31 March 2018



The Path through love and bliss is by far the fastest; but how to start?


25 March 2018


I do not teach self-inquiry the Robert Adams or Ramana taught.  I do not ask “Who am I?” and wait for an answer. That is totally in the mind level.

I ask you instead to feel within.  Feel for your sense of being alive only, not for who you are theoretically.  Start by feeling for your emotions.  Do you feel any?  If so, feel them and gently bring them into your heart. I have explained this method in detail elsewhere many times and I call it eating emotions.

Then feel for energies within.  Start by concentrating on your fingers or toes.  Within seconds you will feel tingling.  Focusing attention brings forth energies.  Keep practicing these each day and hold onto and spread these 

You can add a new practice; think of someone you love deeply, now or in the past.  Feel within your heart area for an opening, an internal relaxation that will feel tender, or maybe with gratitude.  Hold your attention there.
Feel also into your genitals thinking of this person? Do you feel any movement or erotic sensation?  Focus on these feelings and allow them to expand.

There is something a woman can do that most men cannot, which is to learn how to experience continuous orgasms, at first in the vaginal area, or in the womb, but felt without anyone else being present or without touching herself.

Thinking of your Beloved, not necessarily in a sexual way at all, you can feel your heart continuously opening, and along with it, continuous orgasms in your vagina, womb, and heart without physical stimulation, just from an opening heart.

Of course there has to be guidance from someone who knows the way to ignite both the heart and sexual complexes, and it involves fantasy processes, but such cannot be described in the context of this short post.

With very little practice you can begin feel continuous orgasms off and on all day, and for many minutes at a time and with various intensities. 

All kinds of things will now be happening to your physical, emotional and energy bodies, but even more importantly, you will directly understand and feel that you are not your physical body, but your deeper energy/emotional/love body which is pure spirit and which both inhabits your physical body and also feels it.  It is these more subtle bodies that are sentience, not your physical body.  The deepening of your awareness of internal energies, your heart, and sexuality are felt as one continuous energy body, different from your physical body which is perceived as an object, not as you, the subject.

This is your initiation to real self-inquiry, real self feeling deeper and deeper beyond your physical body and your mind.  From this deeper place in you, the mind is forgotten and you are living from your heart, gut, and sexuality, no longer subject to the dictates of your mind, judgments or morality,  but from your entire sense of presence as being a sentient incarnation of the universal life force.

Gradually you will learn more and more about yourself, until your own sense of self seems pleased by your efforts and love you have shown it.  Then the life force reveals itself to you in the most amazing displays of energy, light, bliss, gratitude, and love, and you are reborn as a self-knowing incarnation of God, the life force. This is one form of self-realization which I call awakening to the Manifest Self, the experiential self, or the life force.

We seem to becoming into an age of blossoming femininity, transforming patriarchy into matriarchy. That is only right given the millennia of suppression under male-dominated societies.  Yes, this could make for a more compassionate world with far more subtle emotions and energies. A world on women’s terms.

But this is not enough.  This is still unbalanced. The final state will be when sexism is transcended and everyone ‘felt’ as an equal embodiment of God.

This is an age of near absolute repression in every aspect of social life.  We can only escape such when two lovers have transcended most all of these repressions and live quietly together, lovingly, worshipping each other, surrendered to each other, all quietly and silently, until there are enough of us when it will be safe to go public, speaking ad acting openly about this divine love relationship.

Right now the most advanced form of couplehood is where the man surrenders to the woman, worships her, surrenders to her, and she accepts and does likewise.  In the future they will surrender to each other immediately having learned how to be totally open in the moment in a very knowing way, seeing the future potential naturally flowing from their coming together.

24 March 2018

The Path through love and bliss is by far the fastest; but how to start?

23 March 2018

You know, I get called a drama queen a lot. But when I confront these “truth sayers,” I almost universally witness them themselves falling apart in their way of expressing anger, hatred, hurt, and fear. They become tongue-tied in their deepening fury.
So, my real mission is not making gurus, but in creating drama queens be destroying that thin barrier between feeling and expression that separates “normals” from drama queens.

