EVERYTHING IS NOTHING

JUNE 6, 1992

There is one theme, one teaching Robert returns to over and over: You are Nothing; you don’t exists; everything is Nothing. Know this and you are liberated.

After you wake up in the morning, for the first second or two, you don’t exist. Then very suddenly the mind comes awake and you and the world snap into place. The wakened mind creates you and it creates the world. All your beliefs, memories, ideas, opinions, bring you into existence and the world simultaneously. But when your mind stops and you can sink into your heart, you “become” something entirely different. You become the emptiness before the mind comes alive, and that emptiness is illumined by Consciousness’s own light.

Now, let look at Robert’s transcript Everything is Nothing. This will be a brief quote for discussion and educational purposes only, allowable under international copyright laws.

Robert Adams:

“Many people ask me, "Robert, what is really the fastest way to

quiet the mind?" for many of you realize now that when the mind is quiet,

liberation comes by itself. There is really nothing else you have to do to

become liberated. When the thoughts stop, everything takes care of

itself. Then you are in your natural state.

“Therefore what should you do to quiet the mind? Should you

practice self-inquiry? Should you become the witness, the observer?

Should you do pranayama, breathing exercises? Should you practice the

I-am meditation? All of these things are good, but yet ours is the easy

path, the direct path.

“Here's the easiest way to do this. If you would realize in your heart,

that everything is nothing, your mind would become still. You would

become perfectly still. Ponder what I just said. If you would only realize in

your heart that everything is nothing, there would be no thoughts. This is

very profound. This is really all you have to do. Realize in your heart, not in

your mind, but in your heart, that everything you behold, everything you

see, is actually nothing. There will be no thoughts. You will become free.

“Let me explain. When you see a tree, what is the source of the

tree? The seed. What is the source of the seed? What came first, the tree

or the seed? Where did the first seed come from? Where did the first tree

come from? When you look at a mountain, what is the source of the

mountain? When you look at the world, what is the source of the world,

the universe, the planets? You may say, "Well, God is the source." What is

the source of God? Is God something? You have to ask yourself, you

have to inquire within yourself, "What is the source of all these things?"

“And you will realize nothing is the source of everything. Everything comes

out of nothing.

“When you come to this conclusion in your heart, something

happens. Immediately all of your karma, all of your samskaras, all of your

delusions are totally eradicated and you become free. See how easy it

is? All these years you've been looking for methods, teachers, things to

hold onto, things to rely on, where in truth, all you have to do is to realize,

in your heart, that all existence comes out of nothing. If you take a flower

and begin to dissolve the flower, you will get molecules, you will get

atoms, you will get energy, and then you will get nothing. Whatever you

dissolve to the nth degree, everything, turns into no thing, into nothing.

“Therefore God is nothing. You are nothing. There is only nothing. Why

won't you accept this, and become free?”

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Is it not surprising that this 2,000 year old teaching reaches the same conclusion as modern physics that states the universe was created instantaneously 13.9 billion years ago out of nothing in the form of the Big Bang? Moreover, they also hold that all matter, all appearances, from a galaxy down to an atom, are nothing but energies in emptiness, whether be it in the form of fundamental particles, or energy strings. For physicists, all matter and energy comes out of and is permeated by infinite space, emptiness, the Void.

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A student then asked Robert: Isn't nothing just another concept?

R: Nothing is certainly another concept.

S: Just the opposite of everything.

R: Of course.

S: So where do you get by saying everything is nothing?

R: When you begin to accept that everything is nothing,

everything inside begins to dissolve. All of the things you've been holding

on to for all of these years, all of the teachings, all of the dogmas, the

concepts, they begin to dissolve, dissolve, dissolve into nothing. This is why

I say, do not think about this in your mind. For the mind will fool you and it

will be another concept, as you so rightly said. But if you think about this

in your heart, and of course in your heart you do not think, you just have

a realization of this truth in your heart, that everything is nothing, all of a

sudden something will happen. The heart will open up. The heart is the I am, the absolute reality, the pure awareness, and you will find that you

have become nothing. By becoming nothing, you've become

everything. You're essence is in everything, when you are nothing. You will

laugh. You will be happy. Nothing will disturb you. You will have infinite

peace. It's so simple, so simple.

“Yet many of you want to analyze this. You want to think too much

about it. You want to try to understand it. This is what keeps you back

from experiencing liberation. When you try to understand what I say, you

are simply using your concepts, your dogmas, your training over these

years, and from previous years, and from previous incarnations. All this

stuff is inside of you. And you try to use this intelligence, so called, to try to

understand nothing, and you cannot do this. It will never happen. You,

the finite, have no faculty to understand nothing. So can't you

understand now how foolish this is, to try to use your human intelligence,

your human understanding, to understand nothing? This is what holds you

back from realization, this very thing itself. Ponder this.

