25 September 2016

SELF-INQUIRY IS NOT 100 YARD DASH. It is a long, long Ironman race. To get out of the stream of thought, the center of your consciousness has to be deeper inside of yourself than thought.

You have to move your center of attention into the empty awareness inside of your body to the heart chakra or below.

Spend time there. Look within. Somewhere near your heart resides for most people the sense of self, first found as a spark of energy. Attend to it. Over period of days, weeks and months, this sensation will grow into a complete sense of presence totally within, through and extending outside of your body, like a total capacitance or electrical field of some sort.

By attending to the totality of that sense of presence, one feels the empty space within, and can move your center of consciousness downwards from the brain and head area closer to the heart or in the region of the gut.

This takes one into a deeper emptiness, and at this center of consciousness, the flow of thoughts don't touch you anymore. It appears to be above you and in space like a constant chattering radio station which does not interest you at all because you are no longer immersed in the field of thought.

You never try to stop the thought, because that is the will, which is located at the level of mine still, in the head, in the brain and will just face an impossible fight with itself. Instead, just ignore the thoughts and concentrate on the IM sensation somewhere inside of your chest or lower, and fixate on it. Fixation and attending to it, and attempting to merge with it, gives it energy and makes it grow into one sense of presence. When that sense of presence is complete, you have a whole new concept of who and what you are, because you recognize you are not the body, nor the mind, but that sense of presence, that ecstatic state of flowing energies within, consciousness itself. This is your first step. Your first major step.

21 September 2016


Focus will be on the Self, self-inquiry, the nature of consciousness, and beyond consciousness, and the teachings of Robert and Nisargadatta.

There will be assigned reading--homework--for those who want to go deeper.

18 September 2016


But first you have to find your Self. That Self is not your body. The body is only the mortal shell.

What you are is the Life Force, Prana, awareness and that of which you are aware including your body. The body does not know itself but serves as the vessel for consciousness, which does perceive and feel the body, its motion, its organs, its pains and pleasures.
This awareness of your body also paints a humanizing picture of the external world from one point of view  (scientific/Nisargadatta), or creates an illusory world of the unreal, from another point of view (Robert/Ramana), which is purely speculation and makes no living difference.

Get to know consciousness by looking within long enough to become aware of the Empty Void within, and the light of consciousness, a phrase that denotes 'self-illumined'.

Once you begin to know yourself, love your self. Feel it. Honor it. Worship it and one day you will realize it is God, the divine, and yet it is also you.

Then one day after the madness and joy of self-realization passes, and you can even go beyond it to the source.

16 September 2016


Ever since I was a little kid I have read stories of places where people live an extraordinarily long time.  Usually it is a small and isolated culture somewhere in North Asia, or in some ex-Soviet Etceterastan village where everyone lives to be over 100, with the eldest claimed to have been born before Napoleon.

Well, I found another such village culture.

When I moved to Sun City two years ago, I did a google on internists in my area and found Dr. Raghav Mohindra and went to him to be my doctor.

Today I went to see him to get the results of some tests, for a B1 shot, testosterone shot, flu shot.  He also doe house calls for elderly and incapacitated patients.

Today he told me something incredible, amazing, astounding.  He has over 500 patients aged 100 and older!!!!

He backed that up by saying that recently there was an all-day event in the Sun City area just for centarians, people aged 100 or better.  180 centarians attended!

He also told me something else amazing.  He said when he was a little kid, he was terribly frightened of death and the associated suffering and pain.  But he said nowadays, there was no pain, no suffering, no suffocation involved in death except when it comes as an act of violence, such as an automobile accident.

He said with today’s pain medications, morphine, and the expertise of hospice, death comes peacefully for all, even for those dying from cancer or respiratory failure. Morphine eases the hunger for breath. Death comes gently.

So, the real Shangra La is right here in the Phoenix area, Sun City and Surprise on the West side, and Scottsdale on the East side, as well as Glendale, Youngtown, Peoria, and Phoenix.

He told me recently an 80 year old man was complaining to him about his life and wishing he was dead.  Mohindra told him, “Sorry old man, you have another 20 years.”

My own tests revealed I had a near zero chance of having heart problems or a stroke during the next five years, and only a 10% chance during the next ten years.  He takes very good care of me.

Dr. Mohindra: http://moremd.net/

Ultimate Truth

It is essential to closely observe the death of someone you love in order to correctly understand your own nature and your own life. Correctly observed, the experience allows you to grasp all at once the totality of your field of awareness, including awareness of everything within the body, including one’s sense of presence, internal energies, internal organs, your breathing, and at the same time, you can be aware of the totality of the manifest world arising simultaneously in the waking state. That is, the totality can be experienced as a totality, including the arising awareness that you are aware of consciousness as a single, continuous totality (Manifest Consciousness), but also aware that consciousness has not captured YOU. YOU, as witness, stand apart, a witness of oneness, the totality, yet apart from it.

Those spiritual paths that raise the body to a divine level, who worship it as a fount of truth and divinity, totally mis the point of the temporality of the body, and the temporality of consciousness too, which usually is snuffed out even before the body dies. From nothingness we come and to nothingness we go. To live life fully, grabbing all it has to offer in terms of pleasures, pains, excesses, bliss, and energies, misses entirely the lesson taught but not grasped: We come from nothingness and return to emptiness without a trace left.

