGNESS:

This is a clarification of what Nisargadatta and I call “Beingness.”
Defined experientially, beingness is:
The no-thought state when you first become consciousness but before you become self-aware;
The “gap” between thoughts;
Sitting in zazen with no thoughts or self awareness, but total awareness of the external world as everything with no you separate from “it”;
Clear mindedness, such as being utterly alert with one’s attention resting nowhere;
The state just before falling aleep when the mind is gone and self-awareness also trundles off into emptiness.
ThE state of “bare consciousness” of utter restfulness and peace where no Thought, desire or emotion can capture your awareness as an object.
After you have thoroughly felt and understood beingness in these many ways, you will recognize it in everyone of your every day states of mind. It is the container or screen upon what all phenomena appear, and which awareness then notes as experience.

Definition of life force:

Definition of life force:

Life force includes, but is not limited to, all biological processes that allow for sentience, movement, and procreation.

Sentience means awareness of the external world and all internal processes and experiences such as of thoughts, imagining, emotions, kinesthesia, and pain, as well as awareness of one’s own sense of presence, or energetic body, internal energies, such as kundalini, chi, ki, prana, bliss, Samadhi, emptiness, self-realization.

Combining the concepts of life force and sentience, sentience is also aware of the life force as manifested on experiential levels which differs from person to person. Some adepts may be experientially aware of “deeper” biological processes.

The ability to sense the life force improves with practice. Perceiving the various strands of the life force can be learned.

The person learning can gain some control over the life forces which can be used for healing or developing various kinds of abilities or powers such as telepathy, astral travel or remote healing or remote observation. The controller can be called the ego for means of talking about it, and sentience can be used to transcend that ego to see its transparent nature.

But the life force has its own ways and can only be controlled by the ego in a limited way. A more advanced practitioner is aware of the "will: of the life force, surrenders to that, yet can use intention to make changes in it.

20 May 2018

Satsang May 20, 2018


My path is all about love and no longer about truth, because truth dissolves in self-realization, where the universe becomes open and flowing. Intense love is required for rapid self-realization.  


19 May 2018


SUNDAY SATSANG, May 20, 11 AM CALIFORNIA TIME

SUBJECT MATTER: Giving Shaktipat by means of words, tone, cadence, and meaning, as well as modulating my energy field so that attendees can feel  Shakti, from love, to bliss, to stillness, to Self.

Your “job” is to be as quiet, settled, and receptive to the energies as possible. No drinking, eating, or wandering around during Satsang. It can disturb others. This is a holy occasion; you are in our church.

The talk starts at 11 am, but please come at 10:45 and sit with me during chanting. The chanting chosen should fully accepted and joined with. It quiets the mind and makes experiencing Shakti easier and more powerfully.


Don't join now.
Come At 10:45 am Sunday and sit with me.

If you find Satsang valuable and are so moved, please consider donating to support my work of feeding hundreds of homeless cats in Los Angeles, and also to support my teaching. I do not charge for anything; Satsang; personal direction by email or skype, or rare retreats. Even my two books are free downloads from wearesentience.com.

17 May 2018

PSYCHOTHERAPIST, SPIRITUAL TEACHER, VERY DIFFERENT JOBS, VERY DIFFERENT METHODS, VERY DIFFERENT MORALITIES

Freud defined the purpose of psychoanalysis was to transform suffering into ordinary human unhappiness. Later, object relations theorists spoke of developmental stages and internal mental/emotional objects that structured our relations with the world, and how therapists could act to clean up internal object messes and therefore help a person function better in the world.  The intention was to create a solid sense of self, a human and limited self. In fact, however, what they create in patients is an imaginary self, a mental and emotional model of who and what we are embedded within a social reality and physical world, which are also interpreted models.

All other derivative therapies have followed suit: all aim to make the individual more functional in the world including family and love relationships, often by creating internal boundaries that separate our sense of self from that of the other. Instrumental to building boundaries, is the therapist maintaining “boundaries” of behaviors between himself and the patient to create good object boundaries in both, but especially the patient and to overcome tendencies to project or absorb emotions and energies.

On the other hand a spiritual master of many of the Eastern traditions, and not merely a monk, nun, or garden variety swami, has a very different purpose, set of methods, and morality: if anything they are trying to deconstruct our conceptual, value, boundary, repression, separation mental and defense structures to allow for no boundary experiences and activities.  They want us to live in a world of now with no thoughts, no separation, no value judgments, decreased repression, increased relaxation, and intensively increased feeling and intuition. In a sense they come as destroyers of the usual, conventional, correctness, and common morality. As Jesus said, He comes not in peace, but bearing a sword.

The Bhaktic teacher is the epitome of no the no boundary approach, where he or she teaches love, devotion, and surrender of one’s self to another, or to God, or to the life force within so that boundaries, concepts, conventional or mundane life disappears, and one lives in “spirit,” or the literal realization that we are not our bodies, but the combination of sentience or awareness, with the manifesting energy of the life force, or “the power that knows the way.”

