SELF-INQUIRY
IS NOT 100 YARD DASH. It is a long, long Ironman race. To get out of the stream
of thought, the center of your consciousness has to be deeper inside of
yourself than thought.
You
have to move your center of attention into the empty awareness inside of your
body to the heart chakra or below.
Spend
time there. Look within. Somewhere near your heart resides for most people the
sense of self, first found as a spark of energy. Attend to it. Over period of
days, weeks and months, this sensation will grow into a complete sense of
presence totally within, through and extending outside of your body, like a
total capacitance or electrical field of some sort.
By attending to the totality of that sense of
presence, one feels the empty space within, and can move your center of
consciousness downwards from the brain and head area closer to the heart or in
the region of the gut.
This takes one into a deeper emptiness, and at
this center of consciousness, the flow of thoughts don't touch you anymore. It
appears to be above you and in space like a constant chattering radio station
which does not interest you at all because you are no longer immersed in the
field of thought.
You never try to stop the thought, because
that is the will, which is located at the level of mine still, in the head, in
the brain and will just face an impossible fight with itself. Instead, just
ignore the thoughts and concentrate on the IM sensation somewhere inside of
your chest or lower, and fixate on it. Fixation and attending to it, and
attempting to merge with it, gives it energy and makes it grow into one sense
of presence. When that sense of presence is complete, you have a whole new
concept of who and what you are, because you recognize you are not the body,
nor the mind, but that sense of presence, that ecstatic state of flowing
energies within, consciousness itself. This is your first step. Your first
major step.
Ed, why are you always talking about moving attention down to chest, heart, gut, etc. Isn't this moving attention "down somewhere" just thinking?
ReplyDeleteThinking is just thoughts. I am asking you, as consciousness, to change the center of your attention. Just try it.
ReplyDeleteI used to totally feel me behind my eyes, between my ears, and I felt stuck there except for isolated events here and there like getting knocked out or having drunk too much alcohol let me know that there are other possibillities. After some sort of a spiritual experience that me kind of got loose and seemed not concentrated to any point. At that point was where I came to Edji. Since then I have been searching my heart area as much as I can and am finding more and more there in my heart area, (still nothing like some of the reports I read here yet.) Perhaps it is "just thinking," but I never thought like this before and it is good.
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