“Your human intelligence has to be gotten out of the way. Your

human concepts have to be dissolved. Everything you feel, believe and

experience, up to this point, has to be totally transcended. Nothing will

never appear to you until you have become nobody. When you are

nobody, you'll be nothing. But you want to be somebody. Somebody

can never be nothing. You have to be nobody to be a nothing.

(laughter) Nothing is hard to come by. (more laughter) Look at some of

you, you think you're somebody. You have the pride inside of you that

makes you think you're somebody.

“We believe we're something. Even when we say we're nothing,

we think we're something. Understand yourself. See where you're really

coming from. Think of all the books you have to read, the teachers you

have to visit, the talking you have to do to explain things. I'll remind you

again, and again, and again. As long as you are involved in intelligence,

and things that come out of human intelligence, you can never be

nothing. And if you can never be nothing, you can never be self-realized.

“Even though self-realization is your nature, and you are already that, the

clouds of ignorance have covered you up, making you believe you're

something.

“The years spent in studying scriptures, memorizing passages, where

has it gotten you? It's only more stuff that you've got to get rid of. I tell you

again and again, this teaching is an emptying process, not an adding on

process. Do not think you have to know something profound to become

liberated. It's actually what you do not know, that makes you liberated.

“The knowing keeps you human. Knowingness makes you a talking

encyclopedia. It's only when you begin to empty yourself, that you find

yourself, and you're welcome to use the simple method we're sharing.

Just realize right now that everything is nothing. In your heart realize this.

Can't you see what's happening? It's so simple. As you realize everything

is nothing, there is nothing to think about.”

R.A.

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Robert is absolutely correct here, but usually we can’t become nothing by believing in the concept that we are nothing. Usually it takes many years of quietly looking into one’s own source, the dark void inside, the inner world deeper than the mind, feeling into the heart area until our center of awareness drops out of our heads into our hearts. Literally we have to get out of our heads, because as long as our awareness is centered in the brain, we will remain the person we think we are, that we were taught we were, with all of our memories and habits. We stay as the mind until we drop into the heart.

Once our center of gravity, so to speak, our center of awareness, drops into our hearts, then we realize the truth of Robert’s teachings instantly. Suddenly we become aware that we are not our bodies, not the world, but are the infinite lighted Consciousness extending throughout our infinite emptiness.

In this emptiness there is nothing to be done, no where to go. We are happy, rested, at home without words, concepts, habits, desires, forcing us to do something, or to go somewhere. We are free, totally rested, infinite awareness.

Now, go to the full transcript and read it slowly. Let Robert’s message sink in.

I Am Nothing

Most of us are filled with opinions about behaviors, diet, God, politics, and freely offer their advice about what you are doing that is right or wrong.

So called "spiritual people" are no different.  In fact, many are worse because they have absorbed so many different and contradictory teachings, which in spiritual people, becomes mixed with various moral codes of behavior.

I have had many students stay with me in my home and almost all are confused, judgmental, overly concerned with healthy or moral diets, and freely offer opinions of other behaviors.  They are constantly judging others and themselves in terms of perfection or failures in realization, food choices, politics, my behaviors, Kerimas', etc.  They have not realized that all this mental activity is just entertainment and ways to n ot be at rest with oneself.

In many cases, turmoil, depression, anger, well up, arising out of hidden internal processes, which are projected onto the environment, just as does joy and bliss upon occasion. But with practice, observing, accepting, loving whatever arises from within, after a few years all the "friction" and "bad" feelings disappear because everything moves through you far more easily than before practice.

Robert's spirituality differs from most and is most closely allied with Zen.  The spiritual practice is to try to become nothing, to become nobody, with no opinions, no knowledge, no understanding, no attainment with nothing to obtain.  The emtier you get, the happier you also get, because the mind is no ,longer serving up its constant chatter of opinions and judgments. It just rests inside one's own void or emptiness nature.

So many who come here are trying to attain some elevated enlightened state that they can only vaguely verbalized based on reading too many diverse teachers, when what is really needed is to empty one's self of all understanding, all effort to become enlightened or awakened, and instead, the effort is to mostg accurate "feel" who you are and "be" who you are in emptiness.

Become the nothingness within by observing your dark void nature and rest there.  If you see some inner light, get in that light and expand it to fill the inner dark void.  If you don't observe an inner void, instead "feel" for the I Am sensation and abide there.  The I Am sensation lies at the root of you as a human, the flowering of the Manifest Self of energies, bliss, seeing God within, surrender, and love.  