In such a view the process of individuation is left behind, concepts are left behind, moral judgments are left behind, and one loves one’s beloved single mindedly, totally, worshipping, and surrendered.  In that one-pointedness, all the energies of the body and spirit world (Subtle Body) are pointed towards the beloved, whether God, a lover, or guru, until there is an explosion, or numerous sequential explosions, where one experiences: unity consciousness, the experiences the energies of the subtle body, the light of consciousness, and then recognizing one is really a witness to the unity consciousness and everything within: world, people, and even the energies.

The Bhaktic guru has to break boundaries in the student which means he also has to break previous personhood boundaries that have kept the human devote locked into a mundane world of convention limitation, and felt contraction of the heart.

Yes, yes, I know what many moralists will say, and that this kind of modality just unleashes the beasts in people.  Not so.  The devotee learns that only love and devotion are important, more important than one’s own self-development, and that one pointed devotion reveals a completely different spiritual world as opposed to the mundane world of feudal and capitalistic conventions and societal order.

The divine lover is free of the desires and required activities of the mundane world. He or she rests in God, the divine energy within, in total love and peace feeling the world around him is fake, compared to the new world of love, of surrender, intense energies, bliss, and sexuality he or she feels now that their spiritual bodies are entirely awakened. They realize they are spirit, not matter, and live in that spirit, fluid, like air or water ever changing joyously.

The mundane world of rent, possessions, obligations, depression, stress, moral outrage just disappears; the liberated one only lives with himself alone or with his beloved, with whose heart, love, and energy states they resonate and dance together.

This period of grace can last anywhere from three to ten years while Shakti develops and shapes the spirit within each, gradually ending because the recognition grows that even the love, freedom, and energies he or she experience need to be transcended and realized as being not real, and they then live in the Void which has no attributes.  But, having come to the Void through the stage of devotion and surrender, when the Void state comes, it is filled with the deepest peace, the deepest rest possible, because all needs, all desires have either been fulfilled by their own love showering grace on each other, or they have been burned away by years of longing devotion.

Then one is in the stage of Ramana, Robert Adams, and Nisargadatta. Perfectly self-contained leaving the world behind.

16 May 2018

PSYCHOTHERAPIST, SPIRITUAL TEACHER, VERY DIFFERENT JOBS, VERY DIFFERENT METHODS, VERY DIFFERENT MORALITY


Freud defined the purpose of psychoanalysis was to transform suffering into ordinary human unhappiness. Later, object relations theorists spoke of developmental stages and internal mental objects that formed the nature of our relations with the world, and how therapists could act to clean up internal object messes and therefore help a person function better in the world. 

All other derivative therapies have followed suit: all aim to make the individual more functional in the world including family and love relationships, often by creating internal boundaries that separate our sense of self from that of the other. Instrumental to building boundaries, is the therapist maintaining “boundaries” of behaviors between himself and the patient to create good object boundaries in both, but especially the patient.

On the other hand a spiritual master of many of the Eastern traditions, and not merely a monk, nun, or garden variety swami, has a very different purpose and set of methods: if anything they are trying to deconstruct our conceptual, value, boundary, repression, separation mental and defense structures to allow for no boundary experiences and activities.  They want us to live in a world of now with no thoughts, no separation, no value judgments, decreased repression, increased relaxation, and intensely increased feeling and intuition.

The Bhaktic teacher is the epitome of no the no boundary approach, where he or she teaches love, devotion, and surrender of one’s self to another, or to God, or to the life force within so that boundaries, concepts, conventional or mundane life disappears, and one lives in “spirit,” or the literal realization that we are not our bodies, but the combination of sentience or awareness, with the manifesting energy of the life force, or “the power that knows the way.”

In such a view the process of individuation is left behind, concepts are left behind, moral judgments are left behind, and one loves one’s beloved single mindedly, totally, worshipping, and surrendered.  In that one-pointedness all the energies of the body and spirit are pointed to the beloved, whether God, a lover, or guru until there is an explosion, or numerous sequential explosions, where one reaches: unity consciousness, the experiences of the energies of the subtle body, recognizing one is really a witness to the unity consciousness and everything within, such as the world, people, and even the energies.

The Bhaktic guru has to break boundaries in the student which means he also has to break previous personhood boundaries that have kept the human devote locked into a mundane world of convention.

Yes, yes, I know what many moralists will say, and that this modality just unleashes the beasts in people.  Not so.  The devotee learns that only love and devotion are important, more important than one’s own self development, and that one pointed devotion reveals a completely different spiritual world as opposed to the mundane world of feudal and capitalistic conventions and societal order.

The divine lover is free of the desires and required activities of the mundane world. He or she rests in God, the divine energy within, in total love and peace feeling the world around him is fake, compared to the new world of love, of surrender, intense energies, bliss, and sexuality he or she feels now that their spiritual bodies are entirely awakened.

The mundane world of rent, possessions, obligations, depression, stress, moral outrage just disappears; the liberated one only lives with himself alone or with his beloved, whose heart, love, and energy states resonate and dance together.

