On Sat, Feb 13, 2010 at 7:46 AM, r. wrote:

Edji

Hello. It is 2 weeks since you sent me the manual. A few general observations that became obvious.

I am feeling so liberated and light. Vegetarian way of life feels good (began to eat meat whilst on Kundalini path with last guru's instructions). The self seems the most natural abode. Tendency to yap is so diminished silence seems right and natural. Feeling  connected to Robert and yourself. Before coming to you I used to have a mild tendancy to avoid being with my children. Not being an absent mum or anything but just busying myself with stuff and nonsense. That tendency is gone I am sitting down with them completely settled within. Nothing big but big  difference in the way it feels and they must also perceive the difference.

That is all I can think at the moment. There have been very fuzzy days memory wise and some very clear days and some not so clear.  I am sleeping heavily and dreams are clearer. During the day eyes feel heavy as if intoxicated. Pain in ankles.

Now about the manual and what followed it.

The words drown me deep into the silence. In the begining I struggled to pinpoint the 'I am'. It was, to begin with a sensation in the heart. After a lot of groping in the dark I asked Ramana and Robert to guide me where I needed to be. It came to the naval area but as a centre point of all void. For a day or two I looked into this centre of the  void and then read you saying The looking "for" is the problem; the looker is already complete and at rest.     The way it is now I with attention  in my stomach with a subjectiveness  rather than looking for something or at something. Atleast that is what I think I am doing!

For days I could not put into words to what was being experienced whilst sitting this way. It is completely devoid of any movement of thought or emotion.

On more than one occasions I had hot water bottle burning my feet,  got sucked into self inquiry and not only the burning went the 'body sensation' went away too. Movement on the outside  is perceived very faintly.  Number of times my husband spoke to me and I could not open my eyes, He came and left. luckily he knows me I am mental!

The best I can describe it is as a deep sleep. My body also behaves as if it is fast asleep too, my neck flopping left and right and back. but I am wide awake. The clinging to getting enlightened softening and gone yet the target remains.

I  understand that keeping at it is the right thing to do but at the same time  it has begun to feel that effort is the  most insignificant link in the chain. This  enquiry that sucks into itself is more like the labour of love than any effort or striving on my part.

A slight concern about feeling of reassurance that the truth will reveal itself. I fear it might be mind playing tricks.  It is wierd and slightly frightening.

Overall I feel  peaceful, light and complete than ever before and the 'Kingdom of God' so to say feels closer than ever.

Your ongoing blessings and guidance is so needed. Heartfelt thanks.

namaste

r.

RESPONSE:

R.

You are shooting like an arrow towards your target.

You are begining to feel the Grace of Consciounsness pulling you ever deeper inside. That love and acceptance you feel, is you, discovering you.

Your autopilot is working perfectly!

Ed

SENT TO ME:

Hi Ed,

I had another look this morning.  When I am sitting I lose all awareness of my surrounds.  There are not thoughts in the mind.  There are no images.  However, there is the tactile sensation of  vastness.  I attempt to not attend to body sensations.  I notice that attempting is effort and I wonder who is making the effort.  I attempt to locate this pure ‘looker’ by negating these sensory impressions.  I notice if I put my attention in the heart area there is no physical sensation that can distract me or perceive which induces a void sensation.  I am still aware however of ‘looker.’ 

Upon reflection, because I am aware of a void sensation, I am not that. So who am I?  So, I guess this is all nothing. 

Your words Ed are very powerful to me.  I read your stuff on your site and I find myself falling into this ‘dissociated’ state just reading them.  The resonance of the way you communicate induces shift or development or whatever you like to call it. I’m in it now as I write but I am also very aware of all the minute sensations appearing and disappearing in the body.  I’m in this state most of the day and I don’t really care about anything at all.  Look forward to hearing from you.

P.

RESPONSE: 


Very, very good P., very good!

You are aware that there is a looker. You are aware of the Void. You are aware of a sense of I Am. Which is really you?

This is your job right now, finding which, if any of them, is the real subject, the YOU, or whether they are all objects.

Thus you have to be aware of each, sink into each and see what happens.

Good going.

