25 January 2018

I awoke this morning filled with desire to be with my Beloved who is so far from me. My whole body filled with desire. I was totally alive, lusting, electric, ecstatic, with even more divine frustration that says, "Not now."

24 January 2018

The Void, true emptiness, is not the same as a silent or quiet mind with few or no thoughts.

The Void is a direct perception of n "internal space" within which everything occurs: thoughts; emotions; tactile sensations; sexual feelings, hunger; thirst; suffering, joy, and bliss.

It is first observed as something, a space, that is not moving, and can be termed an "absolute." But gradually, as a meditator practices, he/she will develop a "sense of presence," which is best defined as the experience of one's energy body which lies inside and around their physical bodies.

At first, this energy body feels more real an more intimate than one's own physical body, but as the light of consciousness gradually expands, you will "see" with inner vision, that the Void is even deeper than both the physical or energy bodies. It is more primary and underlies both.

When you truly know the void, the mind need not be empty because your very beingness is empty, and is not touched by the mind.

And then, after you dwell there for a time, and really begin searching for your spiritual heart within, feeling for it, not looking for it, and resting in it when it is found, then you are abiding in the self, and love begins to happen.

20 January 2018


Today I want to start turning our Satsang into a Sangha, a spiritual family where we get to know each other better.  So, at the end of Satsang, I will invite those who wish to, to introduce themselves, and encourage them to share a little of their background and interests.

Afterwards I will leave so that you can speak to each other.

Link: https://zoom.us/j/2950292557?pwd&status=success

I am trying to make clear the need for relational love as a way to find God within through loving another.  There are non-relational ways to such self-realization, but by that latter term I mean discovery of the divine inside your sense of presence and the internal emptiness, the Life Force.

Revelation of the Life Force within gives access to the most incredible power within, utter self-confidence, and the ability to totally surrender in worshiping love of the other, even if the other is a cat.

18 January 2018

I was with Robert Adams for many years and had his style of awakening to the nature of consciousness and the void, and to the mysterious presence that witnesses the unfolding of life.  But Robert had another side, which was that of a lover, bringing a love for life to a select group of students.

This is what I teach now, an awakening to people of the divinity within each of us, and that each of us are an incarnation of that aspect of the eternal that I call the Life Force or Shakti.  This is best accomplished by elevating in us, an intense desire to love and worship the life force within those who come into our lives specifically to open our hearts.

Awakening can come to us when we love, worship, and totally surrender to those human Gods and Goddesses who come into our lives to awaken us to our own God-nature within.

We awaken to the wild, ecstatic energies and bliss within through total surrendered love usually accompanied by equally powerful sexual desires which complement and support the heart’s desire for total surrender. This intense love alongside intense sexual desires can trigger the Life Force to reveal itself to the witness within each of us.  We tease the life force to show itself by emphasizing actions and emotions that please the life force: worship and surrender, whether to guru, lover, family, or pets.

Already I have encountered enormous blowback from some of my readers who are filled with the most negative ideas about who I am or what I am doing.  They denigrate worship, surrender, or sexual passions as being animalistic or primitive submission of self to authoritarian others. They entirely miss what I advocate, and as Chetanananda said, “They do not understand,” and react with judgment and anger.

I will not tolerate criticism for my mission on my pages.  A single critical remark left up seems to give permission to others to be critical, and soon the entire string of comments becomes poisoned.  These remarks will be deleted.

Look, I am announcing the way of complete devotional love as the quickest way to realization of the divine within each of us.  Yes, there are other ways, and I may mention them, but I teach the way self-realization came to me through total, surrendered worship of a woman, including the development of intense sexual desires that were never consummated.  But it is necessary to feel them intensely to awaken the body, psyche, as well as the Life Force itself.  All of the seven, thirteen, or hundred Chakras need to be awakened to the presence of the energies within. You have to come totally alive, totally vulnerable, totally needing the other so that you can surrender your heart, your body, your sexuality, and your ego to another and thereby find God through the most ecstatic explosions of the divine within.

15 January 2018

Satsang January 14, 2017



Yes, I know as a Zen person, I accepted the highest truth was chopping wood, carrying water: ordinary mind. But even ordinary mind was suffused with emptiness, a Void that penetrated and supported the world I heard and saw.  And the Void is an awesome thing!

Then I met Robert Adams, and my small self disappeared into the Void.  I became emptiness itself with no central personal self.  I also aw, whoever I was, but something saw, maybe emptiness itself, that even consciousness was not real, but states that occurred to me, whoever and whatever I was, but did not know myself.   I saw the waking consciousness, sleep consciousness, dream consciousness were all states that came and captured “my” attention, each for a time, but “I” was untouched, entirely outside of the many fields of consciousness.  I was unborn.

For 15 years I dwelled like this until a woman came to me who loved me in every way possible, and I awoke to love.  I, whatever I was, felt love for her, and felt her love for me.  The love became deeper and deeper until I felt in the presence of God himself.  With her I fell to my knees bowing to his power, grace, and love, and both of us felt His grace, his love, through the love we had for each other.