21 March 2018

If you could only accept yourself as you are rather than some improved model in the future where certain present confusions do not exist, and live your life from there, all things would be given.

If not, try my path of love and surrender through the energy/emotional/bliss bodies, through to emptiness, then to your manifest source as life itself. From there you can see you are still removed, without dimension of existence in any form.

This trip will be neither easy nor will it ever be boring.

17 March 2018


16 March 2018

The Ghost in the Machine
Edward Muzika

I am writing an introduction to a path to enlightenment by means of becoming aware of one’s subtle body processes.  In this document I am speaking directly to the intelligence of your subtle bodies, but even deeper, to you who are beyond all of this.

The subtle body inaccurately can be said to be located within one’s physical body.  This is only true because one first tends to perceive Subtle body processes by “looking inwards,” by imaginatively turning one’s external visual seeing inwards, at the third eye center located near the middle of the four head , or downwards towards the heart, or even further downwards towards the gut. 

At first almost everyone sees nothing just darkness but with persistence, one begins to be able to visually see within what appears to be the inner darkness of one’s body.  What has happened, is that you are beginning to perceive with an alternative imaginative visual sense, the inner workings of the Subtle body, especially its energies, how they flow, have direction and intensity.

You might say the essential character of the Subtle body consist of four components: an inner light called the light of consciousness, which illuminate an inner “space,” or Void, and “energies,” of many different sorts that flow in and around the Subtle body because these energies are at first perceived to be within the physical body, and lastly, FEELING all these energies, emotions, tactile sensations, in movement, such as walking, or breathing.

Growing acquaintance with the inner body will result in the realization at some point that you are not the physical body, but instead are this feeling body within which feels energies, emotions, experiences thoughts, perceives inner lights, and which feels the body, its tensions and pleasures, but most significantly, you become aware of all the various energy patterns within the Subtle body that are only loosely associated with the physical body’s nervous complexes.

One could say that when one enters one’s Subtle body, you are entering into an area of fantasy, of images, sensations, bliss, energies, sexuality, feeling of the physical organs, seeing inner light, witnessing thoughts, feeling moods and emotions.  In a sense the whole process becomes like a very deep and nonverbal psychotherapy because you are experiencing emotions and energies that flow and morph into each other in very complex ways and patterns, but there is nothing “real about any of these processes as they are not manifest objectively in the world for all to see.  They are subjective in similar to fantasy processes, and fantasy processes can be used to awaken one’s awareness To Subtle body processes.

The Subtle body and deeper levels are whole new world to a person who was only aware of their minds and their physical bodies, and to a lesser degree of emotions.  A whole new world is opened up of ever-changing space and flows of energies and emotions within the space.  In this space is felt to be far more real than your physical body, because you begin to see and understand the physical body is merely perceived and made real by the Subtle body and its connection to the physical body.

At this point, what you had called real before, your external world, your home, your spouse, politics, your career can begin to seem unreal in comparison to the aliveness and intense presence of one’s experience of one’s own subtle body.  The external world can begin to feel like a dream in comparison to the new dynamic reality of the inner energetic processes and bliss.  Hence Ramana and Robert Adams saying that the world is like a dream in comparison to the depths you are now plumbing within.

Now, there are many ways to gain entrance to the Subtle body.  Traditional methods involve breathing exercises called pranayama, combined with visualization’s and focusing one’s attention on various places within the physical body where supposedly Subtle body Complexes or Chakras are located, and then imagining energies and lights traveling between or within a Chakra.  This is the traditional way, and I might say the most boring way, and a way that is or can be filled with danger for those who do not have an ever present teacher.  Kundalini awakenings can be quite frightening because of the experiences one is subject to, none of which appear to be under one’s own control, therefore inducing fear of insanity her death.

However, I have a very different way.  I get people to be able to experience their Subtle Bodies and their energies by having them open their heart towards me as I open my heart towards them.  It is a Subtle body process wherein one feels like one’s heart and beingness are opening to another person.  One feels very vulnerable, very open, very accepting, and very loving.  This causes in some cases, a similar spontaneous opening to the person being addressed, whether face-to-face, online, in Satsang, or by some other connection such as a phone or even in an email.

