18 May 2020

Sunday Satsang Attendee Breakthrough

I’m writing this because I want to share what I felt on Sunday at sangha and what Is still being felt today.

Words for me get in the way. I close my eyes and just allow to feel . Hearing was heard Sunday. It polished and burned away Mary for what felt like eternity.

It polished her to brilliance ! Radiant brilliance ! The person burned away, and all that remained was a Vast, spacious emptiness and a blazing white light center Illuminating all . I was the essential essence of everything. The heart of it all. A language beyond words. I was resting in the bliss of boundlessness. I was seated in the seat of supreme wisdom.

The upsurge of ecstasy was like a crack of lightening in the dark. I was that . A power that burst forth..energy , ecstasy, eternity. Freedom . Every sound a melody of mantra, every sight a vision, every sensation the sweet touch of the beloved . Enjoyer of every sight and sound. Mary was forgotten dreaming a dream of dreaming .

Words are bondage . Knowledge is bondage, concepts is bondage.

I will leave it here for now...knowing that with every breathe “I “ dissolves.

Such joy, peace, and bliss

it is ! Pleasure and presence in a dance . Beloved shiva and Shakti

Thisisreally a powerfulawakening experience combining the realization of No-I and Emptiness, with the bliss and light of realizing the Manifest Self.

21 February 2020


About a dozen of Robert's students had read Strouth's writing and contacted me for my undertnding and experience of Robert and his authenticity. I wrote this and added a verbal rejoinder here to answer all who want to kinow if Strouth was accurate. I posted this to answer any who ask.

An article is circulating on the Internet  in the form of an apparent dialogue between an unnamed questioner and Steven Strouth. I assume the purported questioner is really Steven, not an independent third-party.
He claims he met Robert in 1985, four years before I met Robert. I never met Steven I myself at any Satsang or get together with Robert between 1989 in 1997. 

My first question is, why did Strouth wait 35 years to bring this up? Strouth claims that he never thought of Robert as his group or teacher. What is his point? What does he want in making his claim?

Strouth stated that Robert claimed that Robert told him that he lived with Arthur Osborne near Ramana ashram, and that Arthur gave Robert a car to tour India as well as money.

Robert ever told me this. I have no idea if it's true or not. Robert did state to me that Osborne give him some money to travel around India, but never mentioned he lived with him or you received a car from him. Strouth quoted a letter from Osborne's daughter that she never met Robert and her father never gave Robert a car. I don't know whether this is true or not even. Seems to be a question of he said she said it many ways, including whether Robert ever made such a claim.

Most importantly, Strouth claims Robert was never a guru  or teacher for him, yet implies he had a very close relationship with Robert for a period of time.

It's quite clear to me, that Strouth's knowledge of who Robert was, was very shallow. The Robert Strouth spoke about, certainly was not the Robert I knew. As a devotee of Robert, I saw his actions in entirely different light from the mundane level criticisms by Strouth. Everything Strouth says about Robert indicates an extreme bias against a spiritual point of view. I see everything that Robert did differently from the way Strouth saw his actions.

In the link below is a very short video presentation how I saw Robert, with a critique of Strouth's point of view.


16 February 2020

Mind creates a symbolic world of meaning and utility out of an ever changing flux of experience. Most of us live in this consensual world of mundanity and limitations. Spirituality is all about seeing and feeling through the mind to the real real basic beingness wherein happiness and joy reside permanently. Ed takes attendees to there.


01 February 2020


Maybe you have noticed, but I do not write anymore. I used to write to create a mood or feeling. I used to talk about the life force, God, or self, to motivate people to look into themselves and maybe find something new within. But I can't do that anymore because when I look within there is no God, no self, no life force to be found; there is only happiness, joy, emptiness filled with freedom from any kind of suffering.