Just lying in the I Am long enough reveals the emptiness that underlies even the I Am sensation and identity.

This is where Robert Adams leads you and where Zen also leads you: a place of a silent mind with no words, no ideas, no judgments, no  opinions,  no shoulds, no fixed ideas about food, diet, sex, morality.

What is revealed then is unbelievable!

Guru-student love and sex

I have never studied with any teacher who was celibate, and most had sexual relations with their students. For the life of me, I cannot figure out why so many criticize such relationships as abusive, accusing the teacher of "humiliating abuses."  This is a kind of 1970s-style feminist position regarding the woman as being weak and vulnerable, taken advantage of by some lust-driven, power hungry male authority.

First, I object to looking at sex between a spiritual student and a teacher as being an abusive relationship, and that in consensual sex within such a relation that the woman is the victim of abuse. I experience that women  are well aware of their own sexuality and attractiveness such that they can beguile and manipulate even the strongest, self-assured male.  I see women as intelligent, very interpersonally aware, very centered, and quite manipulative in most relationships.

Secondly, no matter what your spiritual path, at some point you have to become aware of your energetic body, the so called Subtle Body, with its energies, flowing rivers of light, bliss and ecstasies, and totally alive with energies in order to bring joy to an otherwise barren practice of observing emptiness and loosening identification with the personal self.

Love and sex are a beautiful entryway into making the body come alive to its own Subtle Body underpinnings.  Not only sex, of course, but even moreso, romantic love.  One needs to awaken one's heart through love, whatever type it is, but nothing awakens the energetic body so much as romantic love and associated sex, especially when the love is so deep, and the sex so moving that one experiences orgasm in the brain and entire body, not just genital orgasms.  Most cannot imagine the energetic movement involved in such orgasms.

Then just ordinary conversations between such lovers leads to a completely open and surrendered heart such as one's own internal energies get intertwined "visibly" with those of your lover.  One actually "sees" rivers of light and energy flow between the couple in the most ecstatic wonder, such that both experience the presence of God, the divine existing separately from the couple, and to which both bow in abject surrender at the feet of the Life Force.

The Life Force, that energetic presence which is you deeper than the body, thrives in love, thrives in sexual union, demands unlimited sexual contact, loving touches, verbal touching, massage, etc.  Nothing is held back in the exploration of the other in divine union.

This is what spirituality has to awaken in you before their is a complete Self-Realization: a total awakening Shakti within you, and Shakti knows no boundaries, no rules of exclusion, no limits to her lust and desire, and in fact, generally it is the woman who carries the light of Shakti, and is the gatekeeper of Shakti, not the man, unless he is as open as is she.

Thus the ultimate awakening relationships are determined totally by how open each partner is to their own desires, lusts, energies and the life force, and finds someone as open as the other.  It is this openness that is important, not the presence of love, or sex.  The openness has to be total, allowing full access to all one's inner depths and even inner demons, and a full expression of those own's own depths to the other.

To me, someone who is that open should be that open to anyone else so capable.  If a teacher can give this grace, this opening to a student, so be it.  And if a student can bring this grace to a teacher, it is a great gift to both.

Only if you see and experience spirituality in this way can you possibly understand love and sexual relationships between a spiritual teacher and his or her students.

DOES ANYONE WANT TO HELP SPREAD ROBERT'S TEACHINGS?

Nisargadatta became accessible to many more people after Padeep Apta published the Nisargadatta Gita which is a compilation of all the paragraphs where Mahraj spoke of the I Am, or the I-Am sensation across 11 of his books edited by Jean Dunn, Robert Powell, Maurice Frydman and others.ion.

There were maybe 150 paragraphs where Maharaj spoke about the I Am sensation, the Self or Atman, and the Absolute or Witness.

Volunteers could do the same for Robert. But with Robert we have far more text than the 11 books by Nisargadatta.

The key topics for volunteers is to go through the transcripts and extract the paragraphs or sets of paragraphs on:

1. Emptiness/the Void/Silence

2. True nature/Satchitananda/Turiya

3. Self/Ataman

4. ego/mind

5. World as illusion/optical illusion/You do not exist

6. Brahman/parabrahman/Witness

7. Or pick your own favorite topic from the transcripts.

Each group of compiled paragraphs then needs to be edited and can be published.

Since these are only selections of paragraphs, there should be no problem with copyrights under copyright laws where short phrases or individual paragraphs are selected and compiled in order to build a better understanding of Robert's teachings.

No one would have to cover the entire 2,300 pages, but might select 1,000 or so and search on one topic.

This is an excellent way to study Robert's teachings more deeply.