Ed

I then asked the previous poster, J. some checking questions, to see if he had indeed attained Turiya and gone beyond to the ultimate witness state, Turiyatta as had Raviv.
He answered all correctly. He was not the void because he knew the void, and all appearances and consciousnesses came and went and he observed them as if they were different channels on a TV. He knew of his ultimate existence by inference.
This is perfect. He stated:

I cannot be the void, since I know the void, I observe the comings and goings of consciousness in the same way that I can watch a movie, and change the channel. Same feeling of observing, yet different scenery. I appreciate your warning, many times over the two years that we have corresponded, I saw this yet, what I did not see was that I was not Turiya, but the witness of Turiya. My real state can only be known by process of deduction. Its clear I am not the body, not the world, not even the awareness (turiya) because I am aware of the awareness. 

You say that I have gone as far as my own efforts can carry me, which of course makes me wonder, is there a deeper level? I as the witness have observed the body in deep meditation literally disolve, heart stops, breath stops, nothing but cloudlike, indescribable bliss ensues, yet that is not even a constant, however, despite the indescribable bliss.... that made this apparent world seem even more phony! Seeing these many states of consciousness come and go, including Turiya, what could I be but the witness of all things observable? When consciousness is being observed beyond the comprehension of human senses, how can I go deeper? It seems that my true being just is and is the basis of Neti Neti. I have no intention of kissing ass, but with the deepest respect, you are a guru of the highest order. There are many flavors of nonduality today (talk about an oxymoron) but most convince you that you are the I AM or Turiya, I disagree since what I really really am observes the passing of even Turiya....Or am I imagining things?

Deepest Respect for your continued tuteledge and dedication to truth

RESPONSE:

No, you have answered all the questions correctly. You fully understand and have gone beyond Turiya. I had to ask the questions to check first.


So few are willing or able to go beyond oneness of Consciousness. They do not ask what happens to the oneness when the body dies. It never pops into their heads to question whether the world continues to be observed through the five sense when the body dies.

What I mean is that your awakening is still an unfolding event. It will continue to deepen.

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!

Deepest Love,

Ed

Dear Ed,

Thank you so much for your reply to me, Your mum, my dad, illness definitely
grounds me for sure. I hope now this email reaches you things have resolved
themselves Ed. for some reason I didn't expect one and your message has been
sitting in my inbox with lots of the usual stuff for a long time because I
took time out from trawling the webgurus and emails and everything whilst I
just spent time letting what I had already absorbed sink in and become
comfortable with that. 


Just this morning it just occurred to me to go to your website and Boom, there's the autobiography waiting for me! I've read a bit but can't understand much, but I feel it, I feel this guy's passion and pain, it feels like me! Ha. So then I check my email box for Ed, and there
you are. 


I have been meditating now and again and have the same experiences
as before but recently I have been seeing/experiencing a chrome/silver
sphere/object penetrate through the nothingness and feel the most
overpowering bliss, it's almost too much. I'm also getting these energy
spasms during the day, they just seem to come and go. It's not painful it
just feels like Whoooaaa...............there it is again. Let me be
completely honest with you, it happens when I read something, see something
or have a small realisation about something that I sort of feel at one with,
or somehow I recognize as the truth ( whatever that means!)

Ed, I thank you from the bottom of my heart for the time and thought that
went into your replies to me

Best Wishes

ANOTHER RARE ONE. I Am blessed to be present at the birth of another Jnani.


Sent to me:


Existence itself is now meditation, involvement in the world happens with deep witnessing that everything is happening spontaneously, resistance is gone. There has awoken in me the deepest need to relieve human suffering from pushing cars out of the snow, to talking with people about natural cures for their ailments, I cant drive past a brokedown car without stopping to help. There is no longer concern about the body, my diet has evolved to where meat sickens me, fast food sickens me, I only want fresh living foods, clean water etc. Yet all the while these things are happening there is a knowing that its a dream and I am the dreamer. 

I'm not choosing to be on a mission to do anything yet there has been a complete metamorphis of the old body mind patterns. Anger is gone, irritability, stress is gone. Yet there is a knowing none of those things ever happened to "me" It feels like there is a space behind the world that knows and watches, yet has no describable qualities, and I am that. Interest....no more like the complete obsession with reading spiritual books, listening to podcasts etc has fell away. Jesus saying we are in the world but not of it says it well. 

