Something happened this weekend--something wonderful.
I had a fight with someone I care for very much regarding my failure to trust her about her assessment of a situation. She walked away in an angry huff. A few days later we talked. Deeply!
Something happened. My heart opened up. I had this bizarre experience where it felt like I had invisible feelers emmanating directly from my heart reaching out into the world. But my mind created an image of these feelers and made them into tennacles, like something from a the science fiction movie, The Thing. Each seemed to have an independent motivation and each was "feeling" for something in the environment.
When I talked to her, it was from an entirely different viewpoint. I was "looking" into the world from my heart, not my eyes. I saw she had been entirely right about something I had missed. Then I realized I had already known the truth about the situation, but discounted it and tried to cover it over to in order to smooth the waters. She felt totally abandoned and incredulous that I had not even expressed as true what she knew to be true.
I would never have been consciously aware had this break not occurred. I did know it, but my mind discounted what it knew to be true and discounted why she should feel so strongly about something I saw as so small a thing.
But now I see so clearly. I now function from my heart as if it were the primary source of my knowing the world.
What a miracle!
I can now see truth with unerring accuracy. It feels like wisdom--at least about the human condition manifesting day to day, which is entirely different from walking into the absolute, or practicing self inquiry. However, it is very related to abiding in and loving the I Am. It is so powerful and so knowing, and if you befriend it, and have angels who point the way with you, it reveals a world of breathtaking clarity and wisdom.
This insight has nothing to do with the absolute, but purely about being a human in the world of humanity. I had missed so much, I was blind but now I see.
I still feel this opening, like a layer of defenses has been torn away from my imaginary body and I can "see" into the world in a new way, formerly covered by wishful thinking, conventionality and generally not paying attention.
I can also see clearly where I need to go, what I need to do. Defenses have been dropped, revealing this is but the beginning of yet another long journey.