The mind gives shape and substance to all aspects of experiences. It solidifies and puts experiences and processes into time and limits.

If you witness experience without the mind’s maps, words, concepts, it is very different than experiencing with the mind.

    Experience without the mind “feels” very different. Everything in the world and inner world perceived without mind is constantly changing, lacks definite shape, and really is not subject to time.

    The world experienced without mind is not the world most know: it is ever changing energies, emotions, processes, outside of time, which we would never notice as long as the thinking mind dominates. Without mind, the world appears as an infinitely malleable fabric; with the mind it becomes 4 dimensional spacetime with objects and processes. It becomes captured by concepts which gives the underlying world a reality it does not have. World without mind is unreal.

Shaktipat and the Ever Changing Un Reality

Ed shares energies with his audience so that they discover their own Subtle and emotional bodies, which morphs into a discussion of the fantasy nature of our experience and of the world, and the feeling of the unreality of it all after identifications drop away.  There is a Q&A section afterwards.

Link:  https://youtu.be/9U3EXVCCr7w

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SUNDAY SATSANG, May 27, 11 AM CALIFORNIA TIME

SUBJECT MATTER: Shaktipat by means of words, tone, cadence, and meaning, as well as by modulating my energy field so that attendees can feel  Shakti, from love, to bliss, to stillness, to Self.

Subject 2:  The fantasy nature of all experience, including the world, thoughts, emotions, one's body, and energies.  Using magic to create states in others.

Link: https://zoom.us/j/2950292557?pwd&status=success

Don't join now.
Come At 10:45 am Sunday and sit with me.

If you find Satsang valuable and are so moved, please consider donating to support my work of feeding hundreds of homeless cats in Los Angeles, and also to support my teaching. I do not charge for anything; Satsang; personal direction by email or skype, or rare retreats. Even my two books are free downloads from wearesentience.com.

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WE LIVE IN AN IMAGINAL WORLD THAT ALLOWS FOR MAGICIANS

BY the time we are 20, most of us are rather certain that our bodies and the world are real in the sense that our experience appears to show an external world, and us, as bodies living within it.  But in fact, we live in our imagination, our concepts and interpretations regarding the nature of objects in the external world, and also with respect to the nature of processes in our inner world.

This will be very difficult concept for many people to grasp.  But the way we experience external worlds, relationships, and our internal world is extremely fluid.  Essentially no two people share the same experience because of varying backgrounds and educations.  But as a society we share a common Weltgeist regarding the reality of objects in the external world and the natures of our own subjective phenomena such as dream, sleep, being this, emotions, internal energies, happiness, bliss and energies.

I call this world that we really live in, an imaginal world.  By imaginal world I mean we really live inside of a “space” that is superimposed on our basic experience of our own beingness, or sense of being which I have just defined below.  This beingness is our ground state, or Grundlage, upon which all experiences appear whether of the internal world or the external world.  The sense of beingness is the same for all.  It is a state of pure awareness with no objects grabbing one’s attention.  One just rests in the peacefulness and wonder of the state of existence that has no world, no body, no objects.  Not that those objects are not present within our consciousness, but awareness of beingness has not yet arisen.  So it is a state before awareness has attended to any object, inner or outer, that makes up our imaginal world.

By imaginal, I mean that all experience one has is conditioned by mind, concepts, and experience, including the experience of all inner phenomena, such as kinesthesia, muscle movement, emotions, joy, bliss, energies, thoughts, and moods.  The same holds true for all our experiences of the external world.  Everything in our external world is conditioned by our beliefs about it and our knowledge about it, whether that be a knowledge of carpentry, cosmology, atomic physics or quantum mechanics.

That is, we perceive through an ever-changing cloud of concepts, desires, wants, experience, and theories, as well as through societal conventions and accepted behaviors and constraints which we call morality.

