NO SATSANG TODAY. I HAVE TO THINK OVER AND PONDER SOME THINGS DEEPLY REGARDING BEING A TEACHER.
The field is so very crowded with teachings and teachers that often it feels pointless because it is too confusing for seekers. Why add to the confusion?
And the teachers don't want to communicate with each other, or debate with each other, or defend their teachings as was so common a thousand years ago.
Few teachers are very nuanced and offer very simplistic teachings and most students want something easy to grasp, like basic Nisargadatta, basic Ramana, basic Tolle, etc.
And most teachers discount the Manifest I as illusion, but to me it boils with energy and bliss.
So I have to ponder what to do.
I will never abandon my current students who have stuck with me so long, but I have seen so many students come professing great love, commitment, attachment, etc., only to run away in a flash of anger of unknown origin and I am tired by the constant sense of loss.