INTRODUCTION TO ROBERT ADAMS

I'll tell you a secret. You cannot understand Robert using your mind, because ultimately his teachings are about what you and he are before the mind ads thinking, evaluating, judging. He ultimately speaks about what you are before the first thought arises.  Yet Robert talks endlessly.

I just did a word count on all of the transcripts posted on the Internet, about 2,300+ pages with an average word count of 600 words per page for a total of over 1,400,000 words.

During his talks Robert tells jokes, tells stories, talks about Ramana, Nisargadatta, Laksmanan, his own experiences in India and with his family.  He also speaks of many concepts that will be strange to beginners in spirituality.  He will talk about Satchitananda, AKA Existance-Knowledge-Bliss.  He will talk about Brahman, Self, non-existence, that you are not your body or mind, that you don't exist, emptiness, the Void, self-illumined Consciousness, bliss, self-realization, and many other things.

Once you seriously begin to observe yourself, look into your inner nature, feel into your sense of existence, all kinds of magical things begin to happen.  The things you will discover, the experiences you will have, are explained in words by the philosophies of Advaita Vedanta and Kashmir Shaivism.  These are two complicated philosophical systems used to explain the problems of life and death as experienced by sages thousands of years ago.

One can get a good understanding of what these concepts mean in systematized form by reading the books of Jan Esmann or Swami Shankarananda.  I recommend Shankarananda's "Consciousness is Everything" as an overview and synthesis for those who need to "feel" their way into Robert's teachings by getting many mouths full of "intellectual food" to help sate the hungry mind.

As Robert repeats over and over again, "Your mind is not your friend."  Indeed, for Robert the ultimate state is found in silence, no thought, no ideas, in complete rest, in complete motionlessness.  But this state is not easily acquired. The mind wants to place itself first and is always interrupting what you are doing with a question, a doubt, a song fragment, a memory, and so on, chattering endlessly.

You have to turn your attention inwards, towards your inner Self, towards the internal emptiness from which all thoughts, images, daydreams, songs, the ringing in your ears, come, and by so doing, you begin to open yourself to the wonder that you are, and states of bliss, peace, and understanding you would have never encountered unless you had followed Robert's guidance to turn within.  He'd say, ignore your body; you are not your body.  Ignore the world, it is not real.  What you see is the construct of your mind.  Your mind takes raw experience and creates a 3-dimensional interpreted world.  Robert asks you to ignore that external world because it is not real, it is a fiction created by your mind, and the only way to experience reality is by observing with a silent mind, not analyzing it, by observing with a very relaxed mind not intent on figuring out one's own experience.

In this way you begin to experience yourself and the world without the veil of ignorance created by all the inaccurate ideas you have about your self and the world.  You begin to experience the emptiness inside you, the Void.  You begin to see the Light of Consciousness illuminating that emptiness.  Ultimately you are trying to be in a perfectly resting state of mind in order to experience your own self and the world as they really are.

Thus you begin to walk a path from having a mind full of concepts, and turn within to see who you are with fresh eyes.  And thus proceding, wonderful new vistas open within you, opening you to bliss, to understanding, to long hidden emotional states, to emptiness, quietness, peace, etc.

All the states and experiences you will have on the way to complete silence and emptiness, is that which is described by the philosophies of Advaita Vedanta, Kashmir Shaivism, and Tantra.  States of bliss, energy, love, devotion, surrender, and then more bliss.  Finally, after a long period you come to rest in yourself, in utter peace, completeness, having witnessed and experienced all the truths of all philosophies and coming to rest in the truth of yourself which falls entirely outside of all those philosophies and ideas.

So, when you read Robert, do so with a mind as empty as possible, not trying to understand, analyze, memorize, etc., but with an open, receptive mind, an innocent mind.  If you read with a mind full of another teacher's teachings, you won't be able to understand Robert.

All spiritual philosophy that can be stated in words is totally false.

We do not live in words. We live in the world and our bodies. Even this is a lie. Even this is not true. It is said only to make a point that the map of thoughts is not the terrain of our experience.

To say all is Consciousness, Brahman, Shakti, One, Nowness, etc. conveys a point of view about our experience, and is simutaneously both a radical over simplification and over-complication. It adds a spiritual "truth" to experiences which have no truth value, either false or true.

Words twist and shape both our ideas about our experience and our experiences themselves as well, as they provide "meaning" for those attached to belief systems, whether religious (God, reincarnation, heaven, eternal life, Jesus, Buddha, etc.) which are myths of emotional convenience.

Words and concepts create categories of reality which are only conceptual, attempting to make sense of our experience.

