Self-Knowledge and Self-Realization

I know by the comments I get when I talk about the ecstasies, bliss, or sexual feelings that SOME people begin to feel as their practice deepens, that there still is so much negative conditioning wrapped around spirituality, God, meditation, Guru and sex. Sex and ecstatic feelings are frowned on is so many ways by all societies because they break barriers and breach boundaries of propriety and conditioning.


You see, the more you get out of your mind and obsessive holding on to the outer world, the more your attention descends into your body, the more sensitive you get to inner phenomena that were always there but you were not ever aware of.  A whole new world of inner energies, bliss, ecstasies, sexuality, love, and inner flowing of emotions suddenly present themselves center stage.


Along with opening one's inner awareness, especially of the rich life of the Subtle Body, one becomes aware so much more deeply of the energetic and beingness aspects of others.  One--not everyone, but for many--begins feeling the inner states and emotions of others around you, such that when you touch an emotion in them, you also touch it in yourself.  Sometimes you discover new phenomena within others which leads you to finding them within oneself. This is true empathy.  After a while all ability to hurt others disappears.  You will not be able to hurt a fly.  This does not mean others won't feel pain around you because of what you say or do, but it will be their's, due to their conditioning and needs, not because of ill-intent on your part.


It happened to me and it is happening to many of my students.  I have many empathic students open deeply to their own inner worlds, energy phenomena, love that flows like a river upwards from their feet, into their guts, then to the heart, through the throat into the head, which fills them with flowing bliss which transmutes into static ecstatic states followed by varying forms of Samadhi and emptiness.  I have six such students that I know about, and probably many I am not aware of. A large percentage of students who attend Satsang feel these energies and love, or the Void during and immediately after Satsang before the experiences fade away. The more frequently you have these experiences, the easier it becomes to have them.


I can feel each of these people within my own sense of presence once I turn my attention to them, and they, I.  When we get together, we can feel the ecstatic embrace of the others, and it is sort of amplified.  True, these are only experiences, but as the experiences mature, one recognizes that these experiences are signs of the arising dominance of our own SELF emerging from the depths of Turiya and deeper "states," coming up into ordinary, everyday consciousness.


As you can see, the neo Advaitins know nothing of this. They mostly talk just of "Beingness" without distinguishing its various colors and guises.


During Satsang I feel these energies pass through me very strongly and many people at Satsang say they go unconscious or experience something else. As a matter of fact, I really was not aware of most of these energy phenomena until Satsang attendees told me about their experiences, or in direct conversations with students about how they felt me during various times of the day. It is only during the past two years that I have learned to be aware of and to a degree, control these inner phenomena.  All this stuff was going on before that, the Shakti of Robert and Ramana's lineage was playing through me, but I was not aware of it until 2002 or 2003.


These sorts of experiences happened around Robert also; people went into "trances" of varying sorts, and went "away" into the Causal Body of forgetfullness, or deeper into the Self itself. This happened with some people when they went to lunch with him.  They just froze and went into trances for hours. One such person was Michi, who moved with him to Sedona.  Probably another woman named Samantha.  Whenever I was with Robert, I was useless the rest of the day, and just had to sleep off the tremendous energies that moved through me.


So, those who have not yet experienced all the love, ecstatic and sexualized experiences may laugh at them, it is only because you have not experienced them YET.  Ditto with emptiness and the profound peace of silence, whether is is the Background Void that one deliberately falls back into when falling into the  Witness, or the visual Void, that is illuminated by its own light from withion and which encompasses everything, or the dark Void of the Causal Body, of unknowing, unknowledge.


While these experiences can become a distraction and an indulgence, they also tend to spur on further effort, attachment to the unfolding process, and to increasing feelings of love and well being that are markers of the Big I emerging and swallowing the small I. Yet even after self-realization, there is a long way to go.


There is so much that is new in your inner world once the attention begins to sink below the mind.