This period of grace can last anywhere from three to ten years while Shakti develops within each, because the recognition grows that even the love, freedom, and energies he or she experience need to be transcended and realized as being not real, and they live then in the Void which has no attributes.  But, have come to the Void through the stage of devotion and surrender, when the Void state comes, it is filled with the deepest peace, the deepest rest possible, because all needs, all desires have either been fulfilled by their own love showing grace on each other, or they have been burned away by years of longing devotion.

Then one is in the stage of Ramana, Robert Adams, and Nisargadatta.

14 May 2018


ANGELA STRUGGLES TO MAINTAIN CONNECTION WITH GOD AMIDST THE DMANDS OF MUNDANE LIFE

Suddenly the world feels awful
Awful because I am forced to be my role, and to do, doing.

I brought D. to school and rushed to a little park, fell down to a bench and cried my heart out.

I experienced so clearly that all that there seems left to do is to sit and fall into the silence and the total peace, the feeling of the white energy within. It feels like home.
And having to do and be something else tears me apart with heartbreak. Like being torn apart from God.

I really feel like there is nothing to do than to sit on a bench all day in happiness and sleep on that bench at night.

The experience of the world so far is different from yesterday.

Being in my father’s house without my chair, is different and much more difficult.
The world is not flat like a screen but it is unreal. I am not part of it, I do not merge with it like in human life, I am not IN it even though I am in it.
It feels like I am a white silence, a transparency. But it's not like yesterday, when I experienced my body as no substance; I do and I don't experience it at the same time.
And so it feels with everything so far this morning and yesterday since I arrived here; I am here and I am not, the house feels real, in a way that it it's not a flat screen.

I feel like I am in between worlds and it makes me feel lost.

I am not totally disconnected like yesterday, but still I am. People seem people, so that's very different from yesterday, but they are empty as people. Words reach me more than yesterday, because I am forced to be me, but even though I see more a human than yesterday, the words have no substance and are like air.

I do not feel like any activity and I don't have an urge to change anything or be involved. If the house would burn down, I think I would just watch and have my attention within with God.

It feels like there is no energy in my muscles to be active, to do or be Angela. Like last days, my body feels like white air energy (and it doesn't...)
Thoughts at times feel real, but only for a short moment.
Angela as a person feeling/thought at times feels quite real, when doing...and fulfilling the daily tasks here, and being in the energy of my father’s house.
And then...it doesn't.

THE DIVINE FEMININE ALONE IS LOST


The Divine Feminine is the newest concept to sweep the new age spiritual world, and rightly so.  Women have been universally repressed by many religion and society for thousands of years, so it is the life force’s way of redressing a wrong.  But there are bigger issues here, like the division of the life force into male and female energies, and learning how to optimally combine and balance those energies.

I always worshiped women, or I must say, I worshiped those who were given to me to worship.  It never was just sexual or physical attraction, but something about their fire and mystery as manifest through specific women whose presence grabbed me by my heart.

But the concept of the divine feminine is pointless without an equal concept of the divine masculine, and that concept has nothing to do with any concept of masculinity.  It is much more basic than that. It is the life force acting through the two sexes for procreation and later maintaining a family.  It is the life force behind the activities of living, growing, evolving, prospering, then aging and death to clear the field for the next round of burgeoning life.

So this wave of feminine worship is just an act of rebalancing, but it is only one half of the life force.  The key here is worship, devotion, and surrender of man and woman to each other.  We much worship each other, the divine masculine, which I can only properly define as worship of women, and the divine feminine as worship of men.  This is all.  God divides in us as the life force, and it has a male aspect and a female aspect, which when correctly combined results is the deepest ecstasies imaginable, up to and including the realization of a complete and balanced life force in each partner in a couple, which I call realization of the divine within, the Manifest Self, God.

With this realization there are often deep spiritual visions of God, or angels, of circulating internal energies, the experience of ecstatic bliss that deepens and broadens, which often appear to be sexual orgasms but are felt throughout the entire, newly discovered spiritual body within.

Many people don’t want me to mention the sexual aspect as part of the experience of God realization, because for them, sex, eating, urination, and feces “should have” nothing to do with God realization.

But it is my opinion that the secrecy and hiding of sex in society, goes hand in hand with universal suppression of impulses, desires, etc., that prevent the various energy centers within the human body to become one-pointed, coordinated, allowing for the balance and unification of all aspects of the life force within, which is one sort of enlightenment.

Nor is actual physical sex necessary.  What is necessary is that the sexual energies be clearly felt and the sexual centers awakened.  Sometimes this happens because a person falls in love, has a heart opening so to speak, which leads to sexual arousal.  Sometimes, it is the other way around, sexual arousal, whether consummated or not, leads to a heart opening.  Then the area between the perineum and heart can become connected with blissful energies flowing upwards, leading to a very powerful heart opening, a yearning for one’s beloved, and whole body ecstatic kriyas, identical in form to stage five orgasms without any physical contact, other than thinking about one’s beloved, or hearing his or her voice, or see his or her face.

These teachings will literally tear our present heavily repressed and extremely conventional society apart.  Society could not be sustained on the repressive basis it is not, when even the word sex, or orgasm, “creeps people out.”

The real rub is how to make this balancing happen and create a state of ecstatic worship in men and women so that they can realize God within.
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