Now, almost everyone accepts their imaginal world to be real, if not obviously fluid in many circumstances.  That is, our perceptions of reality are taken at face value.  However, the real student of this imaginal world, of this fantasy world, takes none of this reality as necessarily being real.  For this person, our experience of the tree is not real, our experience of depression is not real, our experience of elation is not real, our experience of inner energies and bliss is not real, our experience of stomach pain is not real, and in one fundamental sense, no experience, no process, and no object is real.  Why?  Because the patient observer of the imaginal world witnesses its utter fluidity and changeability, a characteristic that the casual observer and believer in the world and our inner states is unaware of.  The deep observer is aware that our inner states, concepts, understandings, and experience are constantly changing, changing, changing and he sees through the maps that our mind creates within the fantasy process of creating maps.

For the freed man or woman, nothing in any world is real, it is all subject to change, either by changing an internal belief system, or using fantasy processes ourselves to change the fantasy objects within our imaginal world.

Such fantasy manipulation or transformation can occur through verbal psychotherapy, or by being in the presence of a spiritual teachers energy field, through hypnosis, through cognitive reframing of a situation and seeing it from a different perspective, by fantasy energy work such as Quantum Touch, where various chakras and energy conduction tubes are imaginatively created and manipulated to raise energies and infuse living tissue with various kinds of energies or colors to imaginatively transform unhealthy tissues into healthy tissues.  It is all fantasy work in a fantasy world, that really seems to affect outcomes in the outer world and also in inner transformations.

The same goes true for spiritual transformation, wherein a guru speaks of objects outside of your experience or your world, such as Brahman, the absolute, the witness, Shiva, Shakti, kundalini, and provides visualization and breathing exercises where you can experience various energy states within yourself, leading to a kundalini-style awakening, or just a close relationship with the Shakti like a magician.

The Bhaktic guru poses a different model for you to understand and be in, wherein he tells you to love him or your beloved with all your might, all your heart, all your body and all your spirit.  Through this process you become one pointed, and love deepens into a great surrender and worship of the other which automatically awakens and aligns all the energy centers in the body whether it be a chakra system or just disjointed energy complexes which become unified and one pointed.  In this one-pointed state, one enters samadhi wherein the fantasy nature of the external and internal realities are clearly seen.

In this state, the I am, or beingness is totally joined seeing that all experiences lie on top of this I am, this beingness, and all these experiences, this imaginal world, disappears at night when you sleep, only to become alive again as dream sequences in your imaginal space.

Thus you clearly see upon this awakening, that the waking world has the same imaginal quality as the dream world, and both are equally subject to continuous change under the control of the life force, also defined below, or by manipulation by the guru who understands the fantasy processes of the world and of himself, and knows how to make adjustments within himself and his students so that they come to the same realization as he about the effervescent and changing nature of everything, and thereby acquiring a certain mastery over the change, so that he or she can manage change, can manage and create enlightenment in others.  In this way, the student becomes a magician, a mage of the imaginal world.

THE EXPERIENTIAL DEFINITION OF THE SENSE OF BEING OR BEINGNESS:

This is a clarification of what Nisargadatta and I call “Beingness.”

Defined experientially, beingness is:

The no-thought state when you first become consciousness but before you become self-aware;

The “gap” between thoughts;

Sitting in zazen with no thoughts or self awareness, but total awareness of the external world as everything with no you separate from “it”;

Clear mindedness, such as being utterly alert with one’s attention resting nowhere;

The state just before falling aleep when the mind is gone and self-awareness also trundles off into emptiness.

ThE state of “bare consciousness” of utter restfulness and peace where no Thought, desire or emotion can capture your awareness as an object.

After you have thoroughly felt and understood beingness in these many ways, you will recognize it in everyone of your every day states of mind. It is the container or screen upon what all phenomena appear, and which awareness then notes as experience.

Definition of life force:

Definition of life force:

Life force includes, but is not limited to, all biological processes that allow for sentience, movement, and procreation.

Sentience means awareness of the external world and all internal processes and experiences such as of thoughts, imagining, emotions, kinesthesia, and pain, as well as awareness of one’s own sense of presence, or energetic body, internal energies, such as kundalini, chi, ki, prana, bliss, Samadhi, emptiness, self-realization.