We have to opportunity to discover one’s self as the root of awareness which sprouts into a seed of consciousness which begets the tree of consciousness.

It is not to ignore our bodies, but to be entirely aware of both awareness itself, and the totality of consciousness. Just being aware of our bodies and the divinity arising therein, blinds us to its limited nature, and how we need to grasp the totality of our lives in one fell swoop to obtain the highest understanding, the ultimate understanding.



It is essential to closely observe the death of someone you love in order to correctly understand your own nature and your own life.  Correctly observed, the experience allows you to grasp all at once the totality of your field of awareness, including awareness of everything within the body, including one’s sense of presence, internal energies, internal organs, your breathing, and at the same time, you can be aware of the totality of the manifest world arising simultaneously in the waking state. That is, the totality can be experienced as a totality, including the arising awareness that you are aware of consciousness as a single, continuous totality (Manifest Consciousness), but also aware that consciousness has not captured YOU. YOU, as witness, stand apart, a witness of oneness, the totality, yet apart from it.

Those spiritual paths that raise the body to a divine level, who worship it as a fount of truth and divinity, totally mis the point of the temporality of the body, and the temporality of consciousness too, which usually is snuffed out even before the body dies.  From nothingness we come and to nothingness we go.  To live life fully, grabbing all it has to offer in terms of pleasures, pains, excesses, bliss, and energies, misses entirely the lesson taught but not grasped: We come from nothingness and return to emptiness without a trace left.

We have to opportunity to discover one’s self as the root of awareness which sprouts into a seed of consciousness which begets the tree of consciousness.

It is not to ignore our bodies, but to be entirely aware of both awareness itself, and the totality of consciousness.  Just being aware of our bodies and the divinity arising therein, blinds us to its limited nature, and how we need tp grasp the totality of our lives in one fell swoop to obtain the highest understanding, the ultimate understanding.

15 September 2016

Katie--my beautiful Katie


She had received extensive treatment including multiple bood tests, X-rays, fluid therapy, multiple courses of anti-biotics and iron support supplements, as well as being syringe fed for the last five days.  He 3 vets were mystified.  The X-rays appeared to reveal pneumonia treated by three different antibiotics, but she continued to go down hill.  Her blood values were all normal, including kidney, except for an increasingly severe anemia treated by iron supplements.

The vet said her could not help her any more after the last antibiotic failed.  So I got all of her medical records to take to a recommended specialist, who I called the day before yesterday. I talked to a technician there and the doctor over the phone who asked many questions.  After I read her Katies blood values and recent medical history, she was very pessimistic, saying she is gravely ill.  I was to take her the next day (yesterday) to begin treatment, but when I awoke yesterday, Katie was much worse and was gasping for breath.  I knew it was too late.  She was too weak and now appeared frightened by her inability to breath.
Katie with her children

So yesterday at 3 pm. We took her to Grand Paws and put her to sleep.  They had a room prepared, with a thick blanket for Katie, and tissues for Kerima. As  per usual, the staff was wonderful, sympathetic, compassionate, and the euthanasia passed without incident, and both Kerima and I cried.

Watching her spirit leave her body, it was painfully aware that Katie  was her spirit and not her body, and that under anesthetic, consciousness left first, and with it her suffering, and then after the Euthenal was administered, her life force left and her body stilled.  Katie was entirely gone.  A brief flash of life and vitality that brought others and us joy for 16 years. This made me appreciate even more my temporality and present consciousness, and to actually worship it in myself and in others.

Some of these attached photos show Katie playing with her eight children—cloth dolls.  She often stood above one or more of them, and strongly lectured them about some misdeed of their’s.  She was a tough-love mother, always likely being surrounded by her children, and playing with them loudly in some other room than the one we were in.

God bless and keep you Katie!  I love you!

11 September 2016

Jnana is for the spiritually elderly

Nisargadatta said his last attachment, his last identification to his body, ended the moment he heard that he had cancer.  Bernadette Roberts said that the spiritual process she went through after full experience of unitary Christ Consciousness, was a gradual loss of everything, a gradual hollowing out of her identity as naturally happens with aging.

Robert Adams had his awakening experience to Christ Consciousness at age 14, but 34 years later he was still wandering India visiting teachers, including spending six months with Nisargadatta Maharaj in the late 1970s.  He still had an interest in spiritual knowledge.

When I knew Robert, he was already done with life.  He had no interest in the world, and just lived from day to day doing almost nothing.  He said if it were not for his wife and daughters, he’d be living alone somewhere doing nothing.  He said his dog Dimitri was his only attachment.

For all three of these teachers, Consciousness itself had lost its allure.

The intensity, the brilliant light and flash of the self-realization of the manifest consciousness, Christ Consciousness, gave way to the gradual or instant realization that they had nothing to do with consciousness. They themselves were nothing at all observing consciousness.  The states of consciousness came to them, one after the other, and they passively observed it, no longer engaged of very interested in its play.

All three were done with life, with their bodies, with consciousness.  The excitement was gone.  The bliss of the flame of consciousness was gone.