That's all I am able to write about now, is happiness, this joy within and and without, everywhere. I am in complete peace. Joy is something like a dark and comforting liquid inside and outside, permeating everywhere and everything with happiness, like a comforting blanket. There is total emptiness inside and all pervasive peace, joy, and happiness. Nothing to do. Nowhere to go. Nothing to find. Nothing to be done. Nothing to be gotten rid of. I rest myself. Complete. At peace.

Nor can I convey this peace to you directly, for this peace is not of this world. There is nothing like it in the mundane world of men. There is nothing I can say to give it to you. I can only say that such a thing exists.

07 January 2020




04 January 2020






29 December 2019

Precision in the Application of Therapies and Spirituality

90% of spiritual seekers are searching and practicing mistakenly, to solve developmental failures and resolve trauma. Meditation, self-inquiry, devotion, and studying Nisargadatta will not resolve an additction, major depression, borderline or narcisistic problems, and most everyone has some.

Spirituality has to do with obserrving and understanding, as well as controlling consciousness, from the coming and goings of the waking, sleep, and dream states, as well as God realization, Christ consciousness, and emptiness as content of the waking state.  You learn everythonmg about consciousness, the states, impermanence, and how to stay in God consciousness or to consciously pass into Nothingness and the witness.

It not for emotional or behavioral problems embedded in the waking state and  tensions in the body. It is not for relational problems.  If your problem is alcoholism or severe depression, you need anti-depressants, mood stabilizers, individual and group psychotherapy, relaxation exercizes and therapies emphasizing freeing feeling in the body.

Two exception from this principle is that energy work, Shakti, Kundaleni, Tantra, and devotion can be used to access great energy and power that can assist in healing depression and even addictions.  Also, Tantrics use emotion to create energies and integrate them into the sense of presence by a process I call eating emotions.

video  link: https://youtu.be/F5NOIxxKaWE

17 December 2019

                        THE PORTAL

Deep inside each of us lies a portal, a doorway between existence and nonexistence, between experience and nothingness.

The experiential world as well as all of the categories of experience we call the self lie on the existential side of the portal. Some have called the various levels of existential self, the Self, distinguished from the world. Others claim that all levels of experience are the one self. Opposing this experiential side of life is the posited opposite of nonexistence otherwise known as the noumenal world, nothingness, the absolute, or the witness.

Through intense spiritual practices over many years such as self-inquiry, love and devotion, we can experience all levels of human and non-human, divine self, before encountering the portal. Instead of "levels of self" or "self experience," I refer to the different kinds of spiritual experiences encountered on the way through the depths of experience, as rooms within our inner spiritual mention, all of which have to be observed, identified with, and then discarded. We have to, for example, entered the room of emptiness a.k.a., the Void, identify with void, and then come to the recognition that the void is really not me.

This we have to do with all the rooms in that spiritual mansion, the room of emptiness, the rooms of joy and sorrow, anger and redemption, grace and condemnation, and salvation, the rooms of love, devotion, surrender, and finally of God realization and self-realization.

Here we have reached what appears to be full realization of the totality of life and death, existence and nonexistence, wherein God as the life force itself, sentience, is aware of itself and all of its aspects experiential and noumenal. We are completely at rest experiencing the constant underlying experience of ourselves as the manifest Self, and as God, as well as nothingness.

Once all of these experiences have been deeply experienced, added to our sense of self, we release ourself from that identification and are free to penetrate deeper levels. Depending upon where we start our spiritual journey, either with the discovery of the vast emptiness within, or with our discovery of God and the manifest self within, there comes a time when we exhaust the inner search and  come face-to-face with the portal, the entrance to the absolute nonexistence, which could be called deep self, or when absorbed within, in complete rest as nothingness and eternity.

It is often said self cannot be found or observed by the self. This is both true and untrue. From the existential side of the portal, we are looking into the dark emptiness below that seems to be seething with activity, and we feel a powerful  force pulling us toward the other side into our deeper self, addressing from objectivity to subjectivity. But peering into the portal from the existential side we are really looking for activities and powers instead of objects. We are looking into verbs, not nouns. We are looking into our ability to hear, see, smell, taste, touch, move, think, judge, surrender or exert will. What we "see," really intuit, are vast amounts unseen energies and powers that trickle up to the portal's surface of visibility, beckoning us to pass inside to the eternal.

