Sent to me:
Ed, I see deeper into you than you think I do, much deeper.
The difference between me and Janet, is what I see, I accept and fully love rather than criticize and try to fix.
The acceptance I feel toward all that I see deeply within you, is transforming me in a way that I cannot yet understand and may never.
I did not expect such a thing to unfold within me. It's Lila, it's all her fault. She is fearless. She is everything that Joan could never be. More on this later.
I feel, deeply feel, that as I love you...all of you...that I am loving me. This feels true and alive for me. It is not mere words.
You are my mirror, so I can love me by loving you. We are One...I know this.
All your deepest needs and short comings are mine as well, and I embrace them as mine. This is why I do not wish to change or fix anything about you.
You are totally imperfect...and it is that imperfection that I love, that endears me to you.
I don't need to use words of excessive praise, or overt criticism...my god, I love for you, nothing more, nothing less.
This is so hard to explain and my palette of words is not sufficient. Hopefully you can 'feel' what I am trying to convey.
With Love and Acceptance,