On a deeper level, I am speaking to you, the ultimate knower, telling you about part of your own phenomenology that you can become aware of.  Part of what I am doing is directly manipulating your subtle body energies to awaken them, but also to you as knower to become aware of a deeper you.

Now, there are two powerful complexes in the Subtle body that almost automatically respond to such a heart opening: the heart center in the other, and the sexual center in the other, because they are the two most powerful centers normally available to uninitiated people, and their energies can be closely related.  Where there is an opening in one, there is often an opening in the other simultaneously or shortly thereafter.  But neither appear real in the sense of being objective for everyone to see.  These are purely subjective, even though they appear to the person more powerful in real than anything in the external world while they are being experienced.

I want to make one thing very clear.  The work I do can be called a complete fantasy process by using words, images, metaphors, tone of voice, to induce openings in the other person or in many attendees at Satsang.  It is a process remotely similar to hypnosis, but only in the sense that there is a conscious and unconscious process of locking the Subtle body of two people together in a kind of resonance.  I become a broadcaster, they become the receiver, and by resonance they feel a heart opening and often similarly a sexual opening, which is reflected back to me and I react to it, and often there is a building of these energies in each person.  Other openings come later.  The heart center and the sexual center are only two of the myriad of inner experiences of energies, bliss, openings, the Void, utter silence, and the sense of being alive itself, which Nisargadatta called “I am.”

One’s identity shifts from being a physical body, to being a Subtle body, then dropping further and identifying oneself as Void or emptiness or nothingness, and lastly, all of these are dropped and one recognizes that he or she is that to which all these appearances appear, all of these bodies appear in awareness, your awareness, and this awareness, like life itself, is a universal phenomena.  Everyone has awareness, everyone is life, and you begin to take on this identification.  But the identification is mediated by exploring one’s Subtle body, the complexes of energies and bliss, of silence and Void within that so few people know.

I do want to make clear that very strong sexual feelings are set off in this process spontaneously, without any physical sex taking place at all, and often even without a thought of sex.  One’s body begins convulse in full-body orgasms not connected to one’s sexual center.  Orgasms can feel originating in many parts of the body, or the entire body.  But these orgasms are really not attached to sexuality itself in the physical body.  They are kind of earthquakes of energy that show that the body, both the physical and the Subtle, are waking up to subtleties of deepening perception to which the person had been previously unaware.  The strong sexual earthquakes are kind of ways that God entices us as physical beings to become aware of the Subtle body within.  There, orgasms, especially female orgasms, are more a measure for them of the perfection of that moment of being alive.  Sometimes orgasms feel like that at that moment, they are feeling or perceiving or hearing truth, and the orgasm is experienced within the subtle body as the perception of truth or perfection in the moment.

The physical orgasms one has in physical sex our almost nothing like the spiritual orgasms one has opening the spiritual body, yet the term orgasm, as well as sexual centers, immediately convey or cast the most prurient shadow over this whole process of becoming alive to your deeper self.  Some people will just read this or hear this and want to puke because it sounds dirty in some way or goes against their grain of speaking of spirituality and sexuality in the same paragraph.  Or is one swami put it, some people go bad shit crazy when speaking of spirituality and sex in the same breath.

Opening of the sexual center in the Subtle body, leads to sharing the intensity of that Subtle body sexuality to the entirety of the Subtle body, such that all of the energies within the Subtle body become coordinated, balanced and one pointed only after sexual energies have been transmuted into total body energy balancing.

Again, the entire methodology is based on fantasy, imaginatively seeing within one’s physical body, feeling openings in various parts of the physical body, which are really openings in one’s Subtle body, in the heart complex, the sexual complex, the gut complex called Hara by the Japanese.  When the third eye complex opens, above and behind the physical eyes, by imaginatively turning one’s vision inwards, results in the perception of inner light, the light of consciousness, where in the movements of energies are seen as colored flows or streams within and between various complexes in the Subtle body.

The natural result of the opening of the Subtle body is the arising of bliss, at first very lightly, and it is felt like low current electricity, but does not have the stark feeling of electric shock, but as far more gentle and somewhat more pleasurable.  At first it is like one’s leg waking up after being asleep, but more pleasurable. 