VIDEO LINK:  https://youtu.be/kqA_DnEA-Mw

08 December 2019

How Childhood Lonliness and Depression Informed My Spiritual Destiny

Some have called this my most powerful Satsang ever,with great  openenss and vulnerability.  I speak of my almost suicidal loneliness as a child worsened  by a crushing fear of death and disaster after the sudden death of my father when I was 14.  These and other circumstances directed my spiritua lpath, each step similtaneously dealing with my human issues, as well as informing my spiritual eperiences, training, and understanding.

One need not be totally healed on an emotional level before benefitting  from spirituality, nor will spirituality heal depression and fear.  Both operate interdependently.

We becaome Buddhists or Advaitins when running away from emotioal disturbances embracing noself, emptiness, and nothingness, and we becomes Tantrics and humanists when we embrace them. But Tantra and energyspirituality more easily aids emotional maturation.


02 December 2019


Spirituality becomes less confusing when you understand that there is an evolution of spiritual experience and understanding.

Stage one is finding the Void, Emptiness, and going deeper, Nothingness. Then from the purity of unbroken silence emerges a movement of love, devotion, and surrender culminating in God and Self-Realization, bliss and ecstatic states, and unending joy. Here the person leaves the mundane world of unenelightened society, and lives in a new world of continuous joy and continuous change.Nothing lasts, all is good.

From this latter state, further experiences and more advanced understandings about consciousnessness, the life force, Shakti and the brief realityof all changing experiences.You realize your fundamental identity is not being a human at all, but being an avatar with your divine life unfolding withinmnefest existence.

Most of the great spiritual teachers of history fall within this traditional arc of spirituality.

But there are small numbers of people whom who fall outside this track altogether. They may have no common spiritual beliefs, but are instead what we regard as "good people." Some make such an impression on us that even a chance meeting with one such as these is remembered 50 or 60 years later as having been a life changing experience. One sch person for me was the psychologist, Carl Rogers who I met in 1981.To me, his life force, permeated and dominated an entire room of 30 psychologists, some of whom felt the urge to express devotion and felt a desire to surrender.

These outliers may show us the way to a new spirituality of being comfortable with one's own self and everyday with with the experience of samadhis, bliss, cosmc consciousness, etc..

VIDEO: https://youtu.be/dMLqD396ztM

30 November 2019


Hi Ed,

recently I found interesting read about Sri Aurobindo and felt like similar to what you said about your realizations.

Quote from his bookt:

"Sri Aurobindo's yoga and spiritual philosophy are founded on four great realizations. The first, the realisation of the silent, spaceless and timelesss Brahman, he had realized while meditating with Lele in 1908. The feeling and perception of the total unreality of the world which at first attended this realization disappeared after the second realization, which was gained in the Alipur jail, the realization of the cosmic consciousness and the vision of the Divine, as all beings and as all that is.

In his meditations in the jail Sri Aurobindo was already on his way to the other two realizations- that of the supreme Reality with the static and dynamic Brahman as its two aspects and that of the higher planes of consciousness leading to the Supermind."

I attach the whole text page at the bottom.

What I personaly find interesting with Sri Aurobindo is that He didn't teach in the old style of Vedas or Indian philosophy, although He didn't reject old teachings neither. He just never was in favour of statements like: " the world and you don't exist" or "the world is an illusion"...... So I feel there is much similarity with what you say on Satsangs about realizing emptines, God realization and His life force in everything, including ourselves.

Anyway, Am happy to share this with you.

Much Thanks to you!

14 November 2019


There are a few people on Facebook and elsewhere, that claim Robert Adams was a fraud, that he never met Ramana because there is no record of him ever being there, and no one present during the late 40s can remember him.