For these three giants, spiritual seeking, spitual seeking, spiritual knowledge, spiritual powers or siddhis, were all just entertainment within the field of consciousness, and when one’s interest in consciousness itself wanes, all seeking wanes.  Then one finds a different kind of happiness, one of being in peace, rest, with nowhere to go and nothing to seek.

However, old habits die hard, and Maharaj visited prostitutes after his wife died, and Robert became a notorious womanizer, both, I think, trying to overcome periods of emptiness or boredom.

Indeed, Bernadette called her loss of Christ Consciousness (Which she also called unity consciousness) a terrible catastrophe, and both Robert and Nisargadatta talked endlessly about nothingness.

So I ask all aspiring jnanis out there, “Are you ready to become nothing?”  If not, spend your time doing social work or practicing an energy yoga, or Kundalini yoga as long as you can, or continue to chase human love to keep you interested in life, because once your interest in consciousness itself leaves, you will have nothing, and can you tolerate nothing?  Are you ready for it?

31 August 2016

Robert Adams and Nisargadatta--A Perspective

I knew Robert very well.  I loved him and was in awe of his silence and ability to talk about nothingess endlessly, mixing that talk with the elements of everyday life.  And, under Robert, I attained first the oneness state of becoming the totality of my manifest consciousness, and then experiencing myself as just awareness, watching the various states of consciousness come to me, cover me, creating in alteration the sleep, dream and waking worlds.  He was a complete manifestation of a Jnani, a sage.

On the other hand, Nisargadatta is an enigma.  He appeared agitated, uncomfortable, was brusk, irritable, and rude.  Yet his words seemed more true than Robert’s because he was so brilliantly clear in his exposition of Advaita in everyday terms, describing the spontaneous arising of consciousness, and our truest identity as the nothingness to which we will return.
Robert spun out a beautiful tale about Brahman, transcendence, and nothingness, but Nisargadatta broke the whole of the manifest and unmanifest into baby steps that led to a progressive realization in baby steps that are very compelling to the mind that he teaches us to go beyond.
If I had to say it, I’d judge Robert as being deeper than Nisargadatta, more thoroughly embedded in emptiness, more at rest.  But Maharaj was more engaging, more forceful in his exposition of the ways of consciousness and its relation to the absolute, the noumenal, nothingness.

That is why I refer to Nisargadatta so often, because his teachings were so clear and methodology also so clearly laid out. Robert on the other hand, taught dozens of meditation methods, mantras, and used many superlatives about consciousness that did not seem to convey anything useful.
But it was not until I had a personal awakening to myself as Atman, as the incarnated God-principle, that the brilliance of Nisargadatta’s teaching became fully realized by me.
Unlike Robert, Nisargadatta spoke of realizing oneself as the totality of manifest consciousness first, staying there for a bit, then going into Nirvana.  Robert said nothing of this step, which was my experience.  He did not distinguish between satchitananda and nothingness. Nisargadatta did.

27 August 2016



Robert used to say, “Ponder this!”  and then recite some common argument or theorem of Advaita Vedanta.  Ramana did the same, speaking to students about the nature of consciousness, and Nisargadatta did also.

This is because Advaita Vedanta is not purely about self inquiry.  Although self inquiry is the most prominent method extolled by Ramana, Robert and Nisargadatta, in fact Advaita Vedanta has a philosophy of existence, or ontology, as well as a philosophy of knowing and the limits of knowing.

Pure self inquiry, without a foundation in a philosophical model may prove to be both endless and fruitless.  So the self inquiry proposed by all three teachers above, is really a guided self inquiry within the confines of a model.  In fact, all spiritual teachings and methods are like this, whether it is Kundalini Yoga, chucker yoga, Christian mysticism, or the philosophy of the Bhagavad-Gita.

Thus there is a wide gap between pure self inquiry without having any idea in mind, and self inquiry based on a model.  The origins of Nisargadatta’s model lay in the teachings of his guru, Siddharameshwar.  Siddharameshwar offered a model of the self of many layers, from the body of waking consciousness with an external world perceived by a body, the more subtle layer of internal energies found within one sense of presence, as well as the bliss found that there, deeper to the causal body where mind was absent and therefore perception was absent, to the lowest level, the deepest level, Turiya, with a sense of I resides.  Beyond that was the absolute, which was the absolute I that new the eye of existence.

However, unless one already believes the model, it is unlikely herself in query without a model in mind would reach the same understanding as self inquiry within the confines of a model of existence.  Nor would the attempts at logical argumentation by Robert, Nisargadatta or Ramana really make any sense.

For example, I present briefly a logical argument made by Nisargadatta in one of his books.  I will not tell you where I found it, because that will force you to actually read his books and look for the phrase if I do not tell you.  I make you do some homework.  Follow closely the brief argument he makes, and ponder whether his conclusion follows from his premises, and whether those premises can actually stand alone as obviously true.

“This is a subtle point, so try to understand it clearly.  When I say “I was not” prior to conception, then what I actually mean is that I was not like this present “I am.”  But that “I” which could discern this must be there to judge the absence of the present “I am.”

