THE UNIMAGINABLE JOURNEY

It is so very, very easy to have spiritual discussions after reading dozens of spiritual books and doing some but of meditation.  But it is so hard to find students that really want to dive deeply into spirituality, but so few are able to let go of all their learning, and become spiritually stupid, or empty.

 When I speak about the emptiness that I experience, the Void.  Very few who listen have either seen or felt the inner emptiness, the inner space that interpenetrates all objects or mind, all feelings, all energies, and bliss.  Nor have they seen the light of Consciousness that illumines my inner world.

        Nor do they know about their own sense of presence, because for most, it is only a concept, not a direct, ongoing experience.

       Most have no idea about the I Am sensation, let alone experience it.  Nor after years of abiding there know the difference between I as the observer, and the sense of presence as the I Amness.

Fewer still now that everything that is, is consciousness.  All that we ever know is known through our minds and senses; thus all that we know is consciousness, its properties and its objects.

Many more experience the fires of consciousness, Shakti, Kundalini, bliss, or see flowing patterns of multicolored light flowing in and around the heart to various parts of their bodies. Few have learned how to eat emotions, by accepting them, abiding in them, then bring them into your most intimate heart-sense, and thereby integrating them into your sense of presence in a flash of bliss that might last a day of being unable to move because of the depth of bliss.  They call this aspect of Self the divine feminine, but all sentient creatures have its manifestation potentially within.

         Nor does more than a very few the difference between consciousness and awareness, where awareness is consciousness of being aware of awareness, and that being conscious of awareness gives you access to the deepest level of the Manifest Self, the ultimate first person, which Ramakant calls “The Selfless Self.”  The Selfless Self, is the ultimate first person, the primary knower, the hearer, watcher, and primary intelligence directing attention.  It is the executive functioning of all that is in consciousness.

Beyond all this is the Unmanifest Self, the noumenal, non-existent self of Nothingness, potential, from which the Manifest Self springs.

        When I speak to all these levels—and there are many, many more—there are so few who can listen.  They think I am mad, living in my mind or imagined inner worlds.  But these are as clear to me as is the experience of being in a powerful muscle car is for the average male teenager.

What a tremendous journey one steps into when they stop reading about spirituality and instead plunge into spirituality through intense and long meditation, self-inquiry, pondering the meaning of each experience and deepening each by attending within.  But it takes fearlessness to let go of the world and plunge within.  It take commitment to continue when nothing seems to happen.  And it takes—most of all—persistence, and that comes when you realize that there is nothing in the external world for you.  For me, it was not a recognition that I had given it up, but actually knowing that in my disinterest, the world lost interest in me.  It gave me freedom and helped me along in my inner journey.