Over a period of days, weeks or months, the intensity of the bliss grows until sometimes one is so enthralled by the intensity of bliss one cannot even move for fear of destroying the state.  Living in these energies, manipulating them, feeling them to become ever more subtle and refined, and teased apart by one’s own awareness, is the most lovely process of self-exploration imaginable, especially as it is rewarded by an ever increasing opening of deeper and deeper levels of self and leaving behind the mundane world altogether, and sinking into the ecstasies of light, power, bliss within.

Yet, for all intents and purposes, for Westerners, it can be presented as being a fantasy process only, and that no physical contact is necessary and is really not possible.  I know some teachers use touch for Shaktipat, but it is not necessary.  A teacher can radiate his internal field and allow those who can to feel it in him, and by resonance, in their own selves.  Some spontaneously begin to feel orgasms at this time others heart openings, and others feel both.  This is the beginning result of a fantasy process of speaking, tone of voice, words used, images used, metaphors brought out, as well as speaking from an open heart.

One of the most amazing things one discovers through this process is that everything is made out of these energies.  The physical body is not as it seems before the subtle body is open.  We only perceive the physical body within as tactile sensations in the sense data from the physical organs.  Gradually these are seen or understood as being another form of energy that can be transmuted by the explorer/practitioner.

Also, emotions are another form of energies.  You might say that emotions are unstable packages of these energies which when teased open through awareness dissolve into bliss.  For the explorer who has developed one pointedness and persistence, every emotion, positive and negative, when perceived and brought into one’s sense of one’s heart and held there, can be seen to dissolve into the bliss body of the subtle body having been transmuted out of the so-called emotional body and transmuted.  The same can be done for sexual feelings, for emotions such as fear, for depression, for grief and sadness, and even for jealousy.  As such, it becomes a very advanced psychotherapy, but it is not successful unless the practitioner has become one pointed and very subtle in their observing of these emotions and can stabilize and rest in them.  This takes time and practice.

My ultimate aim is to make this method of opening others to the Subtle body, to energies, etc., is to help them realize that there are so many levels of you, your life, that are more real than your body, and that altogether, we can call them divine, making you an incarnation of God even while occupying and using a human body.  You, as life and consciousness, are divine.  You as an incarnation are able to realize the God within who is you, and who is beyond life and death, and who is you.  Also, you have that divine power to awaken the divinity in others after you recognize it in your own self, and can help others to couple this way, and divine incarnation of god and goddess, Shiva and Shakti and rest in eternal bliss, and you do it in a natural way, through love, devotion, and surrender to your Beloved, and both of you equally awaken to the divine through resonance.

10 March 2018


The life force, the energies, love, and the entirety of all of existence lacks substance, are hollow, are just a show, a play of energies including the life force.

But, attaining that ultimate, the Unborn, the Un-Witnessing Witness, can most easily and quickly be obtained by means of the Subtle Body, Shakti, bliss, aroused sensuality an awareness of one's body, than from going the route of quietism, bland internal meditation, and a non-energetic observation of one’s sense of presence within the void.  

Why not enjoy yourself fully while attaining that knowingness beyond existence through immersion in devotional love and surrender towards another?  What better way to the final truth, then through love of others, devotion to others, worship of others with one’s own body and sense of presence?

This new way is really an old way in disguise, by renaming the Subtle Body investigation as love, surrender, worship, and finding the divine within ourselves and in others by exploding in love and energies? 

Some teachers say they teach within the constraints of their culture, which may or may not be very restrictive, and may or may not allow for loud proclamations of love, desire and devotion, and completely limit those you can select and express. Thus culture and society impose limits on the spiritual search and its expressions.

But you see, culture and society are the enemies of Life.  The absolute, even beyond God, is obtained by becoming gods through love of the other as separate incarnations, including you, an incarnate instantiation of the Life Force.  

Teachers who are so mild-mannered as to limit themselves to culture expressions, and not challenge the culture itself, the civilization itself, are enablers of their cruelty and their repressive contractions of all divine expressions.

