The post below is from one of our male Satsang attendees and is a validation that men too can experience endless bliss and sexless orgasms as women seem to more easily do, arising from extreme devotional love combined with the energies of sexuality:
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Not far behind a Heart so flooded with Love, came a powerful Lust. No more repressing of Pain. No more repressing of Love. No more repressing of Lust.
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Not far behind a Heart so flooded with Love, came a powerful Lust. No more repressing of Pain. No more repressing of Love. No more repressing of Lust.
I hid myself away for 2 weeks fearing what I may do in public with this surging Lust. (I suppose I was kind of ashamed of being so unbearably horny). However, being alone with it was all too exhausting.
So exhausting not to send my attention out of my body into pornography, and send the Lust away with masturbation, but to feel the power of its urge for completion, reproduction, passion, heat, that strong longing for closeness of the body.
At some point of exhaustion I slept for 18 hours straight one day. When I awoke the Lust felt not like a burden to put up with any more, but a force of sheer vitality. Not an enemy of the 'right' way, but the honesty of the human way. Not something to be ashamed of, but to be embraced as the power that desires to live and to create life.
I was overheated, I had to go out to the cold morning air to breathe. Utterly refreshing. The air made my whole body tingle like peppermint to the tongue. I greeted my neighbor with a wave before recognizing that a stiff member had pitched a tent in my pants, visibly saluting her too from beneath the cotton... Slumber Lumber! A situation that may have embarrassed me nearly to death before seemed so natural that I laughed it off with no real shame at all.
The lust no longer felt focused in the groin, but brought life to the whole body. Or even, that it IS the life in the whole body. What could be shameful about it?
It is supplementing the grandness of Love with a distinct and vibrant sharpness.
Somehow each day I am met with opportunities to help people, in such small ways, maybe ways I had not noticed before, but now they are all over the place. They come naturally, and I naturally respond to them, there is no sense of who is helping who, only what must be done.
I seem to often be in the right place at just the right time to be of service.
During or shortly after these events I am having what I can only really describe as Heart Orgasms. It is the same feeling of internal energy rising to a pointed threshold, then intense completion, followed by extreme relaxation and euphoria afterwards. Only this feeling is happening not with the genitals, but with the whole body, centering in the Heart.
Like the energy in the body is rising, peaking in the Heart, exploding like a firework of Love energy and cascading out with an all pervading euphoria that is extremely calming and satisfying.
Selfless deeds seem to be the Porn for my Heart. This rising of energy seems to be happening often. It will rise to the edge, clutch the Heart and relax. Rise closer to the edge, clutch tighter and relax again. Like it is always inching towards that euphoria, then backing off. It is mostly entertaining, and sometimes quite agonizing, but an entertaining agony at least.
I am vibrant and giddy much of the time, feeling the energy of youthful lust and attraction swirling in my stomach like dancing butterflies and billowing up into my Heart like smoke from a smoldering fire.
It does not want to drag me into indulgence of evil ways or away from the spiritual path like I once imagined. This energy is energy. Like gusting wind and flowing water can be destructive, but also can be respected and channeled as a source of great natural power. This is the innate power of living.
I once feared the insatiability of Lust, yet if perceived as a power source, the attribute of insatiability makes for an unending well of recurring power. The Power of Creation. The Well of Life. The Fountain of Youth.
So I do not run from the wind or torrent anymore, I do not hide from it or oppose it. Just as I leaned into the discomfort of Love to have it explode in me, I put up my sails, set up my water mill or windmill, throw up my kite, spread my wings, let it blow or flow as my own innate and ever abundant source of generating the immense power of creation. The Miracle of Life itself.
The Miracle Is Life Itself.
I do not know how your words got my attention. How Angela got me hooked in Satsang. Or how your teaching has reeled me closer and closer to these blissful and powerful energies. But I am grateful every day for whatever has brought me here (To Satsang), that same energy that moves you to speak the words that are like bread crumbs to me, leading to my own Humanity, my own Heart, and my own Soul.
Thank you Ed! and that which moves you.
I am so happy to be in this place, at this time, to be in your digital presence weekly, feel your Love, resonate with the tone of your teachings and everyone at Satsangs.
So happy to be alive.
Thank you, thank you, thank you, for receiving, honestly feeling and transmuting all of the energies of despair, doubt and pain that are sent to you and emitting such a powerfully Loving essence.
My Lust empowered Love to you Ed.
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Ed I feel more natural than ever.
I don't think things through much anymore, which has dissolved much of my anxiety, and made life much more interesting.
I get into strange situations, meet wonderfully strange people, and come off as a strange joyful simpleton.
It has been a long time that I have been ashamed of sexual urges. Now I feel like the honest jester of them.
It is all so funny, this sex thing is pure empowerment waiting to be unleashed. AND "SEX" ISN'T EVEN REQUIRED!
Love brought my Heart to Life.
Ed I feel more natural than ever.
I feel the freedom to be natural.
I don't think things through much anymore, which has dissolved much of my anxiety, and made life much more interesting.
I get into strange situations, meet wonderfully strange people, and come off as a strange joyful simpleton, and it is not only the cat's ass...
It has been a long time that I have been ashamed of sexual urges. Now I feel like the honest jester of them.
It is all so funny, this sex thing is pure empowerment waiting to be unleashed. AND "SEX" ISN'T EVEN REQUIRED!
Love brought my Heart to Life.
Lust has brought my groin, my mojo, and in turn, the rest of my body to Life.
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