The state I call as “not-knowing” has become deeper. I feel centered in my heart and from there immense joy spreads out. I never knew a joy like that, it is unimaginable for humans. No karma, sins, experiences of the world influence that state. From my heat pure love spreads out for everything, as they were real. I feel in the realm of God.
Master, you have let me understand the difference between thinking/analyzing, and jus watching. I have started to pay attention to watching, then it has become “watching which watches watching”, then absorption and the not-knowing state, then this staying in the heart, and joy and love…
Ed, I don’t know how to thank you. I know that you love me and I feel like your son now.
Congratulations. You are getting close now. Don't rush. Just watch now, surrednder to the process.