Only by becoming public with the power of raw spirituality, can the procrustean beds of rigid morality, repressive culture, and old, old spiritualities, be exploded, allowing this new spirituality of roaring love and energies crack those molds and destroy them.  

Become heroes, not hiding your brilliance behind closed doors.  Shine, shine, shine publicly, in schools, ashram’s, in Satsang’s, in politics, on the stage, in movies, everywhere displayed, the divine spirit of the life force exploding in its devotees.

This is what Osho tried to do and Krishnamurti in his own y anemic way.  You have one life.  Why not live it to the fullest?




09 March 2018

These are new times.  The world we knew is falling apart, sinking in corruption, greed, and hiddenness.  Motives and power centers hide and lie.  Spiritual teachers tell stories a thousand years repeated to no avail. 

The closest spiritual movement responsive to our societal change is the public recognition of the divine feminine, magic, and energies.  But this is merely a reactive movement to an age old repression of women, the triumph of intellect in the form of science, over feeling, intuition, and energies of the Magii, warlocks, and a world of spiritual entities.

The way things are and the reactive movements of elevation feminism and magic is still way out of balance, and is a kind of Hegelian dialectic.

But we can transcend that dialectic and the current unbalance by taking the basic spiritual position that each of us is an incarnation of God in the form of life, the lifeforce, a.k.a., sentience in the form of the motivational principle as opposed to the witnessing principle.   Getting rid of the mind and sinking into the body and recognizing that energy being within, which we assuredly are, and thereby allowing us to bring the energy body into a position of dominance over mind and body.

We bring that energy body alive through love for each other, and by being aided by those who are totally self-aware of that energy body, one’s sense of presence as other than the physical body. And, the most powerful aid to awakening that body is for men and women to find that one other that transform them from humans into incarnations.  Men need to worship women and vice versa, because it is unbalanced for one sex to dominate in any area.

The teacher or advanced friend can prepare you for awakening by giving awareness of the lifeforce, but the flowering comes when we find our greatest love, and for the man, that means to fall at the feet of his woman and worship her, love her, surrender his soul to her, and vice versa.  Then there stands a divine couple,  Krishna and Radha, Rama and Sita.

This union produces states a life unknown to the common man.  One is aware of internal and external energies, of life without dominance by mind, a life not filled with distracting interests other than each other and bring the divine to others by providing a living example.  Life is completely different but I cannot describe it to you, because the words for this way of living and feeling do not exist, and if spoken, would be understood only by very few.

I have been speaking this way for years but few ever get to the place they understand.  A lot of ripening has to take place, a lot of purification, so now I try a different tactic and talk about sex.  That interests 95% of all peoples, but unfortunately, they bring their sexual preconceptions and baggage with them when they hear what I speak of it.

But a liberated sexuality is a key ingredient to awakening to the divine within and worshipping your beloved.  Sex is utterly transformed and its energies are used to awaken all the other energy centers within the energy, emotional, and physical bodies.  Women get to experience endless both subtle and also intense orgasms even when alone just thinking of their Beloved, while such spiritual orgasms are more rare among men, they are able to reside in endless pre-orgasmic bliss just thinking of their woman.  Nd, there are many different sorts of orgasm, not just the small subset of those associated with physical sex.  There are orgasms centered in the heart and associated with surrendered love, and whole body intense orgasms set off just by hearing your man speak of his love for you.  It is a wonderous world of sensuality, and not just of orgasming, but the bliss of the most subtle touches by your lover.  The intensity of the love is ever changing, not only in intensity, but its flavor, subtlety, and duration, and not at all associated with physical sex, but still we desire it to give pleasure to our other.

So, come to Satsang, read wearesentience.com, our blog, itisnotreal.blogspot.com, our youtube videos.  But Satsangs are where energies are shared so that you can feel them.

08 March 2018


 I received today a disappointing communication from a long time swami friend.  He said that what I am teaching should be done secretly as in his tradition of Kashmir shamanism and swami Muktananda.  Otherwise, I would have to label myself as a teacher of tantra, otherwise my teachings would cause great confusion and danger to me and my students.

