Realizing the Manifest Self--the Life Force permeating our humanity--and the Unmanifest source from which it arises.
I thoroughly enjoyed this interview. Wide ranging, interesting, thoughtful and informative. And a lively smart interchange between Edji and Paul. Great job!!I will definitely check out the 'Raw and Cooked Vegan' site.
I love your video so much. It has brought some realemotions of sadness, joy and humor up in me.I just rewatched the last 30 minutes of your interview2 more times because I keep starting to cry and misswhat you're saying next. Especially, near the endtalking about being love and experiencing it over andover until you know Yourself is love.That's just beginning to happen in me with Shakti. Adeepening has been happening during the last 10days or so. Ever since the sat sang where your energy passingthrough me sank in a circular motion into my bellyand I felt adhesions popping open, I have felt both areal deepening of relationship with Shakti and a veryextreme sense of vulnerability.Sometimes there is also great sadness, but mostoften I feel vacant. That's the closest word for it.My belly feels open and soft and unstructured.I don't exactly recognize it as my belly. I have verylittle thinking and feel apart from whatever thinkingcomes. Its like the opposite of my usual obsessing.The only thing I know to do about all this, is to sinkinto it further and further. So far there is no bottom.When I'm scared I call for Shakti to help me. She oftenenvelopes me and pulls me down deeper inside. I've had several moments of great startle when wespontaneously meld together and then flow apartagain. My favorite thing is kind of Tibetan like,'becoming the Deity'. I move away from her and turnback, to see, not her, but to see me through her eyes.That's when a transforming love arises in me/her, lovefor my Self. Several times the force of love for me isso strong that I seem to burn with it until I'm gone andjust a pillar of love is left. So far, this sense of beinglove lasts a few seconds before I rushes back in fear.So when you talked about being love itself near theend of the video, I just broke down in tears of reliefand recognition. Its so disconcerting to be so vacantwhen not meditating, then gradually sink below thevacancy into a black velvet world with Shakti.I dreamed that my empty belly filled up with light thatbecame like molten gold and and flowed out of mywomb and down my vagina into the world. A glowinggolden light form. I gave birth to something beyondknowing. When its reallyhard with an emotion like fear/panic, I have cried toShakti for help. She has become very real to me.
When in doubt, just always return to the I Am sensation however you feel it, whether a soft energy and openness around the heart, or as a solid sense of presence permeating and extending beyond the body into the world, just relax and be the I Am.Almost everyone has some sticking points. With you it is your abdomen. With me it has been my upper back and lungs as well as a too ready naivete at believing some or another spiritual figure rather than my own experience.Just keep talking to Shakti, love her, and feel her love.