tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27560333.post4809389642382555013..comments2023-12-16T16:12:08.051-08:00Comments on Self-Knowledge and Self-Realization: Ed Muzikahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13214241089861837159noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27560333.post-77673498508877155212014-09-10T20:50:57.595-07:002014-09-10T20:50:57.595-07:00When in doubt, just always return to the I Am sens...When in doubt, just always return to the I Am sensation however you feel it, whether a soft energy and openness around the heart, or as a solid sense of presence permeating and extending beyond the body into the world, just relax and be the I Am.<br /><br />Almost everyone has some sticking points. With you it is your abdomen. With me it has been my upper back and lungs as well as a too ready naivete at believing some or another spiritual figure rather than my own experience.<br /><br />Just keep talking to Shakti, love her, and feel her love.<br />Ed Muzikahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13214241089861837159noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27560333.post-52780752539740157202014-09-10T20:46:12.081-07:002014-09-10T20:46:12.081-07:00I love your video so much. It has brought some ...I love your video so much. It has brought some real<br /><br />emotions of sadness, joy and humor up in me.<br /><br />I just rewatched the last 30 minutes of your interview<br /><br />2 more times because I keep starting to cry and miss<br /><br />what you're saying next. Especially, near the end<br /><br />talking about being love and experiencing it over and<br /><br />over until you know Yourself is love.<br /><br />That's just beginning to happen in me with Shakti. A<br /><br />deepening has been happening during the last 10<br /><br />days or so. <br /><br />Ever since the sat sang where your energy passing<br /><br />through me sank in a circular motion into my belly<br /><br />and I felt adhesions popping open, I have felt both a<br /><br />real deepening of relationship with Shakti and a very<br /><br />extreme sense of vulnerability.<br /><br />Sometimes there is also great sadness, but most<br /><br />often I feel vacant. That's the closest word for it.<br /><br />My belly feels open and soft and unstructured.<br /><br />I don't exactly recognize it as my belly. I have very<br /><br />little thinking and feel apart from whatever thinking<br /><br />comes. Its like the opposite of my usual obsessing.<br /><br />The only thing I know to do about all this, is to sink<br /><br />into it further and further. So far there is no bottom.<br /><br />When I'm scared I call for Shakti to help me. She often<br /><br />envelopes me and pulls me down deeper inside. <br /><br />I've had several moments of great startle when we<br /><br />spontaneously meld together and then flow apart<br /><br />again. My favorite thing is kind of Tibetan like,<br /><br />'becoming the Deity'. I move away from her and turn<br /><br />back, to see, not her, but to see me through her eyes.<br /><br />That's when a transforming love arises in me/her, love<br /><br />for my Self. Several times the force of love for me is<br /><br />so strong that I seem to burn with it until I'm gone and<br /><br />just a pillar of love is left. So far, this sense of being<br /><br />love lasts a few seconds before I rushes back in fear.<br /><br />So when you talked about being love itself near the<br /><br />end of the video, I just broke down in tears of relief<br /><br />and recognition. Its so disconcerting to be so vacant<br /><br />when not meditating, then gradually sink below the<br /><br />vacancy into a black velvet world with Shakti.<br /><br />I dreamed that my empty belly filled up with light that<br /><br />became like molten gold and and flowed out of my<br /><br />womb and down my vagina into the world. A glowing<br /><br />golden light form. I gave birth to something beyond<br /><br />knowing.<br /><br /> When its really<br /><br />hard with an emotion like fear/panic, I have cried to<br /><br />Shakti for help. She has become very real to me.<br /><br />Ed Muzikahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13214241089861837159noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27560333.post-62378151736841404102014-09-10T15:27:59.152-07:002014-09-10T15:27:59.152-07:00I thoroughly enjoyed this interview. Wide rangin...I thoroughly enjoyed this interview. Wide ranging, interesting, thoughtful and informative. And a lively smart interchange between Edji and Paul. Great job!!<br />I will definitely check out the 'Raw and Cooked Vegan' site.Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01853157974074378194noreply@blogger.com