DIVINE LOVE, HUMAN LOVE
So many people have misconceptions that are centered around the concept
called divine love. Many students come to me and tell me about how much love
they feel is emanating from photographs of Ramana or Robert Adams. But I know
from first-hand experience that Robert really had very little love. He had very
little of any emotion. He was entirely beyond the world of emotion including
love. Might say he was a cold fish from a human point of view.
What the students were feeling was their own love partially projected
onto the photograph of Robert and partially felt in their own hearts. They
combine that with the feeling of wanting that feeling to grow in intensity and
become permanent and directed everywhere. That they called divine love, which
they assume has nothing to do with human love, which they see as distorted and
contracted, personal and limited to the body.
What they do not know is they would never find any kind of love being
with Robert. What they would find is the void, emptiness, and supreme peace--f
they were lucky, and persevered in self-inquiry for many, many years.
Self0Inquiry is a very slow method.
The real story is that divine love comes from becomming aware of deeper
levels of yourself, what Jan Esmann calls the love-bliss body buried within the
physical body, which I call the energy body, or one’s own sense of presence,
like an electromagnetic field permeating in and extending beyond the body. This
body is, the stadium that hosts a vast, intricate, and fiery play of many kinds
of energies: bliss, ecstasies, and spiritual orgasms, which twist and contort
one’s body with divine pleasure, and feeling God within.
For Jan, the experience of Shakti, or the divine mother, which I call the
energies, or God, came about by combining kundalini meditations with the
presence of his guru, a woman trained by one of my guru’s, Dhyanyogi. For me,
Shakti, the divine energy within, arose from the love for woman, worshiping a
woman, surrendering to a woman, who did the same with me. It was a mutual love
of the most total and intense kind, and what I discovered was that the love I
had for her was because of the divine I saw within her, and by seeing the
divine in her, I found it in myself, which manifested in and through me in a
world shattering explosion of bliss, light, and love. This experience was
entirely divine even though it arose out of a human love relationship that was
never consummated with physical sex, but only worshiping and surrender over a
distance.
It is my aim that all of the students feel that life force within, that
God within them, by being around me, reading my posts, hearing my stories of
Robert and others, hearing my voice, feeling my energy field, and through
resonance, gradually acquire that same acquaintance and revelation of the
divine within, of directly experiencing the life force as the divine other, but
also as oneself. Thereafter, when their experiences of the divine deepens and
broadens, and they develop the voice and articulation necessary to create that
state in others, then they themselves become teachers carrying the flame to
kindle the hearts of others.
The irony is that this divine love is both the same and different from
human love. It starts with human love, and gradually morphs into something that
is so much more. A love of exquisite bliss, almost torturously ecstatic, which
permeates every energy center within the physical and subtle bodies making one
incredibly sensitive to everything both without and within one’s own being.
This bliss has a life of its own, this divine love is experienced as a playing
of God within one’s whole being, radiating love and bliss everywhere.
For me it started from a human love relationship that morphed into a
sexless divine relationship, as physical sex never happened, but the longing
for total immersion in the other, total worship and surrender to the other,
total divine and permanent sex with the other, was always present in the
relationship, because all energy centers of the physical and subtle bodies
within were awake in one- pointed devotion towards the other, which became
devotion for God within, and within all other living beings.
Rare is the person that can understand that the love of God can be
obtained through loving another who wears God easily on his or her shoulders.
Loving someone immersed in God is a very, very quick way of immersing yourself
in God.
But often the trigger of this divine-creating relationship is a sexual
trigger and energization of the sexual center which is manifest in repeated
orgasms and feelings of ecstatic bliss throughout the body gradually ascending
from the sexual center through the gut the heart and into the brain, so that it
feels to woman like a complete penetration by love, divine love.
Then over a shorter or longer time, the awakening sexuality triggers an
awakening of the heart and gut. These become solidified as these two Chakra
energies form a tube from the perineum to the heart and the energy flow
increases drastically day after day and week after week, until one day the
energies explodes upwards from the gut, through the heart and into the brain in
a world shattering display of inner energies and light, and now you directly
know Shakti, the life force, as both other and as yourself.
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