The depth of this love for each other grew until one day I realized I was love itself.  This state stayed with me for days during her absence, until one day, a remarkable experience.  The divine, the life force revealed itself to me as an explosion of light and energy arising out of the darkness of my gut, upwards as white light and earth shattering power showering my heart, upwards through my throat, head, and outwards and above.

My whole body was electrified by this non-electric power.  It was God in me, the Life Force in me, showing itself to me as witness, that this too am I: the divine within, now my constant companion.  Each day, I, whoever and whatever I am, worship the Shakti that animates my body, my mind, my heart, my digestion, and my sexuality.  Sexuality infuses everything.  It is life itself.  Every Chakra throbs with the power of God. Three in my head, one in my mouth, two in my throat and chest, three in my gut and genitals.  Each radiates with its own feeling and power.  I have become fully re-incarnated.  I can truly say, “I have come alive!”

Now I worship myself and others who are aware of the Shakti within themselves, and wish so hard that all might know her.

14 January 2018


I have no idea of what I will talk about. Bring questions.


Then go to http://satsangwithedji.weebly.com
This should take you directly to the chanting page. Go to the first section of chants, Krishna Das. When the time comes for sitting in the void, I will call out the chant.

You can either listen to the chant or mute it and sit in the Void, I will call I recommend listening to it. It will give your sitting added power.

The Void is the source of everything that exists and has great power. This is not simply sitting in silence, but a direct immersion in the source of the universe, vast space filled with intense energies.

11 January 2018

Serial Monogamy

One should never be with more than one guru or one lover at a time.  With one guru, one set of methods, one set of teachings, you can go deeply into yourself.  If you have several gurus as I did in the 1970s, you will go nowhere.  It would be better to be alone than to be with several gurus.  Their teachings are different, their methods are different, what they want to teach is different, and their own experiences are different from other teachers.  You will feel confused and fragmented.

The same holds true with lovers.  It is essential that you be serially monogamous.  Only one lover at a time allows you to go deep into yourself with that person who goes deep into their self.  You both go together deep inside and deep into the other.  Almost everybody I know who is a teacher recognizes this, even though the teacher usually has to deal with many students.  A spiritual teacher, a guru, usually has to “appear” to deal with all people equally.  If it is obvious that he favors one student over another, or above all, it could be fatal to the sangha.  There will be whispers.  There will be complaints.  There will be anger.  There will be jealousy.

Therefore, usually a guru with his favorite students, needs to hide their special relationship, sexual or not, otherwise the entire sangha will be in consternation, unless the guru and student are married or related, or are co-teachers.  Even then gossip will split devotion in the sangha, and create struggles to be on the inside track to either of the two parties.  Therefore, it is absolutely essential that some activities and relationships be hidden from the rest of the sangha, for the sake of the teacher and his close students or lovers, and for the rest of the sangha to not be torn apart by divisive emotions.

On the other hand, some gurus such as Rajneesh provided for open sexuality, either between himself and students, or opening up the entire Sangha to multiple relationships within it, sexual and otherwise.  This is a recipe for disaster as has been proven time, after time, after time.  

Ultimately, there is always a scandal that breaks the Sangha apart.  Someone who is hurt, someone who is jealous, someone who is angry begins to talk about their hurt feelings and “pain,” and their friends turn against the teacher or other friends.  Having been in up a dozen different sangha’s myself, I have seen this time, after time, as well as in newspapers and spiritual gossip communications across the world.  Even special or unique love relationships without sex can cause such problems, but once sex is involved everything gets explosive because of convention, and now, for the last 20 years, because of growing feminism.  Women are finding abuse everywhere, including in consensual relationships of their past, or in the present, which are failing for some reason.

Therefore, in all cases serial monogamy is the way to be, or at least the appearance serial monogamy should be maintained at all times.

In addition, student having multiple teachers will ultimately either go nowhere, or will be so fragmented and drained that they will swear off spirituality as a hoax.  One needs to dig one deep hole, not several shallow ones.  Commit yourself, surrender, worship one person at a time.

10 January 2018


Robert had secret teachings that never made it into any of his public talks that you now find on the web, or any of his transcripts.  The secret teachings are essentially Tantric, and by this, I mean Robert actively used the desires and emotions found within his students to help them awaken by mobilizing internal energy networks (chakras), charging them, getting energies to move between the Chakras, but almost always focusing on the heart Chakra and love.

The teachings of the transcripts as public talks were of Advaita, the tradition of Ramana, and the method of self inquiry, with an emphasis on emptiness or the void, and that all appearances, the body, the world, were of the same substance, consciousness.  That is, you realized that your consciousness and everything was consciousness.