In other words, if I miss-label the category of teacher I fall into, my teachings will not be grasped, because apparently students follow teachers depending on their teaching label attached, or offer criticisms or salutations based on the consistency whatever I am offering with teachings compared to some wisdom teachers such as Nisargadatta, or some tantra teachers such as swami Etceternanda.

But the teachings I am offering now are purely my own, based on my own experience, based on 50 years of various spiritual practices, and also 30 years of having functioned in the capacity as a psychotherapist under other psychologists’ licenses.  A great deal of my teachings are based on understanding emotions, emotional bondings and relationships.  

In 1995 under my teacher Robert Adams, I realized the nature of the totality of consciousness and that I resided outside totality consciousness, and thus could be called the Absolute, the Witness, or the Unborn.  For 15 years after that I just watched what was going on around me and within me, impassively, fascinated by the void which was the container of all experience.

Then in 2009 I met a woman who loved me deeply and I loved her.  She brought me out of the Void, and allowed me to reincarnate, to re--own my incarnation as a human being, with the body, with an energy body, with the subtle body, with a sense of presence, with emotions, and where everything was always changing within and without.  There is no solidity anymore.  Words really were only caricatures for processes that the meanings did not capture at all.  All teachings were false because there was a truth more subtle than the mind can grasp, and the meaning of words could convey.

What I learned in relationship with this woman, who I loved with an intensity that could be called desperation, who I surrendered my life to, and worshiped, and allowed me to love her and be loved by her with an intensity neither of us had known before.  That love was so great, it could no longer be called human love, can only be called divine.  In loving in that divine fashion, it became so complete that I identified with love itself.  Weeks after I identified with love itself, within my sense of me, as an aspect of God which I call after Nisargadatta, the Love Force, revealed itself to me in an explosion of light, energy, and infinite power, that made me fall to my knees in utter humility of the power of God, feeling his greatness, his power, and his life.  Later I was to reidentify that and recognize that life force within me as the true me, I was the Life Force, I was life itself which inhabited and played through my physical body.

Now my relationship with this woman was extremely intense, as she was an extremely intense person.  We lived thousands of miles apart and we met maybe three or four times physically, and we never had sex.  But we both felt extreme sexual desire, between both of us, for an extended period, and the power of this intense sexual feeling energized every other aspect of felt awareness of being alive.  But even more importantly we really owned the rest of our incarnation including our bodies with all of its health and physical issues, the tactile sensations within the body, the energy body that lives within the body and around the body which I call my sense of Presence.

The world within is entirely different from the external world.  The world within consists of the Void, or an empty container that is experience as space, which contains all experiences from thoughts, to emotions, to sexual feelings, to physical pain, as well as energies throughout the body and various complexes which some people call Chakras.  I do not use that term as it is too narrow and conveys a certain yogic philosophy with the meanings associated that way.  I can only describe them so as not to mix characterize them as” energy complexes” of a kind in of felt experience of inner flowing and static energies, that sometimes flow, some signs are static, and sometimes be so intense that they feel like your body is going to explode.  These energies are known by various terms like prana, Chi, kundalini, Shakti, and probably 100 different terms depending upon the ancient tradition you are referring to. 

But when these energies awaken inside of you, spontaneously, due to your extraordinary love of another person, including vast amounts of sexual energy, as well as feelings of total surrender to your Beloved, so much so that you feel like you are in the presence of God, there is no need for labels like Shakti, kundalini or prana.  Losing those labels allows you to feel the energies and a totally free way without preconception as to how they are to be felt or experienced.  For example, this woman had an enormous number of continuous orgasms that were not only felt in her genitals, but far more often were felt in other areas or energy complexes in her body, such as associated with pure love and heart openings.  Most of the orgasms were heart-oriented, or total systemic, even though sexual images may have happened during the orgasms.

