Shortly before my awakening to the life force, I had a repetitive experience of God while speaking to my Beloved on the phone.
I had a visual experience of God, and enormous figure so large I could not see his face, I only saw his feet and legs. While worshiping him while listening to my Beloved speaking to me, the vision changed, and in it I fell to the ground, completely empty in total surrender and worship of my God. I was total devotion. I only thought of being of use to Him by being crushed by his foot. I longed to be crushed into Nothingness by Him. During some of these visions, I experienced the descent of a golden colored light that completely enveloped, permeated, and purified my entire being, physical and Subtle bodies.
I had this vision over and over. My Beloved said she had the same experience, but the way she expressed it, I was not sure. But for me it was total grace, total surrender, total worship, and total absence of me except as a worshipper. This is how one has to love and commit before the life force shows itself to you and baths you in endless bliss.