“Owing to the absence of a body, that “I” prior to conception had no sense of being or sense of “I am-ness.”  With the arrival of a body the sense of “I am this” is imposed on the prior “I.””

Now ponder this: as clearly as you can, restate Nisargadatta’s argument in your own words.  Does his argument prove to you, make any sense to you, convince you, that there is a pre-existing “I” to which a body appears, which then is able to witness a sense of I am-ness?

There are many other arguments like this.  Ramana says your body is not real, because it does not exist when you sleep.  But he says consciousness, awareness, of sleep is there, because when you awaken in the morning, you can say either I slept well, or I did not sleep well.  That is, he is saying that there is a subtle awareness that exists throughout sleep such that the morning after the mind awakens, it remembers that it was aware of the sleep state.

I just want you to be aware that all teachers, or most all teachers, have a model of existence or ontology, and of knowing or knowledge, called epistemology, and they have a set of methods to confirm the model they are passing on to their students.

Nisargadatta is a prime example of this.  His teacher, Siddharameshwar, told him from their first meeting, that he was not his body, that he must not identify with his body, that he was Brahman, and even beyond that, the knower of Brahman.  He was given a mantra to be repeated endlessly.  The mantra was “I am Brahman and Brahman is I.”  In addition, after realization, he developed the technique of fixating on the I am sensation and following it to its root in Turiya and beyond, to the absolute or para-Brahman.

Since almost all spiritual traditions rely on a model of existence, and a model of knowing her knowledge, which shape our student’s spiritual experiences, and which also provide a framework for his future teachings to his own students.  Because there are so many different spiritual traditions, there are so many different models of reality, such that there is a vast range of differing experiences and methods, such that the awakening of one tradition conceivably is completely different from the awakening or enlightenment aimed at in a different tradition.

So ponder these things in your own way and your own time when listening to various spiritual teachers are reading their books.  Tried to tease out the underlying model that that teacher has in mind when he or she speaks.  If you do this, you are well on your way to finding your own truth because you question the source of the spiritual teachings you hear with your ears or see with your eyes.

26 August 2016

In the West, the distinction between matter and consciousness was clearly made only a few hundred years ago. But, because of science and technology, the realm of matter has always been given more attention. There is no science of consciousness or spirit.  In the West we are still trying to reduce spirit to matter, to the brain and nervous system, with the external world being real, and our bodies and brains create a picture in consciousness of that real external world.

For Ramana, only consciousness is real, with the material world considere unreal because the objects and experiences within it are temporary, changeable, impermanent, without a self-sustaining existence outside of consciousness.  For him, consciousness has two aspects: the field of experience and the witnessing of that field which also was an aspect of consciousness.  For him, the material world and all experiences were illusory, a dream, because they did not last, and didn’t exist outside of our awareness of them.  Thus for the Advaita tradition, consciousness was primary existence and we needed to recognize that all experiences, including that of an apparent external world, only occur in our own consciousness.  So everything is consciousness, you, me, waking state, dream and deep sleep states. 

Robert Adams held this to be true also, but emphasized that one needs not to identify with any situation within that play of consciousness, but only with the totality of consciousness, one’s entire manifest experience as an apparent human, and also the world of apparent objects.  They are one totality.

For Robert though, that which was absent any experience at all, nothingness, was the real source of consciousness, the no-place from which the whole field of consciousness sprung as its projection.

In the West, about 400 years ago, Immanuel Kant gave the name “Noumena” to that nothingness, which was only nothingness, because it could not be experienced, thus had no quality or characteristics such as time, space, extention or existential qualities of any sort.

Doug Harding called this place, “I,” and created what he called the science of the subject, wherein each of us became the source of our experiential world, and taught exercises to make this an existential reality.

For all, there was no death when the body dies, because only the existential aspect of our lives disappears, but the subject aspect never does because the subject is not within the field of existence. Our essence, as subject, as witness, as noumena, remained untouched because it did not exist within the realm of matter of experience.

For all the Advaitin traditions the path was the same: 1. Disidentify with the body; 2. Identify instead with our entire field of consciousness, our Manifest Self, which was universal and pervaded everywhere and was the same in everyone; 3. And then go beyond to discover and identify with the eternal subject, the Self, nothingness, which lies prior to or beyond any and all of existence, where there is no need, no want, only divine peace.

Other paths, such as Chakra yoga, Kundalini Yoga, Tantra, tended to emphasize one or more aspects of consciousness, such as Kundalini, the life force, Ma Kali, or Shiva, the observer, or the creator, Brahman.  Advaitins considered this playing on the surface of the field of consciousness.

23 August 2016


I talked to Marie last week and wanted to update her followers about her health and the 150 cats she cares for in Los Angeles.
Marie had been subjected to unending medical tests since I wrote about her months ago.  Her cancer staging has been upgraded from III rd to IVth stage uterine cancer.  The tumor spread to her kidneys and bladder, but apparently has only minimally invaded those organs.  She has had three chemo sessions each a month apart to be followed soon by a PET scan to see how far the tumor has retreated, and whether Marie can progress to radiation treatment to reduce the tumor further prior to surgery.  She said chemo has been very tolerable, which is unusual for this type of chemo.
But the stress of having cancer and worry about the welfare of her cats and keeping her surrogates supplied with cat food has left her feeling overwhelmed and vulnerable, and therefore unable to reach out to thos who so kindly provided financial support.  In the minimum, it will be six weeks before she can have surgery and another 8-12 weeks to recover after that.