Science too is just that. The theories create worlds of atoms, quasars, electrons, fission, black holes, entropy, etc. which are "convenient fictions" that help us arrange, order, and control other elements of our experience.

"Our experience" has at least two levels: Our experience without words, and our experience with words, concepts, beliefs, and emotional reactions flowing from these concepts and beliefs.

Almost all of spirituality is aimed at reframing your conceptual systems from whatever they were before contacting spiritual teachers/teachings, into the frame of the new teachings, whether of neo-Advaita, Advaita Vedanta, Kashmir Shaivism, Sufism, Buddhism, Christianity, Mohammedism, etc.), mostly for purposes of bringing a sense of security and peace to the converts.

Even the teachings of religions and spiritualities that direct attention to awareness of ourselves or to self-inquiry usually do it with some concept of what you will find when following their methods, such as the instructions of the Diamond Sutra, or of Nisargadatta, his teacher Siddharameshwar, Robert Adams, Ramana, Muktananda, Buddha, etc., who all promise that if you follow their methods of attention direction, you will find what they did, that you will experience what they did, such as "awakening, "enlightenment," "Nirvana," "Sahaj Samadhi," etc.

They all say you are deluded by wrong thinking, but following their methods, you will have the correct experiences, and correct meaning, freedom, enlightenment, etc.

But don't you see, they are all leading you down a path of just reframing your experience, and on a path towards Nirvana, Self-Realization, God-Realization, N0-thought, Choiceless Awareness, etc.

All methods of escape from the network of thoughts appear mostly to change emphasis and meaning within your network, and not to free you from the network as a whole.

Freedom from meaning, the network of thought, past experience, judgments, only come when thinking totally stops, or else one goes deeper into one's own experience than living in the map, rather than in experience before thought.

I call such a state moving one's center of consciousness out of the head into the heart or gut--both different experiences--from where the thinking mind, the network of thought, is experienced as just background chatter, and your awareness is of your own experience alone, not of your experience as interpreted or promised by others.

The way is easy to practice, but difficult to persist, because the mind always seeks assurances, security, and raises doubts, making moving your awareness to the heart or gut very difficult.

The easiest way is to "look" for and "feel" for the I Am sensation somewhere in your chest area, the so-called "spiritual heart" area. Find it. Dwell in it. Accept it. Love the I Am sensation, let it in your heart, swim in that sensation as much as possible.

That alone will work wonders. The sensation will grow, become a sense of presence of the energetic being you are, and everything you are will be experienced over time, until eventually all spiritual experiences, meanings, and thinking will end, and you will be your experience as it is before thinking. And you will find then the wonder that you are, experience you never dreamed of.

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AWARENESS VERSUS CONSCIOUSNESS

Nisargadatta sometimes made an artificial distinction between awareness and Consciousness, sometimes calling the distinction as Witness or the Absolute versus the Manifest, the world, or the body. I understand the why of that distinction because we all "appear" to experience a witness in our experience, witnessing our minds, thoughts, our bodies, and the world.

Nisargadatta posits the I Am sensation (not the I-thought) as being the intermediary between the Absolute and all appearances, and says we (the Witness, the doer) should rest our awareness on the I Am sensation as a focal point, and awareness will reveal the I Am sensation (and idea) to be the Self (the Atman or Manifest Self), which eventually will dissipate, leaving only One, where there no longer is an identification with the I Am, with the Self (Atman) or the experience of a separate Witness or Absolute. There no longer is any sense of separation, or even an I am everything experience; identification disappears.

Here one can say everything is Shakti, or Brahman, or Consciousness; the words used make no difference, because at this point you are no longer moving anywhere. You are everything, all motion, without desire, without any preferred direction or goal. You are unmoved and unmoving with absolutely no detachment or attachment to anything happening within or without, leaving one in the most exquisite state of subtle bliss, and utter, utter peace.

It is easy to say that there is no Self for someone who has not yet experienced his or her Self.  Those who claim there is no Self mostly have not experienced it.

Yes, there is a false kind of self consisting about all the ideas we have about ourselves, such as gender, age, occupation, family, human, etc., but if you look inside long enough, the emptiness you perceive washes away your identity with these identifications with ideas.

But if you "feel" inside for your sensee of self, your I Am sensation, and abide there for a long while, the Self will show itself to you and blow you away with its majestic presentation of energy and light, and you will never be the same.  Now you identify with the life force coursing through your body and sense of presence.

Slowly the identification with this manifest self of life, energy, and presence fades in silence, leaving just happiness and complete openess to all that occurs, within and without.  Then the Self is no more. 
What you are is sentience, awareness, enerrgy and light.