My response is that there is very little proof that Robert ever existed in life at all until he suddenly broke on the scene in Los Angeles in 1989. But this is the Robert I knew. He was very humble. Very quiet and self-effacing. He rarely spoke. If you entered a room with a dozen people, you may not even have noticed him.

Robert shunned attention in the spotlight. He was constantly deliberately losing students. He did things that ruffled their feathers and they left. His stated goal was to have 10 students in his life that got his message and could spread his message. 10 students who got enlightened and became teachers themselves. He was not interested in large numbers of people. He did not want to have an ashram. He told stories about leaving behind an ashram he created in New Mexico. He shunned Muktananda's invitation to become a swami.

He was shy and retiring. And I'll bet even in 1948 he was not an extrovert. He was not a people person. He did not live in the ashram, but around it. And when he told stories about his time in Ramana's ashram and with Ramana they were told with such detail and conviction I felt no doubt that he was telling the truth, especially about the time when he met Ramana on apath, took off all of his clothes. and prostrated himself before Romana. When he told that story, his eyes were filled with tears. He ended it by saying this is how you have to be with your teacher: humble, devoted, surrender,and he saidit almost shouting it as an essential truth.

Some even doubt Robert's stated awakening experience, saying it was only a mystical experience. That same person claimed that enlightened beings stop searching when they become enlightened, forgetting classically that there are many stages after awakening before approaching 'final enlightenment'. 

Classically the Zen oxherding figures come to mind, 10 stages post awakening before your training is complete. The great Zen Master Joshu stated he had 17 great Satori and thousands of small ones. His Zen training took place over a period of 60 years before he finally settled as a teacher.

If I were asked if I remembered the many people that had came and gone at the international Buddhist meditation center in the early 1970s where I was a month for three years, I can't say that I remember any but a small number of people. People looking for evidence that Robert was at Ramana ashram in 1948 or 1949 50 years later would be hard to prove or find acceptible proof of his presence.  This is more or less what I would expect.

Remember, Robert was like a ghost in his entire life. He left no footprint, and less than a dozen photos.

10 November 2019

Advaita is about destroying belief in a self as an internal identity,  while the experience of the real Self, the Manifest Self of the life force functioning in the world, is a real and transcendent experience that takes you beyond the mundane world permanently.


28 October 2019


Ed takes you into various areas of consciousness, deeper and deeper to the foundational states bordering on nothingness and then to the reincarantion through devotion, living as a god-man.