Yet at the same time the true "I" has never been In the world, yet without the true "I" the world is not. Awareness prevails through the everynight rollercoaster of lucid dreams, then when waking happens it is seen that "I" did not wake up, more like changing the channel on television. The world appears ethereal and light, see through if you will. Dreams are just as vivid as this world, I get hungry, use the restroom, hurt, feel joy, etc yet even in dream its realized that those things are only pictures on the screen of me. Sometimes the dreams are more like movies where I am not even a charachter in my own dreams, just the viewer. Thoughts are nearly gone, and knowledge of worldly things seems so worthless. Thoughts that do arise are not taken to be of any importance, thoughts of the past are never there, Tv, the net, news, none of these things interest me.

My drive for business has severely diminished, short term memory requires effort. Yet its not empty or nihilistic, it feels like the world is me and I am the world, yet untouched by it. Despite the nonreality being seen through, a sense of compassion and a tremendous drive to end human suffering makes life worth living. As far as the meditation, I gave up meditation after realizing it was a constant chase to get back to certain experiences. I had one where I could feel my heart stop, breath stopped, and it was like transcending this whole plane into all encompassing bliss light, and ecstacy beyond comprehension, its now seen that even that doesnt touch me. 

I have started meditating again and its different, meditation within minutes involves loss of all consciousness of this world and a feeling of surfing sceneries in consciousness, one dreamscape after the next, yet different then dreaming, more like something in the third eye. I am unclear what the void is, I don't think I have met it. At this point it feels there is nothing left to be done, should meditation continue? 

When I used to meditate more I would often experienc a feeling of sinking into my bed into total blackness and emptiness with no body or room consciousness, those experiences showed me the unreality of the world. The only thing that is missed some is when I used to meditate, sometimes a palpable bliss would radiate from every cell of my body, I was so immersed in love. Those feelings are not as strong, but the peace overrides any real desire to get back to that place. Synchronicities happen around me nonstop, babies and animals are drawn to just be close to me, yet they seem curious. The only thing of real interest to J. is meeting people where they are and if they are suffering, doing what I can to help.

I started with you, then got lost in the neo advaita podcast world, I just could not "hear the message" There was a knowing that I didnt exist, but I had not yet Identified with the real I or Source which was why love and compassion were lacking. You are God with the mask of Ed, and such a blessing, I bleed gratitude to you my friend. 

Although the peace and love is steady, the really blissful times are gone. It is seen that those are still just happening to the charachter Jeremy and not me. If you have any further advice I would be honored if you would be so kind as to share it. I realized by Rajivs posts that I was lacking the complete love, devotion, and undying devotion to trust the guru, I neglected some of your earlier advice out of ignorance, because listening to podcasts was so much easier. When I read your correspondence with Rajiv I felt so much love for you, my Sadguru appearing as Ed. I am sorry to have been unappreciative for your grace, I will not make that error again.

Also I realize this is a bit rambling, this is just how things spill out these days, no rehearsal, no thought, just an email writing itself.

Should meditation continue? If so what would you suggest?

Boundless respect and gratitude,

J.

Hi Ed,

I have started reading Birth of a jnani.  In the opening you mention :

‘There is very little in the spiritual literature about what the

subjective experiences are or can be when one uses the self as the

object of meditation. Mostly we find lectures about that nature of

what is, of ontology and epistemology, and lectures about how to

practice, but very little about the path as personally walked and

experienced.’

My question is this:

Is this to imply that the very specific road maps used in Therevada

Buddhism do not equate to the same landmarks or experiences on the way

or, that yogis using self abiding, just haven’t been encouraged to meticulously

note every last detail they come across?  I ask this because, before I started with ‘I am’

I was noting sensations and had plotted a nice little path through the various jhanas and nanas.

However, since beginning with I am and most notably recently I find ‘I am’ so profound,

I couldn’t give a toss about noting sensations.

PS:  There still are, I have noticed, specific switches or movements of mind

as I sit, it’s like the mind just spontaneously moves through different levels all

by itself the last flip, turning ‘looking at’ inward, leaves me quite bewildered

as to how to describe the state.  When I begin noticing again, I notice my body as a field of energy, I notice my breath, etc and now today, I was wondering how to look at the viewer who is actually viewing what appears to be nothing at all.

Much delight and gratitude

P.

RESPONSE:

What do you mean by How to look mat the viewer who is viewing nothing?

Can you explain more what you are asking?

Are you saying you cannot find the source of looking, the witness?

Or are you saying that when you take the place of the witness you see the void?