So anyone who says there is no Self should be asked, "What is your experience of you body and your self now?" If they simply say they do not experience a Self, what kind of teaching is that?  What is the value in that?  Unless they have experienced a sense of divine within, the light of Consciousness, the life force, what are they offering except freedom from identification with IDEAS of who you are, and not the extraordinary experience of your "divine" (seemingly, that is how it feels) Self, and within it the emptiness that permeates and contains all things.

Friday and Saturday I only felt relief at Bodhi's death; relief that he was no longer struggling to breath. Bodhi had been going downhill for the last year, but that accelerated during the past three months, and swiftly accelerated the last two days.

It is very difficult being with a dying friend you love so much, and constantly feel for.

And he has been a constant presence in our lives for 19 years, and now he is here no more. Despite all the other cats being here, to me the house feels empty, and I seek Bodhi's always accepting presence of silent strength.

Today I feel an almost crushing grief.

OUR BELOVED BODHI DIED YESTERDAY

Bodhi is best known for his photo with Robert's photo.  But Bodhi was unique.

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I first met Bodhi in September of 1997 when I was feeding a colony of feral cats near the beach in Santa Monica. Suddenly one day as I was feeding the seven remaining cats, a large kitten bounded into the place I was feeding them. He was definitely a kittne, maybe seven months old, large, happy, fearless and bounding with energy.

He integrated immediately with our other cats at the time, a very playful kitten, running and playing.

But as Bodhi grew older, he seemed to lose interest in the ther cats, and was just very quiet, loving to lie near me or Kerima.  He was a large cat, maybe 15 pounds.

Many times I thought he was Robert because Bodhi was born about the time Robert died in 1997, and as he grew older he had that same quiet depth that Robert had.  

For the last 4-1/2 years Bodhi had been suffering from kidney failure, which gradually worsened.  During the last several months we were giving him sub-Q fluids everyday, and gradually added other medications as his condition worsened.

He could barely walk at the end, getting out of his bed to go to his litter box 3 feet away, or to his water bowl just outside the box.

Daily we'd carry him to our enclosed patio to lie in the sun as long as he wanted.

But two days ago his breathing became labored, and his nose grew plugged with phlem.  He struggled to breath. We started him on anti-biotics.  By this time he had eaten nothing for three days.

Watching him struggle to walk, ignore food, fall over repeatedly, and then struggle to breath, broke my heart and Kerima's.  Michael was moved to by Bodhi's plaight and was of mixed mind to putting him down.

But finally we took him to his vet yesterday, because he was fighting to breath.  Al during the day I gave small doses of Buprenorphine to quiet his panic and make him rest easier.
The vet had set up the room especially for Bodhi like a little alter.  He was given an anesthetic to put him to sleep first, and about 10 minutes later the pink shot of 10X overdose to still his heart.

Kerima cried a lot, but I felt such releif for him. He no longer had to struggle just to breath.  But his loss is great for us. He was 19 years old when he died, and it is unusual for a cat to live so long.

I have always told you, my readers, the truth.

I speak about all aspects of spirituality, and especially against teachings that deaden you to your life by convincing you that the ego must die, that the real self is entirely untouched by life, humanity, and that one should steadfastly attempt to go beyond life.

I constantly talk about my own experiences and speak from them whether I am wrapped in extreme states of bliss or grief from the loss of a pet.

I speak from a place where emotions are to be embraced, not simply observed to rob them of their importance.

I always speak from a place of experiencing a vast, spacious emptiness that pervades my body and the world and is lighted by its own essence.

I never say to ignore the world or your feelings because they are temporary and impermanent.

Three years ago I was embraced by endless and continuous states of bliss, and that is what I spoke of, as well as my sense of presence, my energy body permeating my physical body and radiating into the surrounding space.

Now I speak more of the emptiness that pervades all phenomena including my body, my sense of presence, the light of consciousness, thoughts, and the external world, leaving me totally content as I am in whatever temporary state may be happening.

I argue against teachers who teach that continuous bliss is the end state and one needs to do chakra meditation, awaken the kundalini, do endless mantra, pranayama, and visualizations in order to pump up one's energies, or to transmute negative feelings into positive ones to "elevate" one's mood and energies.

For I have found even the Self is empty, and the empty Self is happiness.

The Void robs all teachings of any meaning, so the head no longer rules your life.  Your center of gravity sinks into your heart and gut, revealing the world and one's own self to be entirely different than you thought, and extremely peaceful.  And very, very deep.

Now you are totally open to whatever is, not needing to practice or pump yourself up through any method. Pumping up, trying to increase one's energies or bliss can become a kind of hell of spiritual progress that goes nowhere except for more bliss obscuring who you are.