In other words, there are many kinds of orgasms, and the ones associated with physical sex are one class only.  But there are classes of orgasms that have nothing to do with physical touch or physical sensation, that originate purely out of love and surrender towards the other, and these orgasms are different, not grounded in the body, but originating within the subtle body and deeper.  But even using terms like subtle body, is to describe it in terms of an ancient catechism, and ancient way of viewing human experience under some sort of religious or yogic system, which confines and restrains experience to conceptual system.  I have found that these orgasms, often mistakenly associated sexual images and physicality, can be so powerful that they will open up other energy centers throughout the whole subtle body, and associated with other parts of the physical body, like the heart, with a heart opening, and in the middle before head, the third eye, which initiates inner vision of light and colors associated with the energy body within. 

However, any time orgasms and sexuality are mentioned, immediately they are branded as falling within one’s own understanding of sex,  judged based on their past experience, and increasingly with social norms about sex, as opposed to what the yogi means by orgasms as energies or love that pervades the entire body.  When one begins to feel the energies, they begin to transform, becoming both more subtle and powerful at the same time, into a constant feeling of bliss as the whole body is in ecstasy from the dancing energies within.  But these energies, the energy body interacts with the feeling body, with emotions, and in a sense, emotions are just another form of energy, and one can watch the interplay between emotions, such as sadness, anger, fear, grief, and loneliness, with bliss, energies coursing throughout the whole body and between organs, as well as ones felt experience of the other, your Beloved.

In other words, if one feels grief or sadness strongly, and allows that feeling to just be there, and you actually accept it and allow it into your heart of hearts, the most vulnerable and sensitive part of your subtle body, you will find that those emotions transform into a river of bliss, a river of very subtle energies that feel like a gentle breeze or sometimes like pure running water, which bring great happiness and make you feel more powerful because the energy of these emotions have been transformed into the field of energies.  After a while you begin to identify yourself with the energies which comprise your sense of presence which is always within you and around you, and you no longer identify with your physical body.

But your physical body is your only vehicle really, is the host for all the other bodies within you all the other experiences within you from sexuality, heart openings, to all the centers in the subtle body, your mind, to your emotions, to your inner feelings of physical organs within, and your actual sense of being alive, also called the I Am.

But to realize yourself as life itself, ironically, it means you have to first realize yourself as a body, as a physical body, as a human, with all the feelings, energies, and emotions, and relational needs that being a human being entails.  Without knowing yourself as a body, the desires of the body, the physical needs of the body, the relational needs of the human, then you will never know yourself as life as opposed to the insensate body.

That is, you have to completely own yourself as a mortal first.  You have to explore your inner world completely, including all the energies within, all the desires within, one’s own sexuality within, and you have to give up your mind and just be broadly and acutely aware of the sensations of being alive, because if you hang onto your mind, you will be living within a myth superimposed on all your experiences as being an incarnated being.  You will be living in the conventionality imposed by civilization, culture, and whatever spiritual/religious system you adhere to, and all experiences will be judged, and convicted according to that system.  You will have no freedom to experience it as it really is, but you will experience it according to the systems you have incorporated in yourself or been given by her teacher or by your culture.  You will have no freedom at all except to live within that system and hide the parts that do not fit in that system.

Thus conventions and cultures destroy people and robs them of their freedom, and the only way you can get to that freedom is by fully feeling and living your life, and for me, I have found in my own experience, that the only escape to being a real, free human being is to give up all concepts, all systems, all cultural constraints, and to love some one person with all your heart, all your mind, all your spirit and surrender to that person, worship that person, and serve that person. 

Is this not the way of Christianity?  Is it the way to God through loving Jesus because he is an incarnation of God?

But if you take my point of view, that life itself is an aspect of God, and that insofar as we are life within a body, we are incarnated, we are incarnate, we are living within an insensate body as an incarnation of the divine as was Jesus. Thus each man becomes a Jesus and each woman, a Mary. This is the correct understanding.  It is not necessary to have sexual relations, but sexuality must be completely awakened, and this requires mind, emotions, love, surrender, and worship as one would with Jesus.

One must love your Beloved with all your power, all your strength, in complete submission and worship.  When you can do this, when you can become completely committed, completely focused with all your energies bought into balance and oneness with your Beloved, then you will realize yourself as the Life Force, an incarnation of the divine.