But there is a dire financial need to support her efforts to supply her surrogates with cat food and other supplies, so I am once again asking my readers to help her financially.  I send Marie about $270 a month that I get from Internet donations and my own paychecks, which maxes me out.
So I am requesting donations for her to be mailed to:
Marie Schuckles
8860 Corbin Avenue
Northridge, CA  91324


19 August 2016

Every morning, immediately after waking, just the feeling “I am” is felt. After that, witnessing of the world happens.  First you witness the “I am” sensation, the feeling that you are, that you exist.  This primary witnessing is the prerequisite for all subsequent witnessing.  But to whom is witnessing occurring?  This is what Robert and Nisargadatta ask.

It occurs to one that ever is, even without waking, to the ever present substratum.  

The mystery of the worldly experience is at this point.  Now you have woken up, and the witnessing of waking happens.  The primary witnessing is of my own presence, my existence.  The waking state, or the sense of existence, is a temporary state, alternating with the deep sleep, waking and dream states which together constitute consciousness.

So, you need to become acquainted with that witnessing substratum, the invisible, formless, intangible self that is the listener, the seer, the feeler, who itself is not of this world, but prior to it.  This is That which ever is, who responds to his/her name being called when asleep, who hears the sounds of wind, rain, and thunder.

31 July 2016


I supported him from the beginning. I voted for him in the primaries.  I even started a blog to support him. I was outraged by Debbie Wasserman  Schultz’s actions and called for her firing. But Bernie lost whether it was rigged or not.

Bernie is the victim, yet he supports Clinton.  Why?  Because he has already begun a vast change in the system.  Hillary’s platform is Bernie’s socialist platform, and he is not a powerhouse in the Democratic party as opposed to being an isolated independent senator with little power.
AND, as he says over and over, Hillary is a thousand times better as president than Trump, and he is going to fight to keep her progressive along with all of the millions of people who voted for him in a progressive movement. http://www.huffingtonpost.com/entry/bill-maher-bernie-sanders-strop-trump_us_579c4522e4b0e2e15eb610bf?section=
Bernie is the victim yet wholeheartedly backs Clinton.  Why aren’t you?

Many of you are lost in rage against the system thinking only to deny Clinton the presidency because she is the embodiment of the system.  But so is Trump.  In addition, he is insane, a bigot, a hater, a divider, an unabashedly self-centered egomaniac who will unabashedly use the presidency to enhance Trump enterprises and to pump his grandiosity until it explodes in ways I do not want to see.
I do not want to fight this battle anymore. I have stated where I stand.

So, I make you an offer.  If you lack the discrimination to see through Trump and the danger he poses, and if you fail to see his lack of compassion and heart, and still want him to be president because you are deranged with anger at the system, or worse, you are a Republican, please let me know that you still back him.  I will remove you from my friends list and maybe take the time to block you because I can not be bothered any longer caring so much for my friends who want to destroy themselves because of their blind rage and lack of reality perspective.

I care for you so much it hurts that you cannot see clearly the danger Trump poses for the country and for you.

I don't hate Trump at all. I sort of like the persona he pretends to be. But I definitely see the danger he poses to all of us and the path he will take, whatever that is, because he has not outlined any path but one of bigotry and divisiveness.

30 July 2016


America has a two-party system.  It is a binary system.  It is one or the other.  Winner take all.  There really are no coalition politics in the American two-party system.

However, what we have seen with Clinton/Sanders is an attempt to form a two-party de facto coalition of a nascent social democratic party with a broader Democratic party.

Take a look at the Democratic platform for 2016.  Most of what Saunders was shooting for is in that platform.  However, few of us believe that Clinton will adhere to those party planks, and will shed them once president.

But some of us have watched Bernie throughout the election process.  Yes, the system was rigged against him from getting the nomination.  Perhaps if it had not been so rigged, he may have gotten another 200 pledged delegates, and cut Clinton’s lead to razor thinness.  But as Bernie has stated, “THIS IS REALITY,” thereby moving the universe of discourse from a socialist goal to the reality of creating a de facto coalition party, of a Social Democratic Party, and the Democratic Party.  This is the reality.  Bernie has forced Clinton to take on many of the precepts of his Democratic Socialism in order to get his endorsement, his delegates, and his followers to come along and support Hillary Clinton for president.

So many people are so angry at Clinton having witnessed the ring system against which Bernie fought, but this is reality.  It takes time to change.  Already Bernie has changed it by eliminating 500 superdelegate positions in future year elections.  In 2020, if Bernie or Sen. Warren want to run for president, not only will they be part of the Newer Establishment at that time, but the entire election process will better reflect what actual voters want as opposed to what the establish party wants.