Combining the concepts of life force and sentience, sentience is also aware of the life force as manifested on experiential levels which differs from person to person. Some adepts may be experientially aware of “deeper” biological processes.

The ability to sense the life force improves with practice. Perceiving the various strands of the life force can be learned.

The person learning can gain some control over the life forces which can be used for healing or developing various kinds of abilities or powers such as telepathy, astral travel or remote healing or remote observation. The controller can be called the ego for means of talking about it, and sentience can be used to transcend that ego to see its transparent nature.

But the life force has its own ways and can only be controlled by the ego in a limited way. A more advanced practitioner is aware of the "will: of the life force, surrenders to that, yet can use intention to make changes in it.

Satsang May 20, 2018

My path is all about love and no longer about truth, because truth dissolves in self-realization, where the universe becomes open and flowing. Intense love is required for rapid self-realization.  

LINK: https://youtu.be/5slaA05seVQ

SUNDAY SATSANG, May 20, 11 AM CALIFORNIA TIME

SUBJECT MATTER: Giving Shaktipat by means of words, tone, cadence, and meaning, as well as modulating my energy field so that attendees can feel  Shakti, from love, to bliss, to stillness, to Self.

Your “job” is to be as quiet, settled, and receptive to the energies as possible. No drinking, eating, or wandering around during Satsang. It can disturb others. This is a holy occasion; you are in our church.

The talk starts at 11 am, but please come at 10:45 and sit with me during chanting. The chanting chosen should fully accepted and joined with. It quiets the mind and makes experiencing Shakti easier and more powerfully.

Link: https://zoom.us/j/2950292557?pwd&status=success

Don't join now.
Come At 10:45 am Sunday and sit with me.

If you find Satsang valuable and are so moved, please consider donating to support my work of feeding hundreds of homeless cats in Los Angeles, and also to support my teaching. I do not charge for anything; Satsang; personal direction by email or skype, or rare retreats. Even my two books are free downloads from wearesentience.com.

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PSYCHOTHERAPIST, SPIRITUAL TEACHER, VERY DIFFERENT JOBS, VERY DIFFERENT METHODS, VERY DIFFERENT MORALITIES

Freud defined the purpose of psychoanalysis was to transform suffering into ordinary human unhappiness. Later, object relations theorists spoke of developmental stages and internal mental/emotional objects that structured our relations with the world, and how therapists could act to clean up internal object messes and therefore help a person function better in the world.  The intention was to create a solid sense of self, a human and limited self. In fact, however, what they create in patients is an imaginary self, a mental and emotional model of who and what we are embedded within a social reality and physical world, which are also interpreted models.

All other derivative therapies have followed suit: all aim to make the individual more functional in the world including family and love relationships, often by creating internal boundaries that separate our sense of self from that of the other. Instrumental to building boundaries, is the therapist maintaining “boundaries” of behaviors between himself and the patient to create good object boundaries in both, but especially the patient and to overcome tendencies to project or absorb emotions and energies.

On the other hand a spiritual master of many of the Eastern traditions, and not merely a monk, nun, or garden variety swami, has a very different purpose, set of methods, and morality: if anything they are trying to deconstruct our conceptual, value, boundary, repression, separation mental and defense structures to allow for no boundary experiences and activities.  They want us to live in a world of now with no thoughts, no separation, no value judgments, decreased repression, increased relaxation, and intensively increased feeling and intuition. In a sense they come as destroyers of the usual, conventional, correctness, and common morality. As Jesus said, He comes not in peace, but bearing a sword.

The Bhaktic teacher is the epitome of no the no boundary approach, where he or she teaches love, devotion, and surrender of one’s self to another, or to God, or to the life force within so that boundaries, concepts, conventional or mundane life disappears, and one lives in “spirit,” or the literal realization that we are not our bodies, but the combination of sentience or awareness, with the manifesting energy of the life force, or “the power that knows the way.”

