Realizing the Manifest Self--the Life Force permeating our humanity--and the Unmanifest source from which it arises.
06 May 2011
Rogelio garcia lois
The show is over.
What a weird game spirituality is. In the first moments, no spirituality, no liberation. In due time , if spirituality remains, no liberation is possible. At the end of the game, it is discovered that one has never been bound...A sad and necessary game to play...
I woke up one of this days and started a progressive contemplation:
I started with "things", apparently separate from me. I looked at a chair and thought, "Is it possible for the chair to exist independently from the consciousness that perceives it? No. Is the chair telling me "I am you"? No. Is the chair asking me for its eternal existence? No. It is just a perception. It depends on me".
Then I climbed the ladder and looked at the first possible identification, the body. I just watched it, pure comtemplation. And, to my surprise, I realized that the same questions that I applied to an apparent "external thing", are also pertinent for the body: Is it possible for the body to exist independently from the consciousness that perceives it? Impossible. It is just a group of perceptions. No consciousness, no perception, no body. Is the body telling me "I am you"? No. The body cannot say anything, since it is just a perception. It does not perceive, it is perceived. Is the body asking me for eternal existence? No. The body is more than happy with its being just a perception.
Finally, the last step: the pure, wordless, thoughtless feeling of being of the waking state. The "I am"-consciousness . The window that allows the universe to appear every morning. And that´s where the whole castle of cards , "spirituality" , collapsed.
To my amazement (and amusement!), I found out that the "I am", without which there is no universe and no spirituality at all , is subject to the same questions that the body or even a chair are!
When I watch it without allowing thought to stand in the way, does it tell me "I am you"? No!! What does it tell me about me? Nothing. Is it possible for the waking state consciousness to exist independently of "something" that perceives it? NO!! The "I am-consciousness" is not independent from me. It is just a mirage, a perception. Amazing.
The door to the universe is just a perception! . Is it asking me for eternal existence? No. It can tell me NOTHING about me, because it does not see me. It is the other way round. I am the one who sees it! It needs something prior to it that allows its existence. What is birth? The PERCEPTION of the appearence of space and time. What is death? The PERCEPTION of the dissapearence of space and time. How could birth, which is a perception, create the one who perceives it? How could death, which is a perception, kill the one who perceives it?
So, even the seed of space and time, of the entire universe, depends on me. And if the seed of space and time is itself in space and time, I cannot be within the universe, I cannot have space/time coordinates. That´s why the question "What am I two hundred years before the appearence of my body?" is a wrong question, since my true nature, whatever name one can give to it, is not something that "lasts" eternally. It is not a continuum in time. It is completely OUT of time. I am just deluded by the wrong messages that the mind sends. The mind is born with the birth of the body and will die with the body. It feeds on "form", so it conceives its absence as "nothing", as death, because it cannot create memories of that which has no physical form. That´s why it tells us "you were nothing before the body, and you will be nothing when the body dies". And all that game is just a mirage, a movie.
Really amazing. Really marvellous.
Thank you very much for your help. Very, very much.