Those of you who are still so angry at Clinton because of what the DNC did together with Clinton, have to take note of the disaster we will face a year after Donald Trump is elected.  Bernie sees the peril in electing Donald Trump.  As he states, he will do everything possible to eliminate that possibility, and to elect the coalition candidate Hillary Clinton.  Remember, Bernie is going to be a central heavyweight now in the Senate, impossible to ignore, constantly prompting Clinton towards a more socialist leaning.  Perhaps within the next four years we will see the founding of the Democratic Socialist party as a third-party, which could easily supplant the Green party was true and effective vote-power.

So drop your hatred of Clinton, and work with Bernie and her, to get her elected and to stop Trump.  Can you imagine what the world would be like two years after a Trump election?  Can you imagine the chaos?  Can you imagine the danger?  Can you imagine the disappointment in all of those who elected Trump and saw his presidency turn into the disaster he predicted would happen if Hillary were elected?  Can you imagine anyone who voted for Trump been having second thoughts that they are to blame?  No, they will blame Trump for having failed them, holding themselves faultless.

The American electorate appears to be stupid beyond belief.  Therefore it is for us who can better discriminate the reality of what faces us in the upcoming election to work to stabilize the Democratic Socialist/Democratic Party coalition that Bernie and Clinton have forged, and to make it the party of the future.

24 July 2016


     Many Advaitin teachers speak of transcending the body, individuality, and the self, and even teaching the transcendence the personality.
     But what are they talking about?
     One such teacher I talked to said he no longer had any sense f identity to anything, and that everything was Shakti. I don't known exactly what he means, except that maybe he "sees," "feels," "understands," that nothing is him, and everything perceived and experienced is "other," Shakti. Or maybe he means he too, his sense of existence is also Shakti.
     But has he lost his personality? If he has, what was his experience? Did he feel he no longer was a human, or did he feel he no longer had a "personality," that which has emotions, moods, makes decisions, and has habit patterns of reactions to the world?
     I don't know what he, or other teachers mean when they talk about their alleged transcendence.
     I for one, definitely feel my personality, my emotions, my individuality, my body, and say, "All this is part of me, one aspect of me."
     I also "understand" that all the apparent world and my body are objects within my own consciousness when I am awake. So I am aware that essentially I am consciousness which includes thinking and the mind as well as memories and intuitions. I carefully watch and also feel into the entirety of my consciousness as a living totality of awareness.
     This consciousness is continually changing, variable, and features one experience or one aspects in an unending flow of experiences and objects. One can say there is an experiencer and the flow of conscious experiences which are objects. Or one can say the experiences and the experiencer are one. Sometimes it appears one or the other is a true statement, sometimes that neither is.
     Then sometimes I can self experience as awareness without mind, without a sense of self or world, without the I Am sensation, and just stay there too, knowing and experiencing nothing.
     All these states of consciousness come and go, including the experiences of coming awake out of a dark and moist nothingness, which is totally relaxing and in total peace.
     I am also aware of my awareness of these various states. These states come and go on me, the witness.
     But my resting state is that of being me as awareness, aware of the life force inside and acting through this body/mind, indwelling my own sense of presence that permeates my body and mind and the space around my body and mind, and all permeated by an empty space, itself permeated by the light of consciousness. I feel the energies inside, not really inside the body, but inside of my energetic self, and feel "see" the life force and the intelligence of consciousness within me. I think Robert calls this the Brahman state. Certainly this is what Nisargadatta called Brahman: the totality of my manifest consciousness or self.
     I am certainly aware of nothingness as the dark void from which I as consciousness emerge each day, and to which I return each night, and which I experience from time to time by being totally merged into itself. But it is not my primary identification.
     Regarding personality, it is my position that personality does not reside in the body or mind, but in the totality of my consciousness. My individual expression of consciousness has its own unique fingerprint in terms of emotional reactions, opinions, lack of opinions, ways of expression, behaviors, directions and desires. I think the rush towards transcendence is often a rush to deny one's own humanity and leads to a poverty rather than transcendence.
     Nisargadatta says in his book the Experience of Nothingness, that once he heard the words that he had cancer, he lost all identification with his body and taught from that denial the last two or three years of his life.
     This is clear indication that he ran from body identification once he knew his body was dying. In fact, much of that book and others written around that time, was his obsession with death, and since he didn't identify with either his body or consciousness, he was not worried or bothered, except that he hoped death came quietly without too much pain.
     I have known hundreds of teachers up close.      From my point of view, all had prominent personalities and all were very human, even if a few claimed not to have a self or personality. What is actually going on in them, I don't know, and often, when describing their self-experience they use abstract or Sanskrit terms that hide rather than reveal who they are.
     Robert was the closest person I ever knew to be close to being totally empty and not there. He was uniquely empty. Others tend to be talking heads.

23 July 2016

No matter how relaxed or inspired you feel when listening to Robert's words on audio, or read Nisargadatta's or Ramana's words, realize they are just words. They are concepts spinning in your mind, making you feel emotionally held, relaxed, etc.

Those words you listen to are about Robert's experiences beyond or prior to mind, that are being spoken to your mind, which interprets his beyond-mind words into your experience which is generally mind-bound.

The best way to benefit from those words is to ignore what they say you are beyond mind, but to "feel" into your sense of Self, into the I Am sensation, which at its root are all levels of being, from the I Am, to Nothingness.