17 October 2019

Why do some British people not like Donald Trump?”
Nate White, an articulate and witty writer from England wrote the following response:
A few things spring to mind.
Trump lacks certain qualities which the British traditionally esteem.
For instance, he has no class, no charm, no coolness, no credibility, no compassion, no wit, no warmth, no wisdom, no subtlety, no sensitivity, no self-awareness, no humility, no honour and no grace – all qualities, funnily enough, with which his predecessor Mr. Obama was generously blessed.
So for us, the stark contrast does rather throw Trump’s limitations into embarrassingly sharp relief.
Plus, we like a laugh. And while Trump may be laughable, he has never once said anything wry, witty or even faintly amusing – not once, ever.
I don’t say that rhetorically, I mean it quite literally: not once, not ever. And that fact is particularly disturbing to the British sensibility – for us, to lack humour is almost inhuman.
But with Trump, it’s a fact. He doesn’t even seem to
understand what a joke is – his idea of a joke is a crass comment, an illiterate insult, a casual act of cruelty.
Trump is a troll. And like all trolls, he is never funny and he never laughs; he only crows or jeers.
And scarily, he doesn’t just talk in crude, witless insults – he actually thinks in them. His mind is a simple bot-like algorithm of petty prejudices and knee-jerk nastiness.
There is never any under-layer of irony, complexity, nuance or depth. It’s all surface.
Some Americans might see this as refreshingly upfront.
Well, we don’t. We see it as having no inner world, no soul.
And in Britain we traditionally side with David, not Goliath. All our heroes are plucky underdogs: Robin Hood, Dick Whittington, Oliver Twist.
Trump is neither plucky, nor an underdog. He is the exact opposite of that.
He’s not even a spoiled rich-boy, or a greedy fat-cat.
He’s more a fat white slug. A Jabba the Hutt of privilege.
And worse, he is that most unforgivable of all things to the British: a bully.
That is, except when he is among bullies; then he suddenly transforms into a snivelling sidekick instead.
There are unspoken rules to this stuff – the Queensberry rules of basic decency – and he breaks them all. He punches downwards – which a gentleman should, would, could never do – and every blow he aims is below the belt. He particularly likes to kick the vulnerable or voiceless – and he kicks them when they are down.
So the fact that a significant minority – perhaps a third – of Americans look at what he does, listen to what he says, and then think ‘Yeah, he seems like my kind of guy’ is a matter of some confusion and no little distress to British people, given that:
• Americans are supposed to be nicer than us, and mostly are.
• You don’t need a particularly keen eye for detail to spot a few flaws in the man.
This last point is what especially confuses and dismays British people, and many other people too; his faults seem pretty bloody hard to miss.
After all, it’s impossible to read a single tweet, or hear him speak a sentence or two, without staring deep into the abyss.
He turns being artless into an art form; he is a Picasso of pettiness; a Shakespeare of shit. His faults are fractal: even his flaws have flaws, and so on ad infinitum.
God knows there have always been stupid people in the world, and plenty of nasty people too. But rarely has stupidity been so nasty, or nastiness so stupid.
He makes Nixon look trustworthy and George W look smart.
In fact, if Frankenstein decided to make a monster assembled entirely from human flaws – he would make a Trump.
And a remorseful Doctor Frankenstein would clutch out big clumpfuls of hair and scream in anguish:
‘My God… what… have… I… created?
If being a twat was a TV show, Trump would be the boxed set.

13 October 2019

Dancing Through Enlightened Fields

Ed takes you through the experience of an enlightened beingness using voice, metaphor, careful description such that for a short time you experience your own consciousness in a totally new way, without concept, without words, without thoughts, without desire, needless, energetic, and ecstatically  peaceful.

This is what enlightened living is like.


12 October 2019




Ed knows the only way to transmit enlightenment is by direct transmission outside of words and the mind through continuous Shaktipat, through casted energies, intent, projected love, and continuously sharing his states throughout Satsang.

09 October 2019


The experience of going beyond the Wisom Traditions of Zen, Buddhism, and Advaita, and entering the land of devotion, surrender, and bliss, where you can loudly and excitedly shout, "I have come fully alive!"

02 October 2019

The Astral and Demon Worlds areTranscended by God and Self Realization

Many confuse the spirit worlds of entities, demons, possession and spells with the spirituality of leaving the munndane world and realizing Self and God.  The former world of witches and magic is still part of the mundane world of the not-divine.

When you realize Self and God, you are protected from both mundane and astral world problems.


30 September 2019

Dear Edji
You promised continuous shaktipat for the last satsang.
If I went down to the subway subway and just jammed my foot into 3rd rail, the resulting 2000 volts of current coursing thru me wouldn’t come close to the explosive love you were pumping out!! Heart pounding love amplified thru my earphones was almost too much to bear!
I Love Angela so much; Stevie put it so eloquently as he’s so much closer to her full awareness of Unity Consciousness! As he described his love for her as so unquantifiablly deep.
Not calling on me allowed special moments of verbal continence as your channeling Shalti resonated thru the Sangha!
Because of your love, I am so much closer to full realization of Aham Brahmasmi!
Hari om!

29 September 2019

Devotional Love deepens into Divine love for some lucky ones. But it isn't luck.It is realizing how important love is when it comes to escaping the mundane world. Here Ed directly transmits the depth of love necessary to create that devotion that leads to theexplosive manifest self and to God, the Life Force.