Awareness 24/7

Ask anyone who claims to be aware 24/7 to describe that experience and they cannot, because the mind is absent in deep sleep, and it is the mind that articulates and explains experience. Robert never described his experience of being aware during sleep.

Generally what they say is what Ramana said. After you awake you are aware that you slept well. You "remember" being self-aware after you wake up and the mind can remember being aware of sleeping well (or poorly).
That is all.

But almost everyone has this experience, this knowledge.
So when someone tells you he is enlightened, awakened, or is aware 24/7, ask them to describe what they are talking about.

You will find almost without exception, that they merely repeat teachings offered by Ramana, Nisargadatta, Robert, etc., as their own, with the same arguments about Self, No-Self, no separatre self, non-dual, Now, oneness, or the Witness/Absolute.

Advaita teachings are the worst because their arguments are so mental rather than experiential. Advaita is easily turned into apparently logical arguments, as opposed to the experiential paths of Kundalini, chakra awakening, energy work, Tantra, etc., where you actually have to have numerous spiritual experiences of progressive opening.

THE MEANING OF ZEN

Zen is about two things: emptiness of phenomena and emptiness of concepts/words.

The emptiness of phenomena is perceived through inwardly directed attention. This can be any type of self-inquiry, such as looking for the I-thought, feeling for the I-Am sensation, watching thoughts to find the gap between them, witnessing emotions, or immersing in the experience of them. Anything that gets you to experience your insides, including being better grounded in body sensations is appropriate/

The emptiness of words and concepts is more difficult to "get" because it means the total destruction of the world you thought you lived in. This kind of emptiness is different from the experience of emptiness, even though one can experience thoughts themselves as dissolving in space, or arising from emptiness as little cloud-like entities.

The emptiness of words and concepts is realized when you truly understand the difference between experience and phenomena compared with the world created by one's network of thoughts. The world and self created by words is absolutely different from the world directly experienced when thought stops. The no-mind world is experientially rich while the world created by thought is very narrow and fixed in comparison. The world experienced thoughtlessly is very fluid and constantly changing, while the world of thought is as fixed as the is the duration of the meaning of the words used in describing that world.

Strangely though, when you are thoughtless, empty, you are as fluid and flowing as the world so that nothing appears to move as your awareness is everywhere at once, containing and flowing along with experience and events. Then one is total spontineity, utterly flowing, uncontained yourself, and 100% responsive to whatever arises.

The Zen koan system was devised to systematically destroy the thinking mind of Zen students by helping them find the "sticking points" of "wrong" concepts, which when seen through, releases you from its fixedness. You relax and sigh, feeling a sense of relief because your world as you experience it, is less contracted than before, and you are more open to experience the real world than before. This process is progressive until you cannot be fooled by word-created problems.

Unfortunately the koan system grew out of an ancient Chinese culture, and thus irrelevant to the modern West. Seung Sahn's remake for the West is really too simplistic and truncated to provide the freedom ancient Zen masters enjoyed.

In spirituality there are many words you have to find as empty of meaning, empty of any object being pointed to, and thus be free of spiritual philosophy in order to experience yourself and the world directly.

These words have to been clearly seen as having no referent, nothing like these concepts exist in the world.

These words are just labels while experiences are alive. flowing, changing. This is the hardest thing to accomplish because the entire network of thought has the whole of society, education, science standing behind its reality and adding new concepts and words every day.

THE WORDS AND CONCEPTS THAT MUST BE REALIZED AS EMPTY, WITHOUT IN ANY WAY HELPING US TO LIVE IN OUR BODIES OR THE WORLD ARE:

non-dual; oneness, One; enlightenment; awakening; I; I-thought; I-sensation; ego; identity; Beingness; Now; God; self; Self; mind; emptiness; Void; truth; love; emotions; Chi; Kundalini; Shakti; Kali. Just to name a few.

The word 'emptiness' in no way conveys the experience of emptiness or the experience of an empty mind. Words are only maps, and everyone, depending on their backgrounds, reads those maps differently, and we can never know whether the words spoken by Mr. X, means to him what they mean to me. It is only when the network of thought is absent that we can feel that two people sharing nearly the same place in space and time, are experiencing the same thing.

Just as a hint, some comedians are dead on in making us aware of our hidden beliefs, preconceptions, ideals, and political correctness. Zen masters and other teachers also bring out and destroy our preconceptions about Zen, spirituality, life and love. Each day they eat away at our network of beliefs, habits, and inflexibility.

Spiritual Benefits of Being Older

FROM STEVE:

Sri Edji, Thank you for your latest blog...it is very inspiring.
My view of this world is also changing. I know its a stage of consciousness and its getting to be fun. Even an oil change for the car today turned into an exciting experience. All the flowing 'energy' just came and went through my being...the waiting room has a total universe there and it came from deep inside and splashed all over that auto dealership.