In such a view the process of individuation is left behind, concepts are left behind, moral judgments are left behind, and one loves one’s beloved single mindedly, totally, worshipping, and surrendered.  In that one-pointedness, all the energies of the body and spirit world (Subtle Body) are pointed towards the beloved, whether God, a lover, or guru, until there is an explosion, or numerous sequential explosions, where one experiences: unity consciousness, the experiences the energies of the subtle body, the light of consciousness, and then recognizing one is really a witness to the unity consciousness and everything within: world, people, and even the energies.

The Bhaktic guru has to break boundaries in the student which means he also has to break previous personhood boundaries that have kept the human devote locked into a mundane world of convention limitation, and felt contraction of the heart.

Yes, yes, I know what many moralists will say, and that this kind of modality just unleashes the beasts in people.  Not so.  The devotee learns that only love and devotion are important, more important than one’s own self-development, and that one pointed devotion reveals a completely different spiritual world as opposed to the mundane world of feudal and capitalistic conventions and societal order.

The divine lover is free of the desires and required activities of the mundane world. He or she rests in God, the divine energy within, in total love and peace feeling the world around him is fake, compared to the new world of love, of surrender, intense energies, bliss, and sexuality he or she feels now that their spiritual bodies are entirely awakened. They realize they are spirit, not matter, and live in that spirit, fluid, like air or water ever changing joyously.

The mundane world of rent, possessions, obligations, depression, stress, moral outrage just disappears; the liberated one only lives with himself alone or with his beloved, with whose heart, love, and energy states they resonate and dance together.

This period of grace can last anywhere from three to ten years while Shakti develops and shapes the spirit within each, gradually ending because the recognition grows that even the love, freedom, and energies he or she experience need to be transcended and realized as being not real, and they then live in the Void which has no attributes.  But, having come to the Void through the stage of devotion and surrender, when the Void state comes, it is filled with the deepest peace, the deepest rest possible, because all needs, all desires have either been fulfilled by their own love showering grace on each other, or they have been burned away by years of longing devotion.

Then one is in the stage of Ramana, Robert Adams, and Nisargadatta. Perfectly self-contained leaving the world behind.

PSYCHOTHERAPIST, SPIRITUAL TEACHER, VERY DIFFERENT JOBS, VERY DIFFERENT METHODS, VERY DIFFERENT MORALITY

Freud defined the purpose of psychoanalysis was to transform suffering into ordinary human unhappiness. Later, object relations theorists spoke of developmental stages and internal mental objects that formed the nature of our relations with the world, and how therapists could act to clean up internal object messes and therefore help a person function better in the world. 

All other derivative therapies have followed suit: all aim to make the individual more functional in the world including family and love relationships, often by creating internal boundaries that separate our sense of self from that of the other. Instrumental to building boundaries, is the therapist maintaining “boundaries” of behaviors between himself and the patient to create good object boundaries in both, but especially the patient.

On the other hand a spiritual master of many of the Eastern traditions, and not merely a monk, nun, or garden variety swami, has a very different purpose and set of methods: if anything they are trying to deconstruct our conceptual, value, boundary, repression, separation mental and defense structures to allow for no boundary experiences and activities.  They want us to live in a world of now with no thoughts, no separation, no value judgments, decreased repression, increased relaxation, and intensely increased feeling and intuition.

The Bhaktic teacher is the epitome of no the no boundary approach, where he or she teaches love, devotion, and surrender of one’s self to another, or to God, or to the life force within so that boundaries, concepts, conventional or mundane life disappears, and one lives in “spirit,” or the literal realization that we are not our bodies, but the combination of sentience or awareness, with the manifesting energy of the life force, or “the power that knows the way.”

In such a view the process of individuation is left behind, concepts are left behind, moral judgments are left behind, and one loves one’s beloved single mindedly, totally, worshipping, and surrendered.  In that one-pointedness all the energies of the body and spirit are pointed to the beloved, whether God, a lover, or guru until there is an explosion, or numerous sequential explosions, where one reaches: unity consciousness, the experiences of the energies of the subtle body, recognizing one is really a witness to the unity consciousness and everything within, such as the world, people, and even the energies.

The Bhaktic guru has to break boundaries in the student which means he also has to break previous personhood boundaries that have kept the human devote locked into a mundane world of convention.