Ed

Dearest Ed,

Thank You very much (and thank to Rajiv very much) for Autobiography of a Jnani: it is very inspiring.

During morning sitting there was sinking inward, in the background, towards the ultimate witness, towards I, beyond perception:
initially there was a movement of attention, a deep sinking in oneself, but there was like a subtle search, not total contentment; it was as if the body was in sleep but I was aware;  at a certain point joy-bliss began to well up strongly and this disturbed the deep sinking, then the bliss went away and then the process of sinking began again; this again and again.


At a certain point a sudden change, there was no search, no sinking, no effort, 'a state' in which there is deep silence, peace, thoughts randomly in surface (or no thoughts), contentment, and joy-bliss came out again, without disturbing anymore. The thoughts come: the joy and peace of the Self.
I rest in Myself.

Bowing to You and to Absolute,
with love,
L.

Once I asked Robert if OSHO were enlightened. He said yes. He hardly ever spoke of other teachers. Osho got a bad rap for numerous reasons.


However, the video below shows Osho demonstrating having much the same appearance as Robert: still eyes, still demeanor, and total involvement at the same time, and an apparent radiance of peace.


What he says is true, but coming to that understanding, and finding your way to that completely doing nothing state is very difficult. Osho created a hundred ways for his students to get there. The external trappings we all heard about are nothing. He knew it was nothing. It was his play.

Dear Ed,

I feel compelled to drop you a note to express my appreciation to you for the information and advice you are providing on your website, and to particularly thank you for the clarification you have provided in a number of areas.  

It is greatly appreciated that you have taken the time and made the effort to provide plain, straight forward information as a “how to” among the myriad of literature available regarding self-realization.  

As a brief introduction, my wife has been in communication with you since last summer when she got Robert Adams’ information from you and, while encouraging me to undertake some of the readings she has been getting over the last couple of years, I have honestly felt a certain internal reluctance to do so as a lot of them seemed to be, for lack of a better term, philosophical discussions without much true direction.  A lot of the literature seemed, to me at any rate, to be a bit of a catch-22 situation where they are written by individuals who became self-realized, expounded the wonders of it, but did not really explain how others could attain that state.

I’ve probably been missing something, but it always seemed to me that, while obviously requiring significant committed effort to ‘realize’, the overall process should be somewhat simple and straight forward.  I think the main problem that I had was a constant reference to abide in the “I” or the “I am”, but it never really seemed to be clear to me what “abiding in the I am” really meant.  

In accepting that this is all an ‘illusion’, I have to question how we can abide in something that only exists as part of that illusion?  It wasn’t until my wife gave me a copy of your article Hunting The “I” and Pradeep Apte’s “The Nisargadatta Gita” from your website this past week that I’ve been able to come to grips with that and recognize that abiding in the “I am” is merely a tool to move beyond the “I am”.

To be honest, my background is science and engineering so I tend to have a no-nonsense “cut to the chase” attitude of “where am I going, how do I get there and what steps do I have to take”.  

Finally, between reading these articles this week, and having two telephone discussions with a close friend in the U.K., D. who has also been in communication with you (the ‘D’ who was liberated last week), I have a much stronger sense of direction and purpose.   For this, I sincerely want to thank you.

I feel that with two excellent resources such as yourself and D., I will finally get the information and guidance I need to join the growing group of individuals that are working towards liberation in this lifetime.

With love and gratitude,

A.

FROM RAJIV:


Master meditation is no more tedious but beautiful now. Meditation time is BEST time of my life. Twice daily meditations happen ON its own. There is nothing to do at all. I have lost describing what meditation is. There is nothing to say Master.

The resting state is gaining prominence over "happenings" or experiences. Since two days during morning meditation I sometimes get engulfed in sparkling light like a clear milky sky. It is most beautiful. But what I am is beyond all that phenomenons. The sinking takes place when thoughts are caught hold off through keen observation but I am beyond all that too. I play around many times and that is why it is such a wonderful thing to meditate. When nothing takes place I simply rest. There is nothing that matters (thoughts or experiences or need of both) except that I am that restful sleepy yet aware entity. Time just passes on its own. It is silly to even want to experience anything rather just lower the gaze and rest. There are times the bliss is torrential but there are times when nothing actually happens yet the calmness,the peace of the inner sleepy Self is ALWAYS there inspite of the mind,consciousness playing its own game at the outside. It is almost like two things taking place at the same time and I the background prominent Self has nothing to interfere with the goings outside. They subside on their own after they have done their bit of dancing around but I am always there blissful as always choosing to watch them or completely ignore them. My will is only one thing which is lower the gaze and settle there. The feelings of bliss are almost like waves settling in the ocean. No one knows how they arise and fall and I dont know or anticipate what form the waves will take.