Dear Edji:
You promised continuous shaktipat for the last satsang.
If I went down to the subway subway and just jammed my foot into 3rd rail, the resulting 2000 volts of current coursing thru me wouldn’t come close to the explosive love you were pumping out!! Heart pounding love amplified thru my earphones was almost too much to bear!
I Love Angela so much; Stevie put it so eloquently as he’s so much closer to her full awareness of Unity Consciousness! As he described his love for her as so unquantifiablly deep.
Not calling on me allowed special moments of verbal continence as your channeling Shalti resonated thru the Sangha!
Because of your love, I am so much closer to full realization of Aham Brahmasmi!
Hari om!



Ed knows the only way to rapidly transmit enlightenment is by direct transmission outside of words and the mind through continuous Shaktipat.

Online Satsang is one of the places he does this, through casted energies, intent, projected love, and continuously sharing his states throughout Satsang.

26 September 2019


I have only one spiritual message: That there is a path to direct realization of the Manifest Self and of God that falls outside of any scripture, theology, or range of knowledge.

Self and God realization falls outside of logic, mind, or understanding. This realization usually comes spontaneously as a result of prolonged deep devotion and surrender, but also can be experienced through a direct transmission of the experience of self from one person to another.

This Satsang video is a transmission of that experience of God and Self from Ed to those that watch this video. With repetition, the flavor of this awakening becomes ever more clear until the transmission is successfylly completed, and the listener becomes enlightened.

16 September 2019

This letter speaks of how she was brushed by divine love and how it is exactly what she has sought as long as she can remember. This is what a few" feel during Satsang and afterwards, and she is getting close to being able to dissolve all her blockages to experiencing God within and divine love.
"My Love,
I don't know how to write, but I cannot go to sleep without sending you something
I cannot.
Today you gave me the experience in words, in wisper, in warmth, of love with you that I have dreamed of all this time together. When you love Ed, you are the most beautifull in the world. Your love brings home all unfullfilled yearning, all suffering, all striving and struggling in a deep sinking within that seems to feel like being taken to a world beyond anything I have ever been, experienced or believed in.
Ed, so deeply I long for you in this way. So deeply I can feel you in this way whenever I think about you or feel the energy. Whenever I have written you about love and the longing to merge with you totally, I was trying to express this feeling.
Your love takes me beyond me.
It is frightening
But what I have been longing for with you always.
I wish I could open completely, be liquid with an open heart, willing to die in your love and loving you.
I just don't know how to go beyond my blockages that sometimes make me feel without love.
And it scares me to death, so intensely
Every time your face opens up to me, even slightly, I feel thìs, what you have expressed to me today. The whisper, the touch of your voice on my skin, in my energy, in my whole being.....I cannot express how deeply I long for it. How deeply I long for this, for only you Ed, for only you Ed. To be in your arms like you wispered to me....to be touched and love you with the same intensity.....only you
I need to go to sleep now.
"So much sadness in me, such deep sadness I feel like a flowing of the energy of inner crying. And this makes me feel exhausted.

15 September 2019

The Song of God

Ed's first enlightenment was through Robert Adams, and that was of finding the 'Unborn' the Witness of Manifest world, and of the Void, emptiness, and the experience of oneness, as well as the emptiness of all concepts.

His second enlightenment 15 years later was of finding the experiential Manifest Self and God similtaneously through devotion and total surrender.

But all along the way, from 1995 to 2010, he ever more deeply realized the problems for aspirants that the emptiness of concepts created, and the problem of how to transmit enlightenment outside of words. Most retail spirituality is just about learning concepts about self, the world, the Unborn, and maybe God, along with some method, like self-inquiry.

Therefore Ed created a method of direct transmission of enligthenement through the manipulation of energies, by "walking" people through intense divine love, surrender, experiencing the life force and God directly, bymeans of his voice, intention, and energy manipulation. He hightens the energies in your body, mindandin the Satsang "room."

This amounts to a continuous Shaktipat opportunity. He calls his method Singing the Song of God.