Thank you Master Edji, I am so happy you answered me, and so fast.You are right and I will follow, I am already following, your advices.I dropped the many books I bought, and stopped reading so much, to PRACTICE.I have never seen so much effects after so little practice with your method !!!Also I couldn't find a method that would grab me and keep me practicing.Yours is the first one, and is so simple !!I just listen to your "guided meditation" and ... the magic happens !I started your method 3 days ago, I have no formal training in meditation nor any other practice, just a little "Who am I ?" since 2 months.Yesterday at night, before sleep, I listened to your audio file 4 times in a row, while recycling on the floor. I saw the emptyness, and then I looked for the observer, and couldn't find one, and became kind of dissolved in the luminous emptiness :))It was fantastic, and I wasn't feeling bored after the 4 sessions, like I am after 20 minutes of self-inquiry.I would have continued if it was not so late at night already ...Then this morning I made another session of listening to your audio file, then get some work done on my laptop, then headed to the restaurant for my breakfast (I live in hotels, I am actually in India, Pondicherry).
The waiter told me that it would take 20 minutes to get my meal. I decided to try your method, loking for the emptyness inside the body, without the audio file.Within 2 minutes I was freezed, my eyes straight on a point on the wall.
Saying to myself "this is empty, forms are empty, there is no things, I feel my body is empty", I got the best feeling ever.I didn't care people looking at me, what they could think about my fix attitude. For the first time I was confortable in "meditation" in a public place.I would say that it wasn't kundalini experience or the like, where I would feel like a crazed man with everybody looking at me.It was stable, realistic, DEEP, not fancy, and I stood in the exact same position, not even blinking the eyes, without doing any effort, till the waiter brought the tea, long minutes I think, but I had no feeling of time.
The most impressive experience so far. I was all, no thing existing anymore, no feeling, no need to move, no thoughts ....
Then the waiter brought the tea cup, and I said ok, now come back to "normality". I thought it would be instantly done, but I found that I had to make some effort, and kind of cross several layers of luminous matter before coming back out, in the "normal" world.Then I started again when the waiter was gone, and all around became like milky blurred, cloudy, but I couldn't continue and stopped to start eating.
My body was feeling all shaky, and I had to concentrate strongly to what I was doing to be able to bring the cup to my mouth and drink.
All these movements were like alien to me, like I had to re-learn everything, even how to drink and eat with a fork !!Now I am at the computer shop, and I am writing you this email. I am still shaking, vibrating.I don't want to be too enthousiastic, and tell myself that it will be a long journey and that I must go slowly ...What an amazing result in just 3 days for a beginner !What can I do to please you and show you my gratefulness ?Being europeen (french) I am not used to call anyone Master or to express my respect with beautiful words as for example Rajiv did, but for sure you made my day !!!Thanks Master Edji !David.