WAKING

There is a huge change in perspective. I am moving carefree. Honestly thoughts are more since a few days ever since the autobiography was put on the internet but really I  do little of what the thoughts want to engage in. Its like the understanding that nothing of this actually matters yet the mind/body engages almost like auto pilot. The intelligence does all and I have no will in that. Its all a movie show  and I can choose to watch it or sleep over it. Its best that consciousness does what it wants to do through my body/mind. My natural auto pilot system is taking things seriously where as I know nothing of this has any significance. I smile most of the time these days. It is almost like the real ME is trapped within the workings of the body/mind. I try and not use my will to change the ways of body/mind and rather just take things as they are. But Sometimes I do use my will and change things . But all of this is fun because finally nothing matters  yet if we can contribute positively in any way and if that requires using will to do so than why not?

I have very little to say about what and why things happens during waking state yet when I look up I have actually written a lot in words :-). Maybe I am cracking up a bit inspite of all the celebrations within hahahhaha....

Many Pranams,
 Yours,
 Rajiv


RESPONSE:


Absolutely Perfect!!!

Dearest Ed,


Thank You very much!


During this morning sitting, doing nothing, gradually a 'state' began to settle: there is no right, left, up or down, not inner or outer, so spacious and totally open, spontaneous, easy, natural, nothing to do or accomplish; everything is contaneid in it and everything can manifest without disturbing or alterating it; no I or other, indescrivible, totally without concept; thoughts and energy movements, insights arises in it and vanish without leaving trace, nothing remains like wind in the spacious sky, totally unconcerned, so restful, without agenda, nothing to realize...wonderful...


It is clear that I am even beyond this 'state' because it begins and ends but I am That which knows it begins and ends.


This 'state' is so natural and restful that the thought came it is Turiya.


Is it necessary to stabilize oneself in this 'state' to stabilize beyond it?


What do You think?


With gratitude and love,


L.


RESPONSE:


Stay where you are. Your awakening is unfolding just as it should.


Ed

Dear Ed,


Thank you so much for the recent writings. They have helped to catapult my attention (once again) from the dream to the real. I am delving thoroughly into your website.


You have a balanced approach which appeals to me.


My first remembered realization was when I was eleven and realized awareness of awareness…however, it was soon couched in ego attention.


There was a long period of ego indulgences which altered after a substantial realization in 1988. This lead me on a path of spiritual seeking which eventually brought me to read Robert’s ‘Silence of the Heart’ and Nisargadatta’s “I Am That” twice. Shortly after that, during a silent retreat, the mind dropped for about 1.5 hours. It was as if the bottom fell out of whatever I thought I was. Whatever supported attention to ego-mind dropped. There was recognition (re-membering) that we are ALL…full empty voidness.


Two weeks later while walking in a forest, the body stopped moving and there was a realization that ‘i’ had never existed. All this was followed by a state of bliss which lasted for months. However, this was then followed by a very dark period…since, as some teachers say, the opening allowed the vasanas (negative tendencies) to arise, which they did!


For many years I also listened to / followed the California advaitins, as you call them. I see where the admonishment that nothing more needed to be done was taken by the ego-mind as an excuse to indulge once again in its follies. “I’m awake, so I can just do whatever…I have no control over anything and nothing matters anyway”…where attention was focused was not noticed, and I walked a treadmill to nowhere.


Some months ago I found your writings. After reading your experiences with awakening in the shower, I went to the shower and experienced a huge opening. However, it did not persist more than an hour. Whenever I read your writings, my attention is moved to truth, but it always returns to the false (so far).


So, there is a desire to anchor this awareness in Truth. Only in this way can I serve the whole. Perhaps the awakening is coming to all of humanity and there is nothing to “do”, perhaps not. Whatever, I feel inclined to give full attention to that which is important which is to focus on Truth and live from what I “know” myself to be. However, it feels like I need assistance to move in this way. There are deep psychological patterns which limit love expression.