Yes, yes, I know what many moralists will say, and that this modality just unleashes the beasts in people.  Not so.  The devotee learns that only love and devotion are important, more important than one’s own self development, and that one pointed devotion reveals a completely different spiritual world as opposed to the mundane world of feudal and capitalistic conventions and societal order.

The divine lover is free of the desires and required activities of the mundane world. He or she rests in God, the divine energy within, in total love and peace feeling the world around him is fake, compared to the new world of love, of surrender, intense energies, bliss, and sexuality he or she feels now that their spiritual bodies are entirely awakened.

The mundane world of rent, possessions, obligations, depression, stress, moral outrage just disappears; the liberated one only lives with himself alone or with his beloved, whose heart, love, and energy states resonate and dance together.

This period of grace can last anywhere from three to ten years while Shakti develops within each, because the recognition grows that even the love, freedom, and energies he or she experience need to be transcended and realized as being not real, and they live then in the Void which has no attributes.  But, have come to the Void through the stage of devotion and surrender, when the Void state comes, it is filled with the deepest peace, the deepest rest possible, because all needs, all desires have either been fulfilled by their own love showing grace on each other, or they have been burned away by years of longing devotion.

Then one is in the stage of Ramana, Robert Adams, and Nisargadatta.

ANGELA STRUGGLES TO MAINTAIN CONNECTION WITH GOD AMIDST THE DMANDS OF MUNDANE LIFE

Suddenly the world feels awful
Awful because I am forced to be my role, and to do, doing.

I brought D. to school and rushed to a little park, fell down to a bench and cried my heart out.

I experienced so clearly that all that there seems left to do is to sit and fall into the silence and the total peace, the feeling of the white energy within. It feels like home.
And having to do and be something else tears me apart with heartbreak. Like being torn apart from God.

I really feel like there is nothing to do than to sit on a bench all day in happiness and sleep on that bench at night.

The experience of the world so far is different from yesterday.

Being in my father’s house without my chair, is different and much more difficult.
The world is not flat like a screen but it is unreal. I am not part of it, I do not merge with it like in human life, I am not IN it even though I am in it.
It feels like I am a white silence, a transparency. But it's not like yesterday, when I experienced my body as no substance; I do and I don't experience it at the same time.
And so it feels with everything so far this morning and yesterday since I arrived here; I am here and I am not, the house feels real, in a way that it it's not a flat screen.

I feel like I am in between worlds and it makes me feel lost.

I am not totally disconnected like yesterday, but still I am. People seem people, so that's very different from yesterday, but they are empty as people. Words reach me more than yesterday, because I am forced to be me, but even though I see more a human than yesterday, the words have no substance and are like air.

I do not feel like any activity and I don't have an urge to change anything or be involved. If the house would burn down, I think I would just watch and have my attention within with God.

It feels like there is no energy in my muscles to be active, to do or be Angela. Like last days, my body feels like white air energy (and it doesn't...)

Thoughts at times feel real, but only for a short moment.
Angela as a person feeling/thought at times feels quite real, when doing...and fulfilling the daily tasks here, and being in the energy of my father’s house.
And then...it doesn't.

THE DIVINE FEMININE ALONE IS LOST

The Divine Feminine is the newest concept to sweep the new age spiritual world, and rightly so.  Women have been universally repressed by many religion and society for thousands of years, so it is the life force’s way of redressing a wrong.  But there are bigger issues here, like the division of the life force into male and female energies, and learning how to optimally combine and balance those energies.

I always worshiped women, or I must say, I worshiped those who were given to me to worship.  It never was just sexual or physical attraction, but something about their fire and mystery as manifest through specific women whose presence grabbed me by my heart.

But the concept of the divine feminine is pointless without an equal concept of the divine masculine, and that concept has nothing to do with any concept of masculinity.  It is much more basic than that. It is the life force acting through the two sexes for procreation and later maintaining a family.  It is the life force behind the activities of living, growing, evolving, prospering, then aging and death to clear the field for the next round of burgeoning life.