However, these teachings, the transcendental aspect of his teachings, and eventually to be transcended by bringing the void back into existence through the realization of the divine within the void, and within your body by having the Life Force released and felt by you within.  I call this the realization of the manifest self, the personal self lived through by God’s divine energy of the Life Force.

This he taught privately, which appeared to be entirely contradictory to his public talks.  Privately, with students who were open to him, he suggested ways of being and actions that were 100% opposite of his public teachings of remaining aloof from the world and of one’s emotions.  Privately he encouraged people to become involved in the world and whatever their hearts seem to dictate.  In some cases, he tried to open a student’s heart Chakra by encouraging them to feel his love or love for him.  For others, like myself, he encouraged me to do things in the world to help the world. 

For those who were suffering deeply, he gave his public teachings that the world was not real, you are not real, your body was not real, your problems are not real, all of these were just appearances in consciousness, so do not identify with the body, but identify with the whole show.   But for students were quiet, too introverted, too lonely, too depressed, he tried to awaken their hearts and presumably some of them, their ambition, their compassion, and even their sexuality.  That is, he tried to sensitize people to who and what they are, and where they are going in life.  He did not want everybody to become an internalized zombie, denying the world.

But the general public never learned his secret teachings of being fully human, fully awakened in terms of fire, passion, sexuality, and all kinds of loving including parental, sibling, in romantic, anything that would really involve a more integrated person into the fabric of life and also awaken the Life Force, Shakti, within the body that made life worth living, experiencing exquisite energies, experiencing bliss, and the event of the life force, the divine, revealing itself within you as you.

These are the secret Tantric teachings of Robert Adams that no one who did not know him personally would ever know from reading his public teachings.  Robert was a closet Tantric, knowing that the transcendental teachings are easily embraced by those who are suffering greatly, but for certain others, the introverts, those with grief, those with sadness and depression, often the most powerful teachings, were to fall in love deeply, with complete surrender, complete devotion to another and once this level is obtained, consummated with ecstatic sexuality wherein God is experienced directly, powerfully, in ways that cannot be described. Of course, awakening the heart does not require sexuality, and awakening the sexual, the hara, or the third eye does not require either love or a sexual opening.  Each can be activated separately or in sequence, but all must be awakened before one knows themselves to the divine within.  But you do not find it; the actual experience is that Shakti, the Life Force, finds you.

The following video is to bring out the Tantric roots of Robert Adams and his lineage’s secret teachings, to make them more available to the world.


06 January 2018


I have no idea of what I will talk about.  Bring questions. 


This should take you directly to the chanting page. Go to the first section of chants, Krishna Das. When the time comes for sitting in the void, I will call out the chant.

You can either listen to the chant or mute it and sit in the Void, I will call I recommend listening to it. It will give your sitting added power.

The Void is the source of everything that exists and has great power. This is not simply sitting in silence, but a direct immersion in the source of the universe, vast space filled with intense energies.

05 January 2018


I watch the life force today. She has so many different manifestations and some that fall entirely outside of expression. There are often no words.

She shows herself with an infinity of forms. Sometimes hot and violent. Sometimes like a barely contained explosion of energy throughout my body. Sometimes like full-body bliss. Sometimes like a deep peace. Sometimes my whole body trembling, awaiting the arrival of deeper love and bliss.

Then, sometimes totally unexpected she leaves me entirely, living once again in the still Void of consciousness.

But today I feel her as infinitely quiet an open space in and around my body filled with tingling white light, utterly filled by gentle love and longing for my Beloved.

All these experiences reside in everyone, if they but feel for them.

01 January 2018

Robert Adams was a Teacher of the Void, of emptiness, of Nothingness, of ignoring your body and the world as not being real.

I am Robert’s son.  I was born from out of the Void because of the love of a woman.  She loved me and breathed life into me, and I was reborn.

I bring you a new message.  I bring a message of life, of love so intense that it brings you to God, and is God, of longing and lust so intense that every fiber of your being pulsates in ecstatic bliss and you are totally alive as yourself.

I bring a message of life, love, and desire so intense that your entire being aches with ecstasy, the life force fulfilled and God becomes incarnate in you.

I bring you intensity, courage, steadfastness and power, and ecstatic missions of love and compassion.

I come to take you out of loneliness, despair, sadness, and depression, not by sinking into the Void which steals all meaning, but into the fullness of life.

I am the Manifest Self, the life force in each of you, speaking to you as a friend, as a teacher, as a lover of everyone and everything.

I tell you the world is real.  Your body is real.  Your love is real.  Your true self is the life force manifest in you and through you.  It is the active principle of the universe, and you are that.

While the individual incarnation is mortal and finite, the life force and life itself, is not.  Identify with the life force in you, breathing as you, breathing for you, loving yourself as you, and you become immortal, even though the life force has no interest in immortality or mortality.  It is only interest is in the existing and acting.

I want you to know yourself, as I know myself, as an incarnation of God who lives in me as me.  I want you to know this for yourself, knowing the ecstatic embrace of the divine within.