Is it possible to work with you?


If so, how do you see it taking place?


I prefer talking, which I can do through Skype.


Tom, I prefer email for now.


Yes, Tom, whatever you achieved melted away because of lack of persistence in practice. Take a look at the next post, Jim Carey talking about his awakening after reading Tolle books.


You spend most of your life going outwards. This needs to be balanced by go inwards and exploring inwardly as much time as you spend exploring the world.


So, I am sending the Gita. Download it, print it out and read it every morning. Reflect on what it says then meditate--dwell attention on an abide in, the I exist sense, I Am. Do this again in the evening.


Report back in a week or so.


Ed

A Tolle-style awakening from reading books: temporary and non-repeatable. Jim Carrey is frustrated because he cannot get his tiny-winy experience back. Why not? No spiritual head of steam. No history of meditation or conscious effort to abide in his self. 

"Hunting the I" is an excellent guide to Self-inquiry says Raviv, and who am I to argue with him?


The link is: http://itisnotreal.com/Hunting%20the%20I.htm 

Namaste dearest Edji,

I hope you do not mind me calling you Edji somehow it seems most appropriate.

I am so grateful to have found your site and through it you and can not express the gratitude for this grace.

Apologies in advance for length.

I read about Shri Ramana some years back and was looking for similar guidance but did not find it then. Recently I read Be as you Are, this started spontaneous Who am I. This lead me to a state of expanded and then completely contracted consciousness within which was all the universe. These states lasted for minutes. This was the second time this was experienced. I was told that I am not this expanded or contracted state, this led me to the insight that I must be the awareness before awareness was aware of itself. Initially I thought that I was simply regurgitating what has been read however since this feeling things have been very strange, knowing/intuition becoming very strong then the next moment a complete lack of knowing with emptiness nothingness, normal thinking process but no thoughts really sticking. This has been going on for about a month. I can see myself interacting with family, all normal life continuing but with an underlying peace. Complete surrender to Shri Ramana I feel has brought me to you. I also left a previous Guru, whose requirement it was to eat meat at least 3-4 times a week, (which I could not do only eaten twice in a year after being a vege almost all my life). Appreciation for the transmissions and grace received there but once the decision to leave was made everything felt lighter. 

You were found and great peace is felt when reading about your journey, Robertji's and Rajivji's journey. Just going onto the site is very peaceful. Reading through the site and Robertji's collected works, what wonderful peace and loveliness felt when reading.

Bit of background:

I was made aware that there is something beyond what is seen when I was about 15, watching a movie Jesus was on the cross and says 'Father why have you foresaken me' this led to tears, and I could not understand why, since then years of misguided direction/courses/teachers and a Guru and i find myself at your door asking and awaiting for blessings. 

Whilst pregnant 3 years ago i woke up in the middle of the night and thought I was dead there was nothing there, I had to wander around the house, open the front door and light some incense before I could shake this feeling, this has happened about a dozen times since getting less intense and it feels as though the intense fear almost terror is felt due to a fear of not being able to breathe. The most recent occured last week which lasted about a minute and as it finished there was an instant, Oh my God how can billions of people have to go through this when they die.

I write with a request for blessings, direction and guidance, I would like to go deeper and merge with the divine, please can you suggest what I need to do. Apologies if any ego or arrogance is seen/felt it is not meant at all.

Many many thanks for you and Robertji and Shri Ramana and Shri Maharaj and Rajivji.

L. London, UK

L.

 

How are you?

I understand you are going through these confusing experiences.

Don't try to figure them out. This will make you more confused and frightened.

These experiences have nothing to do with you. They are just happenings in consciousness and you are beyond them all. Do not fear them. They are nothing and cannot touch you. Your true nature is peace. You are already feeling it growing. That grace brought you to this blog.

Download the attached book. Print it out. Read it every morning slowly. This will become your life. Read it as if God is speaking to you. ponder what it says. Meditate on it.

The focus of your meditation shall become you, not all those experiences which mean little. The peace will grow and spread.

Ed

 

Beloved Ed, my very own True Self,

It's incomprehensible that there could be 'more' of 'This' ... I am intoxicated in drunken Divine Union. I cannot contain my Self! Yet I am Thirsting for more ... All self consciousness is gone. And I explode!

This Heart is bursting, ripping, pierced - over and over - as if by the spear of the Angelic. Tears of Joy spurt forth as an Infinite fountain.