Forget about all teachings about no self, no-mind, no separate self, the body is illusion, the world is unreal, and just focus on feeling your I Am. Merger with the I Am sense will reveal yourself as pure Consciousness, the life force, and the energy being that you are. You become the incarnated Krishna, the I Am descended into your body bringing life and sentience.

After this experience, your unfolding takes care of itself. No more work or focus is necessary unless your own self demands more work.

14 July 2016


I was astounded to find this quote today in the Ultimate Medicine, which are talks by Nisargadatta in the year before his death.  These are exactly words that describe my own experiences, but expressed in a different way. I will not quote the exact page because you need to read that book for yourself.  You can download it from wearesentience.com, but I highly recommend that you buy it.
Without the vital breath, Ishwara, or God, has no soul; and without God (consciousness), the vital breath has no existence.  Whenever man limits his consciousness to body and mind, he is called Jiva.  Otherwise he is absolutely independent of these two, which are acting and reacting (according to the world).  Consciousness, which expresses itself in various shapes and forms, is all one; whether be an insect, a big bore, or a big man, there is no difference whatsoever.

Without the vital force, nobody can worship God.  Actually, it is the vital breath, the life force which is worshiping God.  And without God, there is no existence of the vital breath.  And without the vital breath there is no expression to God.  Without this vital force can there even be a reference to God?

When this life force seeks the consciousness as God itself, only then dawns the light of consciousness with which the life force works and achieves what it wants to achieve—that is, oneness with God.  Even if you take the life force as God itself, the result will be the same, because the working principle is the life force.  The consciousness is merely the witnessing process.

Consciousness and life force are two components, inextricably woven together, of one principle.  But consciousness is only the witnessing principle or the static aspect; the dynamic aspect or the working principle is the life force.  Once you consider the life force as God itself, then you raise the life force to a status enabling it, together with consciousness, to give you an understanding of the working of the whole principal.  But if you demote that life principle to mere self identification with the body, then the life principle is not given the status which enables it to unfold itself.  It depends entirely on you.  If I identify this life principle with my body, then I make it work according to the body.  But if I raise it to a godly status, then that life principle will unfold itself and give me the necessary spiritual knowledge.

This physical body, this apparatus, is generally regarded very highly.  But can the body, however good, however pure, be as pure as the life force?  If you make a friend of this life force—that is, if you identify yourself not with the body but with this life force—then will one need help from any other source; that is, from any source other than the Life force?  Is there anything more essential than this Life force?  If you have a choice by which you could have the life force or anything else, is there anything else you would give preference to over the life force?

Would you like to ask some questions?  Who is so authorized to ask the deepest questions?

It is that one who has made deep friendship with the life force and this consciousness, who realizes the importance of the life force to the extent he loves the life force as himself and not his identification with the body.  Someone who has this love that has not identified himself with the body, he has conquered everything, and only such a person is eligible to ask (the deepest spiritual) questions.

Union with this life force is in no way different from the love for the life force, the companionship with the life force; that is, this unity is love.  Life force, love and consciousness are all one in essence.

By all means use your body to work in your world but understand what it is.  The body is only an instrument to be used: you are not the body.  You are the everlasting, timeless, spaceless, principle which gives sentience to the body.  This is the most secret but the simplest principle as far as spiritual knowledge is concerned.

I will give you a specific instance.  In one who has understood the principle and is one with the life force, when this life force is ready to leave the body, what will be his reaction?  Apparently, that will be the moment of highest ecstasy.  Why is this?  Because what is manifest is now going to be unmanifest (Thus going totally beyond the pale of life, to that which observes and from whom everything emerges).

Your constant companion is this life force, without which nothing can happen.  When the  life force comes into contact with the consciousness, this combination assumes the status of the highest God.  For anyone who is identified himself not with the body, but with this life force, can there be any need for anything else from any source?

12 July 2016

Enlightenment in 30 days--email dialogue with Rob

Dear Edji,

Thank you so much for the guidance and wisdom you have written and shared on your website. For 3 years I have been searching for answers and guidance all over the internet to no avail. I was seeking an explanation for an experience I did not understand. I did not know at the time, but I had accidentally stumbled upon this self inquiry process one night in bed. The experience altered my mind forever, and left me terribly confused. I have found no one but you that could explain what had happened to me and what I needed to do.

A week a ago, I began following your instructions detailed in Hunting the I. Since then, I have been able to understand that my body and the world I had always thought existed are an illusion. I am now focused on resting as the witness of consciousness---that which itself appears to not be consciousness---if that makes any sense. I watch the waking state, sleep state (which was very bizarre the first time), and dreaming. Though in the state of deep sleep I do not seem to be watching or at least I don't remember it.

I am not sure what else to do from here except continue to focus on resting as the witness. My understanding seems to grow constantly, but is still not complete.

I never tried meditation before 3 years ago, and I've never had a teacher. After I started self inquiry last week, I began having intense pain in the center of my head and I'm not sure what it is. I can push this point of pain and pressure around my body or completely out of it, but it quickly returns. I'm not sure what to do to make it stop. Any guidance on this would be greatly appreciated.