The newspaper was there and it included tons of stuff so anyone reading it may experience all sorts of emotions...from elections to a local book sale. Newspapers just don't have any pull on me anymore and the mind is much, much, quieter so the words are just blah blah.
This underlying Purple River of Bliss is just constantly flowing through my Being and it is the only thing that commands any worthwhile attention.

Sometimes I feel like I am sitting in your warm comfortable chair with you looking at the lap top seeing how the devotees are doing.

Setting with Grace.

steve

My Response:

In my own case, it is a matter of age. I have done everything in life that I wanted to do in the external world. Combine that with 50 years of looking within, and you find someone who finds himself more fascinating than anything in the external world.

The saame with Steve. He is weathered and finds his own inner world more fascinating than the outside world.

This is what it takes. A complete reversal in the direction of awareness from outside to inside.

AND OH, WHAT WONDERS YOU WILL FIND.

And, depending on how you look within, feel wining, what methods and mediations you use, different things and experiences are found.

There are those who work on chakras with visulalizations and breaath, those who look for the I-thought, those who abide in the I-sensation, those who merely sit in silence.... Each is a separate path.

Those who wax eloquent about the absolute, the witness, the unchanging are missing the wonder and fascination of all the internal activities that abundantly manifest in kaleidoscopic patterns of ebbing and flowing energies, complete relaxation, bliss, and the happiness of knowing one's own Self.

Every breath--a wonder!  The simplest task a miracle!

Visitation

Once you gain deep entrance to your inner world, nothing remains the same.  The external world loses both its charm and its horror.  The inner world of emptiness, flowing energies, light, bliss, muscle and organ movements becomes far more interesting.  The inner world is filled with activity.  This is not like day dreaming with images, memories, and thoughts, a whole new realm of inner phenomena fill that inner space—the Void.

As your awareness deepens new things keep happening, from bliss that lasts days, weeks, or months, to the experience of inner aspects of your own sense of self.  For me, I first felt that I experienced God in me, as light and fantastic energies arising and expanding.  Then I saw the divine was really me.

Then I became the sentience coexistent with the entirety of existence, aware of the emptiness, aware of all things in the world; everything became me, and I became everything.

Then the process of identification dropped and there was no me, no world.  All that there was, was everything, inseparable, without time or thought.

Then strangely yesterday I had a visitor.  An energy being, who was me, appeared in me as a separate aspect of myself.  Before, I had felt this as God, and then as me.  But this time it was like a new being, a separate being with its own mind and energy, who wanted also to play in this body along with me who had no location.

It was subtle, was translucent, energetic, and made me so happy by its presence.

Of course it was me, but an aspect I had not seen before with its light and magical presence--dancing.

For the last 6 weeks I have had either Max or Michael taking care of me, which means I didn’t have to do much except sit in my easy chair and feel and observe within—almost continuously.

I can see why Robert never wanted to leave his rocking chair. The unfolding of the inner world that occurs in silence and residing in one’s inner world is enjoyable beyond belief.

AWAKENING TO EMPTINESS

Some have asked me what it was like to totally awaken to emptiness.

Rather than describe it, I'd rather share a metaphor.

Imagine being on a mountain in the middle of a desert on a cool spring night with no moon. You look upwards into the black, empty space, seeing countless stars, nebulae, and the Milky Way. Your breath is taken away by the vastness of space!

Then imagine the ground falls out from under you, yet you stay in one place, not falling. You look down, but no matter how hard you look, you can see nothing, just unending emptiness.

Your breath is taken again for now you are suspended alone in absolute infinite space in all directions, and momentarily you are gripped by fear, for there is no one but you, all alone.

Then you are aware that no thinking is taking place. The shock of being suspended in infinite space continues to leave you breathless, as if there were no atmosphere to support your life, and you do not need to breath. If you look within, instead of thoughts, images, self-talk, there is nothing--just empty space, absolute quiet, and no one to observe all this, yet observation is happening. There is no I within, no person, no self.

You are the vast, empty space that permeates all things, unbounded, no subject, no object, just the world, your body, and your mind permeated by emptiness. In it, all forms are empty, and emptiness is and contains all forms.

This is what the first awakening is like, awakening to emptiness, and it is what the neo-Advaitins try to describe as the totality of awakening, but which they themselves hardly ever experience. For most it is just an understanding.

This is baby enlightenment, the first step on a long, long journey of self-discovery and of unraveling one's false self and opening to the majesty of the infinite Self within.