A 'voice' spontaneously arose from the thoughtless, timeless Silence ... "I Am Christ Consciousness Immanent, I Am Christ Consciousness Transcendent."

I am Abducted by Rapture. Such Glory! Exquisite, indescribable Beauty. And yet Peace, Perfect Peace.

The body is tireless, always 'Awake,' yet incapacitated at present. It needs nothing, but drinks deeply in the Eternal timeless 'now.' This cup has burst and is overflowing with your Grace and that of the Illumined Ones.

In the appearance, 'before' it began to 'empty' out so utterly ... 'before' falling into the endless depths of a despair which seemed to last for eons ... Krishna appeared to say it would come to pass that it would be purged to the very last drop and then, it would not only be filled to capacity, but would be overflowing. I gush in the Ocean of Splendour!

Just as One can only imagine a woman does, when handed her baby for the very first time - there's an immediate 'forgetting' of all the pain and fear of the 'process' as she is Enraptured in Union with the Purest, Sweetest, most Tender Love and Innocence of her newborn infant that is Christ Himself ...

Deep breath ...

Yes, Robert certainly does work in wonderous and mysterious ways! It 'appears' I took a 'walk' with He and Dimitri a while back (during this 'emptying out') 'though there's no recall of any words.

You and Ramana were 'there' just 'before' the 'final' letting go. So there arose absolute certainty that it was 'safe' to do so.

There is such a 'pull' to share this 'wine,' this Light, with those appearing to be in 'darkness.'

Ed, I am suspended in a Love and Trust that has no end. I Bow in Reverence through all Eternity (and beyond!),

In Devotion and Surrender,

D.
 

As this is being written, Autobiography of a Jnani is being translated into Italian, Hindi, Marathi and now German!


If you do a google lookup, there are over 9,000 references to it already. Wow! Robert works in mysterious ways.


Google translation: 

एक नई किताब मुफ्त डाउनलोड के लिए उपलब्ध है. यह पूरा राजीव और मैं विभिन्न राज्यों पर वे ध्यान के दौरान अनुभव के बारे में संपादित के बीच संवाद है मैं समझ रहा हूँ. यह जो लोग वास्तव में अनुभव एक जागृति चाहता हूँ के लिए एक गाइड के रूप में ध्यान करना है. जो लोग पहले संवाद पढ़ लिया है के लिए, इस किताब को एक नई शुरूआत है और एक अतिरिक्त 80 पृष्ठों और अतिरिक्त स्पष्टीकरण भर में.

अपने अनुभवों का ही नहीं, पर वे समान हो जाएगा. किसी भी घटना में, दिए गए स्पष्टीकरण जागरण के रास्ते में अनुभव की व्यापक कक्षाओं के लिए उपयुक्त हैं. इस पुस्तक में, Turiya के अनुभव स्पष्ट रूप से वर्णित है, भी जाग्रत सोने के रूप में जाना जाता है, साथ ही नुकसान है, चेतना और Absolute के एक गलत समझ में pausing तरह बचा जा सकता है.
डाउनलोड: http://itisnotreal.com/Autobiography% 20of%% 20a 20Jnani.pdf

यह काम एक साथ रमण महर्षि और रॉबर्ट एडम्स, और Nisargadatta और उनके शिष्य सह, रणजीत के दो 

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Hi Ed,

Thank you for the great book.  Well told except to understand most of it you have to have already traveled the road as you so clearly stated.  I thought you did an excellent job of direction. 

I’m glad you brought up your different point of view about reincarnation. I wish you would reveal more about this as I vacillate back and forth between a view like yours and Robert's.

My experience says you are correct but my intuition says my understanding is limited.

Although this concept is also running out of steam, falling into the whatever it will be will be fine view, and I had a lot of steam!!

"The stillness and silence during dhyaan tells me, "I am wordless

and effortless, take refuge here." There is no observer or observed,

no witnesser or witnessing, no object, no mind and no time only

this RESTFUL JOY which is beyond all and everything."   


Beautifully said, sounds like Jean Klein.

Best part for me was your photo at the end.   So beautiful, very powerful. It was just like looking at Ramana Maharshi's photographs, there was clear recognition  before the mind moved. Compassion incarnate, a beacon of light, the Buddha.

Lots of love and thank you!!!

D.