So this wave of feminine worship is just an act of rebalancing, but it is only one half of the life force.  The key here is worship, devotion, and surrender of man and woman to each other.  We much worship each other, the divine masculine, which I can only properly define as worship of women, and the divine feminine as worship of men.  This is all.  God divides in us as the life force, and it has a male aspect and a female aspect, which when correctly combined results is the deepest ecstasies imaginable, up to and including the realization of a complete and balanced life force in each partner in a couple, which I call realization of the divine within, the Manifest Self, God.

With this realization there are often deep spiritual visions of God, or angels, of circulating internal energies, the experience of ecstatic bliss that deepens and broadens, which often appear to be sexual orgasms but are felt throughout the entire, newly discovered spiritual body within.

Many people don’t want me to mention the sexual aspect as part of the experience of God realization, because for them, sex, eating, urination, and feces “should have” nothing to do with God realization.

But it is my opinion that the secrecy and hiding of sex in society, goes hand in hand with universal suppression of impulses, desires, etc., that prevent the various energy centers within the human body to become one-pointed, coordinated, allowing for the balance and unification of all aspects of the life force within, which is one sort of enlightenment.

Nor is actual physical sex necessary.  What is necessary is that the sexual energies be clearly felt and the sexual centers awakened.  Sometimes this happens because a person falls in love, has a heart opening so to speak, which leads to sexual arousal.  Sometimes, it is the other way around, sexual arousal, whether consummated or not, leads to a heart opening.  Then the area between the perineum and heart can become connected with blissful energies flowing upwards, leading to a very powerful heart opening, a yearning for one’s beloved, and whole body ecstatic kriyas, identical in form to stage five orgasms without any physical contact, other than thinking about one’s beloved, or hearing his or her voice, or see his or her face.

These teachings will literally tear our present heavily repressed and extremely conventional society apart.  Society could not be sustained on the repressive basis it is not, when even the word sex, or orgasm, “creeps people out.”

The real rub is how to make this balancing happen and create a state of ecstatic worship in men and women so that they can realize God within.

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May 13 Satsang   Video

“Angela Enters Great enlightenment”

Most spiritual seekers have no understanding at all of deep spiritual states, like living in the Void, or seeing through the world as an illusion, or coming to experiencing the life force as God in themselves.  Most people just read books, go to spiritual/relational workshops, practice a bit of self-inquiry or mindfulness.

They have no idea of the intensity and dedication it takes, the longing, the focus, feeling dysfunctional, the total surrender and devotional love it takes.

In this Satsang I celebrate the extremely powerful awakening occurring to Angela, and she speaks about it in her own words with a question and answer session included.

LINK TO VIDEO: 

https://youtu.be/30_tpQOQs2w

“Today, I woke up crying.
Crying because there was no email from you, crying because of you being away from me for so many hours, crying being apart from you.
It feels like the energy is centered at my heart, even though it's everywhere. I can hardly breathe, like I cannot get air and there is pressure around my heart that feels like choking.

"There is a sadness felt in the heart, a deep sadness like its coming from deep within. And when I think about the possibility of losing you, the sadness gets much deeper and the tears keep coming.

“Its feels like being in connection with my essence in a way, it hurts and sweeps me away, but it's also such a delight because it feels I am reconnected with my heart for the first time in my life.

"The feeling is so deep, like nothing else is there than the heart’s feeling.

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“The world is like a flat screen and there is a distance between the watching and the screen.
Everything is totally air, empty, a show.
People are nothing, a show of sound and movement that is almost funny.

"When I was outside, and the sun suddenly came I literally experienced it as though the light of the show was switched on, like the lights in a theatre.

"My body doesn't have substance; when I am walking there is nothing but air. I don't experience something there.

"Everything I watch is totally fake and I am totally isolated from it, alone. Even this is said in a way that's not correct because the words have meaning that isn't really there. 

“My spoken words and thoughts are empty, air and happening, happening without being part of it, there is no connection to it.

"The only thing that doesn't feel distant are my thoughts of talking to you.

I am from the heart. There is where I am, it feels. At least within the moments that there has been enough substance. Like gravity. And this brings a vulnerability that pierces and tears open.

