12 March 2013

Lakshmi Dies.

I got Lakshmi during September, 2008.  She was living in a small tree in front of a house across the street from a school yard.  I had been feeding her since about May, 2008. She was very thin, but began gaining weight immediately.

During September 2008 I decided to bring her home.

By November she stopped eating altogether.  I took her to our vet who eventually performed extensive exploratory surgery which discovered cancer had spread to lymph nodes throughout her body. A biopsy at the time discovered deformed white cells and cancer in the lymph nodes.

I took her to an oncologist in December 2008, who diagnosed intestinal lymphoma and put her on Prednisone and Leukeran, a chemotherapy agent.  She died today after 51 months on Leukeran, which ties the record for longevity on that agent.

In the meantime, she developed stomatitis, a severe inflammation of the mouth and gums of unknown causation.  After fighting it for a year, she stopped eating altogether during January of last year.  At that point we had a feeding tube put in directly into her stomach through her stomach wall.

Then two weeks ago she was diagnosed with diabetes. She was down to 5 lbs., 11 oz, from her original weight of 8 lbs, 8 oz. She was so weak she could barely take 8 steps.  The last 3 days she could no longer jump up on my chair.  She was getting so feeble her hind feet got caught in the dress she wore to protect the stomach tube and she wet all over herself. Some days she would just poop on the floor where she lay and not move away.

Today, I could see she was ready to go.  The vet said to give her up to two weeks to see if she got any better on insulin; instead, she got worse.

So today I took Lakshmi to our vet, Dan Reimer, at Adler Pet Hospital, accompanied by Deeya, who took two photos. for Lakshmi's devotees.

Lakshmi had the most beautiful death imaginable.  She was placed on a very large folded towel for comfort.

First Dr. Reimer gave her an anesthetic to make her go to sleep in about 5 minutes, and then into a very deep sleep.  I was looking her in the eyes the entire time she went to sleep and was asleep. 

Five minutes later he and an assistant came in, shaved her left rear thigh and injected about 1 cc of whatever he used for euthanasia.

She was pronounced dead a few minutes. 

She was utterly peaceful throughout the whole process, totally surrendered and ready for death.

Both Deeya and I cried at several points during the process, but Lakshmi was entirely at peace and in no pain.  She will be cremated and join her 12 other brothers and sisters on our fireplace.


  1. Speechless but not tearless.

    With Great Love,


  2. Ed,

    We are so sorry to hear about Lakshmi and the two pictures here make us feel really sad for you. We hope you are ok and we love you.

    Haley, Sarah, Grant, Madison, and Ethan.

  3. Sorry, Edji. My love goes to both of you.

  4. 'so sad for you and your beloved kitty Lakshmi - sending you Love and thank you for sharing I am glad go know lovely Deeya was by your side ...

    much love Maggie

  5. Precious little creature! It was always sweet to see Lakshmi in your lap during satsangs. Each one is unique and irreplaceable. My heart goes out to you, Edji.


  6. I'm sorry for your loss, Ed.
    The image of your grieving is a profound lesson in itself.
    My love to you and blessings to all your loved ones.


  7. Best wishes to you Edji,

    You provide us with such a good model for when the day comes our beloved Chauncey must go. And with such respect for all life.

    Love, Ron

  8. Ed, I am so sorry to hear about Lakshmi, I know how much you love her! Your grief is apparent in the photos. I feel for you and wish you the best.



  9. Huggs Edji...I know the pain that one goes through when a loved one passes on.... Sure, that Lakshmi has gone to His abode...


  10. Reading this Edji reminds me of that grief that perhaps most of us here have felt at some time or other for a loved one. I am glad that you and Lakshmi shared some wonderful times together and that you work to alleviate the suffering of many animals. Your love in this regard is truly appreciated I feel.

    Much love

    Mark UK

  11. Ed, i can identify. it sounds as if her passing was as comfortable as anyone could wish for.

    "Imagine a blind turtle, roaming the depths of an ocean the size of the universe. Up above floats a wooden ring, tossed to and fro on the waves. Every hundred years the turtle comes, once, to the surface. To be born a human being is said by Buddhists to be more difficult than for the turtle to surface accidentally with its head poking through the wooden ring. And even among those who have a human birth, it is said, those who have the great fortune to make a connection with the teachings are rare; and those who really take them to heart and embody them in their actions even rarer, as rare, in fact, 'as stars in broad daylight'."

    she was exceptionally fortunate to have found her way into your life - and that you were able to provide the depthless care she needed.

  12. I like so much what you are saying ! ....Thank a lot Dan !
    Much love