To do this you have to feel totally every aspect of your individuality in relationship to your Beloved, including intense sexuality, intense devotion, intense love, intense humility, and surrender.  The sexuality has such power that it awakens the other energy centers within your sense of presence, hastening your awakening to yourself as an aspect of God, as the divine, and recognition of yourself as an incarnation.

Which means you have to have an intense sexual relationship with your Beloved even though it may never be consummated physically.  Awakening the sexual center gives all the other complexes within your sense of presence and expanding energy, it breaks up all contractions within, and you become fully alive, fully consumed by love, and by sexual desire that powers it.

But when I talk about the need to awaken the sexuality, to allow yourself to have continuous multiple orgasms in various areas of your body which is really a sense of presence within your body, and not necessarily associated with the vagina or penis, I am in danger of being condemned unless I identify myself as a Tantric teacher. 

I am not.  I have no tradition.  I speak from my experience using words not captured by any system such as tantra, Kashmir Shaivism, Advaita Vedanta, kundalini sutras.  I am myself alone, speaking of my own experience in ways I would use as would a psychologist, and in entirely new ways that were burst forth from me out of my relationship with my own Beloved.  Ecstatic sex, especially where actual physical relations are not involved, but sex within the subtle bodies of the two people involved, is far more intense than anything your physical body will give you.  There may be a lot of imagination of physical contact which sets off orgasms parts of the body other than the genitals, so the mind is engaged in a visioning process which stimulates activities within the energy body.  The mind, the internal energies, emotions, and tactile sensations all interplay with each other in an internal dance of transformation of one kind of experience into another on a continuously changing basis.

In addition, there is a dance between the two Beloveds, the energy fields between the two, constantly dance and touch each other over a great distance, and emotions are triggered, and emotions also trigger changes in the energy fields, including sexual sensations.

There is no such thing as higher consciousness or lower consciousness.  There are just experiences and interpretations of those experiences, or experiences felt totally without interpretations of what they mean or what category they fall into such as sex or heart, or mind, or energy.  I ask you to give up all understanding and go with the words I am giving you, I want to share my energy with you whatever that is.  I want to share my sense of being, the life force in me as it speaks to you.  It affects the tone of my voice.  It affects its cadence.  It affects and chooses the words I use in order to effect some reaction in you, whether it be to love me, to listen to me, or to ignore me, or to condemn me.  It is all a dance between the incarnations of the divine I call the Life Force after that same term is used by Nisargadatta Maharaj.

So you are not going to grasp my teachings by calling me a tantra teacher or wisdom schoolteacher, or Christian, or yogi, kundalini teacher, I am speaking of my own experience, my own learning, my own journey and how I have passed that so lovingly with several people with our energies constantly into playing each other and all kinds of arrangements, sensations, that can be so easily judged from without by people who still live within conventions, and hold on tightly to their culture, or the religious upbringing weather is Hindu, Christian, or whatever. But they will never know what the experience is really like from our view as incarnations.

And as swami Chetanananda once said to me, “They are angry and judgmental because they do not understand. (meaning they have not had your experience, and they can only understand from their limitations and lack of having known God as you have.)”  I find that even other swamis have no idea what I am talking about because they have not had my experiences. Their experiences have been predetermined by the spiritual tradition they have adopted, and the experiences they have had within that tradition.  Only one who has been through many traditions and actually cast them all off because he sees their limitations, can directly experience their own multiple subjective bodies.  I see the limitations of Japanese and Korean Zen.  I see the limitations of Advaita Vedanta as taught by my own teacher Robert Adams, by Ramana Maharshi, and Nisargadatta, who I consider the greatest of all.  I see the limitations of kundalini teachers and of Kashmir Shaivism because they systematize and categorize everything and leave no room for freedom of experience or expression. 

Thus, I see them all as something to be eventually destroyed.  The various molds the various cultures and religious traditions have to be destroyed so the true seeker can find their freedom rather than traveling between one confinement and another, and true divinity through loving another.

05 March 2018

I have started a second, semi-private blog that contains secret teachings, possibly too erotic for Facebook. These are real correspondences, primarily from students deep into the path of awakening to the divine within in the form of the Life Force, through feeling introspection of one's sense of being alive combined with totally surrendered, worshiping love.

03 March 2018