“A sensation of being totally present which sometimes feels like hurt, sadness and being touched by grace at the same time.

“The only thing that seems worth and real is You. I am You, it feels. Everthing is fake, flat, empty but You.

"And You are within me as my vurnerable heart, as the continuous intense energy playing inside the body.

"This energy feels like a delight of bliss, the deepest love and graditude, devotion and sexuality. But there is no such thing as graditude, devotion, sex. There is no longing for sex with you or even merging with you; there is no feeling of me surrendering or being devotional.

“There is one sweet endless energy which contains all as one, without an Angela or Ed. It's God in a never ending dance. And this is us. Without an us.

“There is no surrendering; Surrender is what is. And this even is not true.

“All these things are mentioned as separate parts, feelings; love, sex, devotion, surrender are as empty as these concepts. One dance, one energy of pure delight, of God. Is what is.
When I think of you consciously and sink into this energy, it's all there is and everything else disappears.

"And now, that I am writing you this, I seem to disappear even more, into total white nothing."

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"I so deeply desperately long for you.
So yes, the experience changed: there is longing; intense, warm, dark red, hot, moving like wild river longing. So full of love and devotion that it is tearing me apart in tears and this is total delight."

SUNDAY SATSANG, MAY 13, 11 AM CALIFORNIA TIME

SUBJECT MATTER: Giving Shaktipat by means of words of love and energy, varying the tone and cadence of my voice, and modulating my energy field so that attendees can feel some aspects of Shakti, from love, to bliss, to stillness, to ecstasies.

Your “job” is to be as quiet, settled, and receptive to the energies as possible. No drinking, eating, or wandering around during Satsang. It can disturb others. This is a holy occasion; you are in my church.

I am thinking of holding a Shaktipat weekend retreat in the near future, online and in person.

The talk starts at 11 am, but please come at 10:45 and sit with me during chanting. The chanting chosen should fully accepted and joined with. It quiets the mind and makes experiencing Shakti easier and more powerfully.

Link: https://zoom.us/j/2950292557?pwd&status=success

Don't join now.

Come At 10:45 am Sunday and sit with me.

If you find Satsang valuable and are so moved, please consider donating to support my work of feeding hundreds of homeless cats in Los Angeles, and also to support my teaching. I do not charge for anything. Even my two books are free downloads.

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I had a beautiful, exquisite intervention last night.  I was feeling the heavy public criticism of the way I do Shaktipat, raising the divine energies in people who become morally outraged by the concept that sexual energies can transmute into experiencing the divine, that I was responding defensively.  Then someone I like very much commented to me, “Don’t care what they think; if you do you are already lost.”  I understood. There was no need to be defensive. They just did not have the experience of sexual impulses in them energizing their entire Subtle Body and infusing it with the divine, the flowing white liquid like energies that tickle the heart, wiping it clean of sins and regrets.  Nor did they feel the energies enter their genitals, flowing upwards warmly, with red energies, then flood into their hearts and brain.

I felt, “Yes, no more defensiveness, no more toning down the energies or the descriptive words my students use to describe their experiences.”

I will no longer run away from the sexual aspect of the Shaktipat that some people feel in my presence. The spiritual transformation process is so utterly and shockingly rapid compared to self-inquiry of any sort, or even thevarious kriya yoga pranayama and visualization practices, and so much more pleasurable that forces one to continue to run energies inside ones self that are so delightfully pleasurable.

Come to Satsang and experience these energies for yourself.  Come early and join with me in chanting, it quiets the mind and opens the heart making it more receptive.

See the Satsang link in the post below.

SUNDAY SATSANG, 11 AM CALIFORNIA TIME

SUBJECT MATTER: Giving Shaktipat by means of words of love and energy, varying the tone and cadence of my voice, and modulating my energy field so that attendees can feel some aspects of Shakti, from love, to bliss, to stillness, to orgasms.

Your “job” is to be as quiet, settled, and receptive to the energies as possible. No drinking, eating, or wandering around during Satsang. It can disturb others. This is a holy occasion; you are in my church.