I am immensely grateful to you, Robert, and Ramana Maharshi for sharing such clear and simple guidance. Before finding you, all I could find were teachings about oneness that I knew were shallow and not the whole truth. I thought of giving up, but something kept driving me to continue my search. I am very glad I kept going.
Gratefully Yours,


Ed: You are doing very, very well.  Keep it up. No other advice at this time.

Don't pay any attention to the pain, just observe it.

Hello Edji,

Hope you are well. I've been observing like you instructed me to. Yesterday I thought of trying something else, but it dawned on me that anything else I try is useless. Anything I do is just seeking at the level of the mind, so I just gave up and surrendered.

This morning I was rereading your “Hunting the I” and it finally sunk in.

There is no I! No person, no witness...just AMness. Its all just some mental projection. Is this correct? Is there anything I should be doing or practicing now? Is there anything I should avoid that could be problematic at this stage? Thank you for your time.



This itself is a mental conclusion that you have accepted as true.

Find the I am sensation by feeling for it, not looking for it.

Dwell in that I Am sensation. Become intimate with it that leads to a direct experience of the life force. At the same time you become aware that you are witnessing the I Am sensation and later, consciousness.

Read Apte's Nisargadatta Gita and Nisargadatta's The Ultimate Medicine, which I find the clearest exposition of a class of advaita teachings, and the clearest explanation of the best form of self-inquiry.

Listen to sacred music, Kirtan and Bhajans.

These instructions are generic and fit all people.  Some advance quickly by staying in the I Am sensation.

Some find help or clarity of purpose by reading the Nisargadatta Gita that focuses on the one self-inquiry method that I have found to be the most effective method out of many.

Some feel the hammer blow of Nisargadatta’s clearest work, and that is enough to unfoled their spiritual destiny.

Lastly, for those with a devotional bent, and who already can observe within, I say change your direction and “feel” within, allowing many to experience the explosion of the life force, Shakti, from within

Sear Edji:

Yesterday after reading some passages from the Ultimate Medicine, I started to ponder how I had mentally come to the conclusion there was no I. As I was thinking I realized that I was trying to out-think my own thinking....by thinking. And that even this was still a thought.  Then the mind just froze...all thinking, beliefs, and concepts stopped. I didn't trust any of my perceptions and it was a bit terrifying for a moment. I immediately closed my eyes and tried to dwell in the I Am and find some stability, but it was gone! It had been there seconds before, but now it wasn't.

It seemed diffused throughout consciousness, and when I focused on it then it seemed to move...like trying to catch a cloud. Sometimes it will condense and I'll briefly have the I Am appear to be in the elbow, or nose, or in front of the body.  I also discovered I don't have a body. It's a bunch of sensations that appear random without the idea "body.” If I close my eyes, the body seems flat, almost 2 dimensional.  Sometimes it feels like my shoulder is above my ear, or that one leg is half a long as the other. It’s a lot of fun actually. I feel totally at peace, not the overwhelming bliss that I have been experiencing.

I know absolutely I'm not this body

I know I can't be consciousness because that comes and goes

I have read that I am something beyond this, 
but that's a thought and not something I am aware of having experienced.

Nothing seems real anymore...objects, people, this body, or consciousness itself. I'm typing this inside a dream. I don't know if there is a real ME beyond consciousness or not. If there is a real ME then how do I experience it not simply think it? 

Thank You,


Rob Again:

I answered my own question from yesterday.
I realized it last night, Edji. While going between, waking, sleep, dream, back to waking...I clearly noticed that which is always there. It’s very difficult to describe, but that "me" was always there I was just too distracted by the appearances of consciousness I guess. Now while awake it feels like consciousness is being "pulled" into this real me and identification with it is becoming more powerful. It feels peaceful almost like being half awake and half asleep.



This is difficult to hold onto.  Expect it to come and go for a while.  But essentially you have got it.  It has to deepen and stabilize.

Also, you say,  you had been in bliss. Tell me how that happened.  Are you directly aware of the life force within as a separate entity, as Shakti?

Where you are now, I was 20 years ago.  But seven years ago I totally awakened to Shakti, the life force that lives and acts through our bodies and our deeper Subtle Body.  Until you have had that love affair with Shakti, if you have not already experienced it, I don’t know how stable your realization will be.  Your direct and continuous awareness of the life force is a mark of the spiritual depth necessary for full realization.

From Rob:

The first time it happened was 3 years ago. Without knowing what I did one night I sank back into the witness. It felt like I had energy running through my body, and new sensations everywhere. It felt better than anything I had ever felt before. The next morning it seemed like I could read what people were thinking, so I thought I had gone insane. I didn't like the mind reading and it disappeared a few days later. The bliss feeling slowly went away after a few weeks, and didn't return until a few weeks ago. 

This is all new to me. I have been singlemindedly focused on finding what I truely am and to know what is real and unreal. So, I tried not to focus on the bliss/energy. I thought if I did I would get distracted and lost. Currently, I'll have this sensation that I can only describe at bliss circulate throughout different areas of the body. Sometimes I'll feel very hot like I have a fever, or euphoria 100 times stronger than being intoxicated. 

I know nothing about Shakti. Not intellectually(for whatever good that's worth) nor how to control it or even if that's possible. I would love to know more!

Thank you for your guidance!