Available now for download, dialogs with students regarding the Bhakti-way over the past six months.
http://www.scribd.com/doc/71152454/The-Trip-Back-Into-Emotions-and-Humanhood-June-Nov2011-Edji-Blog-Collection
Realizing the Manifest Self--the Life Force permeating our humanity--and the Unmanifest source from which it arises.
Ed, thanks so much for this, what a great read.
ReplyDeleteAbout 5 or 6 days ago I randomly picked up my copy of the Nisargadatta Gita, I had not referenced it for several months. Wow! It was like I had never read it before. Within in a couple of days of sitting meditatively with the verses I read I noticed a more isolated sense of 'presence/beingness/I Am' than ever. To me it felt more like the face of God with a more frontal view rather than a profile, or the tender attention of Mother Consciousness turning away from her duties and finally noticing her offspring. I intuitively knew that this was the time to nurture and give attention to that which seemed to be nurturing and giving attention to me.
For weeks up til this point I had been crying out for grace to come and present itself in such a way that I could feel assisted. With so much emotional turmoil, so much brokenness being experienced and intensifying daily, I felt like all the effort was mine to make and I was getting very weary.
After several days of returning again and again and again to this feeling 'I Am' - not I am this or I am that, but just 'I AM'; it dawned on me that this feeling 'I Am' is the same as feeling Love. That Love that has moved from a somewhat gross state to a deeper, more subtle state, which carries a hint of sweetness to it. I was in the shower at the time and said out loud, "OMG, its the same thing, it feels just like the Love I experience."
Many people speak of experiencing Love as a result of knowing this sense of 'I Am'. For me it has been the exact opposite. The 'I AM' has become more noticeable and recognizeable as a result of experiencing intense Love for another.
It really doesn't matter how any of this plays out. There are as many paths to God as there are individual breaths. The main thing, at least for this one, is to trust the apparent process that is so obviously playing out for my good, and not stall it or undermine it by comparing to others - which is a weakness of mine. I have a tendency to think that others are always doing better, but when I think about it, what the hell would 'better' look like?
With Love and Gratitude to you Ed, and to all of you who knowingly and unknowingly have given me and will continue to give me plenty of opportunities to be cooked.
Joan
Yes Joan, perfect!!! Perfect!
ReplyDeleteJoan,
ReplyDeleteBeautifully expressed!
Love,
Janet B.
Dear Joan,
ReplyDeleteYour fragrance is of great power to our Sangha.
Sitting this morning I contemplate your words:
"After several days of returning again and again and again to this feeling 'I Am' - not I am this or I am that, but just 'I AM'; it dawned on me that this feeling 'I Am' is the same as feeling Love. That Love that has moved from a somewhat gross state to a deeper, more subtle state, which carries a hint of sweetness to it."
For sure, You are miles ahead :).
Ohm Namah Sadguru Parabrahman!