I am thinking of holding a Shaktipat weekend retreat in the near future, online and in person.

The talk starts at 11 am, but please come at 10:45 and sit with me during chanting. The chanting chosen should fully accepted and joined with. It quiets the mind and makes experiencing Shakti easier and more powerfully.

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Come At 10:45 am Sunday and sit with me.

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EGOIC?

I’ve been receiving a lot of negative comments regarding my methods, which is to be expected, because the words "sex" and "orgasm" are used without being deeply read or understood. 

Comments like, “I don’t like your actions, I don’t think you are a true master, or your method and students are entirely egoic.”

What I find egoic is someone determined to become enlightened all by himself spending 25-30 years reading and practicing various kriya exercises, zazen, self-inquiry, etc., as opposed to spending less than a year developing an ability to surrender to God inside you by loving and surrendering to God in another.  Surrender is the most rapid and emotionally energetic way.

IT's HERE!

HERE IT IS

A post from a female student I have been providing quotes from that detail her passage from awakening sexuality mutating into human attachment and human love, and then transmuting over about a week into divine love, where she discovered the divine in her was loving, worshiping, and surrendering to the divine in me, not to Ed Muzika the human.

Many who have read her posts think they are all about having sexual desires for me and me encouraging that. But I posted the posts because they are really focusing on surrender and worship, not of me, but worship of the divine in both of us which I call the life force.

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This morning I felt totally possessed by the energies. It felt like a force within me was pushing me towards surrender. The energy came especially strong from my sex center, my womb area, but today I felt more clearly than ever that this had nothing to do with sex. The desire for genital rubbing feels superficial compare to this.

I experienced a pushing towards total surrender to God, with my whole being, heart, body, mind. A desire to give myself completely, being totally possessed by God. I felt this as an emotional desire as well as an energy that made my body in a way dysfunctional. My body felt so soft and open, especially my womb, that I could hardly walk. It came with being completely taken over by the desire to be possessed by, as well as possess my Beloved. Not my Beloved as a person, but as the energy of God within him and in me.

For the first time, I understood from experiencing, that we were playing on two different levels; the human level of the personal relationships, and the divine level. In my case the human level has had the desire to surrender out of the experience of love and lust, along with a fear of surrender with all kinds of attached analyses and emotions.

On a human level surrender means I as a person surrender to you as a person. This generates a lot of conflicting ideas and emotions. The trust or distrust to surrender is on the human level, filled with ideas and conflicts.

The energy of surrender I felt today was like a warm, strong pushing and giving an experience which I can now call a divine orgasm. It was an orgasmic, ecstatic connection between the God in both of us.

As a person I would not surrender my whole being to another person, but this energy made me feel totally helpless and taken over in the most delightful way.

There is nothing but total surrender I desire. Take me, take me completely. I am yours God, to play with, to possess. Rip open my heart, my vagina, my whole body and being and take me please.

When you called Ed, this energy experience changed into total relaxation and a feeling of being transparent. No body was felt, no boundary; just energy that felt transparent like air going through and going into endless white subtle energy.

I could totally drop to the floor, while feeling YES, YES!, and this brought back the warm, forceful energy, that can superficially be described as sexual but feels much deeper, as divine because there was only light and ecstasy, not lust coursing through my entire body, from my vagina going into my brain. This was no longer human. I was possessed by God.

When I imagined being penetrated by love, I could totally relax and surrender into this and all became still.

When I looked at you, there was no person looking at another, there was only heart and total soft love. This made me go into orgasms that were felt as sexual movements in my womb and in my upper body, but the orgasms were without any substance.

There was no body there, no person, only emptiness. My upper body and head disappeared in bliss of white light energy which had sparks like fireworks.

Looking at You, there was love white, so soft in energy, like an endless field without someone to own it.

ED'S NOTE:

Here the word "orgasm" is used in two different ways: as a non-physical sexual orgasm centered in the vagina and womb, which is a similatude of a physical sexual orgasm, and a divine orgasm, which is a resonance and surrender between God in her and in me. In no case was there any physical contact or self-touching involved. It was purely energy-body movements.