There
is far more to a guru than the spiritual experiences he or she has had and the
interpretations given to them.
There
are so many spiritual experiences that everyone has during a lifetime of seeking, ranging from the
spectacular, but meaningless, to the usual crowd of experiences that most
everyone has over many years of training: various sorts of inner emptinesses or
Voids in one’s inner, subjective world, bliss experiences, awareness of one’s
sense of presence as being separate from the body, various kinds of love
experiences of Consciousness itself as well as of objects, experiences of God,
awareness of flowing energies within, sometimes with attending colors and
emotions, devotional experiences, surrender experiences, initiation and Shaktipat
experiences, etc.
In
my traditions, Self-Realization experiences of two sorts, of the manifest self
of an embodied, energetic being with a full range of affect and humanity,
associated with a divine aspect of witnessing the dynamic power core of the
universe which is the divine.
Then
there is the realization of the Self as beyond Consciousness, the Absolute, the
Witness, ParaBrahman, untouched by anything in Consciousness, beyond even
immortality.
Then
there is the Self-Realization of Zen, as a human being immersed in the world as
an energetic being in existence, but also being a “man of no rank,” untouched
by the world, untouched even by love or death, totally at home with his or her
life, no matter how mundane or outwardly grand.
THERE
ARE ALL THESE KINDS OF EXPEIENCES A GURU OR TEACHER MAY HAVE, BUT THERE IS MUCH
MORE TO THEM THAN JUST THEIR SPIRITUAL EXPERIENCES. THERE ARE THE
INTERPRETATIONS AND EXPLANATIONS THEY GIVE THESE EXPERIENCES. THIS IS THE
ATTENDING PHILOSOPHY THAT EXPLAINS WHAT THEY MEAN.
There
also are the methods he or she uses to bring their students to realization of
their realization, ranging from an infinite number of meditations and techniques,
from the Just Sitting of Soto Zen, to the Koans of Rinzai Zen, to Vipassana of
the Theravadins, to the meditations on the various kinds of emptiness of some
Tibetan schools.
Other
teachers focus on the energy body, or Subtle Body awakening the internal flows
of energy and visualizations, Kundalini, the use of love of the Guru or another
as an awakening device.
The
more experienced teachers use “cooking,” to help awakening students by
frustrating them, or acting in ways contrary to their deep beliefs as to how
awakened being should act, or by exposing their inner conflicts, rage, anger,
jealousy, and pride that prevent their free-flowing manifestation. There are so MANY people posing as teachers
or healers that have not been cooked enough.
They remain fragilely self-defended, and ill at ease with themselves.
Lastly,
the Guru is much more than any and all of these. He or she brings 30, 40 and even 60 years of
training to the table in his role as spiritual teacher with students.
There
are so many current “teachers” who have
had a couple of awakening experiences and immediately become teachers,
traveling the world with tip of the iceberg awakening experiences, and
extremely shallow understandings of various spiritual states, the human mind,
and of human emotions. I am talking
about the entire current crop of spiritual teachers who have had five or ten
years of self-inquiry, or have had a few experiences, and set themselves up as
teachers.
You
see, a real guru is someone who has actively explored his or her beingness for
30 years or more and who has studied under one teacher for many years, and who
has met and studied under many other teachers.
This
person has seen it all, so to speak, and embraces spirituality as a life-style,
not just one or more awakening experience.
This
person has lived with and seen Gurus, great and not so great, famous and not so
famous, and has no illusions about how a Guru will or should act.
The
teacher has been cooked by many gurus and has penetrated at least one tradition
very deeply as a devotee, a student open to learning, and who has interacted with
hundreds or thousands of other seekers through the years, practiced decades of
meditation, chanting and Mantras, Kriya Yoga, pranayama and other yogic
practices. He or she is not stuck in the
after effects of a single awakening experience, but has had many large
awakenings, and maybe dozens or hundreds of small awakenings.
This
teacher is recognized by a teacher by masters because of his or her stability,
seasoning, ability to tolerate disasters and munificence equally. He or she may
be legendary of outbreaks of rage, such as Muktananda, and to a degree, Seung
Sahn Soen Sah, or a paradigm of calm acceptance of whatever arises, like Thich
Thien-An.
What
they have that is different from lesser teachers is a long lifetime of
experience dealing with other teachers, other traditions, and with hundreds if
not thousands of students.
It
is rare to be able to study under someone like this, like Robert Adams with 55
years of post-awakening experiences and 17 years of traveling in India studying
under dozens of other masters.
It
is rare to be able to study under a Maezumi with 40 or 50 years of study and
practice as a sixth generation Zen master in his own family.
It
is rare to get close to a great teacher like Muktananda who was a master of
cooking thousands of students and awakening them with Shaktipat and other
methods.
Being
with a master is not only with a person who can help you “awakening” to aspects
of who and what you are, but who can provide exposure to an entire lifestyle of
living. A Guru is not only someone who
can help you discover yourself, but also gives you a way of living and being
with others that is entirely different form a conventional life: a Guru also
gives a lifestyle model, whether you totally accept it or not, a lifestyle of
self-assured, grounded, manifestations of the power of a realized, embodied
living truth of a tradition.
So
many of the new teachers never had a teacher, they just read books and “realized”
who they were from books or a chance exposure to one or two teachers. They have
not been cooked or tested. They have not
been stressed by a teacher to their limits and beyond. They have not had their “realizations”
matured by adding decades of life and teaching experiences. Some of these older teachers never trained
under teachers, feel their life experiences along with their own, solipsistic
cogitations, make them a guru, although they avoid that label like the plague.
If
I were to choose a teacher though, and just beginning, I would pick someone at
least 50 years old who has had at least 30 years on the path, and who is
well-received by other mature teachers.
Then stay with that teacher a long while. Imbibe everything. Soak up what he or she has to offer before
moving away. Don’t waste your time with
immature and self-proclaimed teachers unless you accept them only like you
would a college instructor, as someone just a step or two ahead of you.
Real
teachers may be very hard to live with because they constantly expose things in
you that you are terrified to see: rage, fear of annihilation and death of
self, jealousy, vulnerability, feeling clumsy and inept. All these things you will feel around a good
teacher, one who presses you, tests you, fries you in your own arrogance and
self-proclaimed specialness.
Do
you have the courage? Good luck!
But how do these fall away? Suppose I got exposed to fear, jealousy etc. But they don't fall away, and there is constant burning in gut for few years. It blocks the flow of love, it immobilises you to an extent when its hard to breath..... you become so self-conscious that even sleep does not take it away..... suffering at its most....
ReplyDelete......I'm lead to believe that awakening plants you on first base. Then the long road of stabilization and understanding starts. Is that more or less what you and others have been through?
ReplyDeleteArvydas, it is not enough to tolerate your suffering, you need to accept it, love it, taste it fully, completely. With that you grow stronger. Then it will pass. Then something else will come up, a new test.
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