19 September 2011

An interview with 
Jean Dunn

Jean Dunn
A Bombay restaurant
19th February 1981
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Now to start the move Northwards, my work here apparently finished. But at the Bombay station there seems to be little chance of getting on the Rajdhani Express to Delhi — unless there are last minute reservation cancellations. I had arrived at the station in good time to beg my case; it looks hopeless. I wait two hours until the train pulls out, only to find that the night train is also full and that also has a waiting list for cancellations. The official tells me to try again in three hours. I leave my luggage in the baggage room and keep the small case with the recorder and camera.
Stations all over the world are frenetic places; I look for a bookshop as I would like to buy Nisargadatta Maharaj’s book: I am That. Nisargadatta was on my list for an Interview here in Bombay, but everyone has been telling me he’s too ill to see anybody.
I ask a taxi-driver for the nearest bookshop; he says there’s one in Grant Road, five minutes away. Grant Road? I look through my address book — Yes — this is near Nisargadatta’s place! What can I lose as I have so much time to spare?
As I arrive, someone is running down the dilapidated stairway — this isn’t one of the better parts of Bombay.
Yes, yes — Maharaj is up there, he tells me, go straight in.
I find a small gathering at the feet of a simply clad very ill-looking man of about 80. The room is tiny but I manage to sit down on the floor. Nisargadatta is an Advaita Master who has a small but devoted following. He is looking hard at me but appears to be in too much pain to speak. The man I met on the stairs comes rushing back saying: My wife says it’s all right to take the extra dose. This is brought; within a few minutes the pain seems to have receded.
Nisargadatta keeps looking at me, and then through an interpreter — he speaks no English — asks why I have come.
Why have I come? I say: For your darshan.
More silence. He asks why.
I now explain that I had wanted to take an Interview from one of his Western followers but am now on my way to Delhi.
He says: Jean Dunn will give the Interview.
There is some confusion, she isn’t here – not until tomorrow. I begin to understand why I can’t get out of Bombay. I will have to stay – must stay for this Interview.
Maharaj is brighter now and says: Ask a question!
I reply: In front of the saints one can only ask for grace.
This doesn’t impress him. He lets it pass. There is no other talk. We bow and disperse down the staircase.
The man I met as I arrived speaks to me. He says:
If you have nowhere to stay the night you are welcome to a room at my place.
In the taxi he explains it is his first visit to Nisargadatta, his wife is a devotee. I am so moved; here I am being looked after by a stranger. By the time we reach his apartment I learn he is the cousin of my landlord in Rajpur where I lived for six years, and his wife is a doctor and it was she who had advised by phone the extra dose of whatever Nisargadatta takes to relieve his pain.
But even more extraordinary, he explains that he is the chief engineer of Western Railways here in Bombay, which means, he assures me, he can get me a reservation on any train to Delhi!
We talk late into the early hours about the life of the spirit; he wants to hear about my travels, about the gurus I have met, about my own guru. Here is a wonderful example of a devotee living in the world, carrying out his worldly duties, but with his inner attention fixed. I have met many such persons in India. In the West, as we would take up a hobby and pursue it with passion, here there are enthusiasts who give all their spare time to developing the inner spiritual life.

In the morning I am taken to Nisargadatta’s minute house; I am to pick up my reservation on the night train at Mr. Malik’s office at the station later. Upstairs there is the same small gathering, but now Jean Dunn is present.
Nisargadatta seems to be better, so much so that he begins by attacking me:
Why are you writing this book?
I try to explain.
Do you think — he yells — that you will succeed where others have failed?
I say the outcome is not in my hands.
He makes dramatic, hostile gestures with his arms. He wants me to ask questions.
I repeat what I said yesterday…one can only ask for Grace.
There is more yelling. His disciples laugh. I keep silence but am extremely surprised, uncomfortable.
He shouts: Say something!
The power — I reply — that brought me here yesterday appears to be turning me away this morning.
He is now laughing at me.
Someone then asks Nisargadatta a question.
He replies. I am hoping the provocation-scene has passed and I am spared more embarrassment.
There’s a brief pause, but then he comes back to me again:
What did you make of the answer?
I have been thrown into the most unexpected of situations. What can I make of anything now?
I reply: My intellect is telling me that what you have said must be right, but as I haven’t attained enlightenment it is still a concept.
I am deeply disconcerted. I try a weak reply by saying:
I am begining to think it is probably far better to be shouted at by an enlightened person than to be ignored by him.
He manages a quarter smile, waves his hand, we all rise, bow and struggle down the narrow staircase.
I am desperately trying to disappear, evaporate as quickly as possible. I am physically very very tired…this is not the perfect time to have to cope with Sufi-Zen situations.
But Jean Dunn is behind me, and to add to my bewilderment says:
We’ll go round the corner, I know a quiet restaurant where we can do the Interview (she must be - MUST BE - joking!).
No, no, he wants us to do it — it’s only his way, just follow me!
Only his way? I still can’t believe what is happening. I need time to reflect on what has just taken place, probably of more significance than I am able to even begin to understand at this moment.
But we are indeed now sitting in a quiet restaurant where the interviewee has seen fit to take over; she has ordered coffee, and is poised bright and ready to start.
I breath deeply, unpack the little black case I have been holding onto since yesterday like an unmasked conspirator cornered awaiting the coup-de-grace.

Interview 50
I am just a normal person of 59 who has been searching all her life, until ten years ago, when she heard of Ramana Maharshi. She visited his Ashram, went back to the States, then returned to India where she has been living for the past four years. Two years ago she met Nisargadatta Maharaj, and he became her guru.
Did he give you some form of initiation?
He gave me a mantra and initiation.
How did you first hear about him?
At Ramana Maharshi’s Ashram many people come to see him — there seems to be a tie.
Is it because of the similarity of self-enquiry?
It’s no longer that. Maharaj has had cancer of the throat for the past year, so his teachings have been polished; he is now saying he is no longer the consciousness, he observes the consciousness – he’s the Asolute. His teachings are now on that line.
Can you tell me something about his book: I am That?
It’s in the form of questions and answers. The fifth edition is just coming out. It came out in two volumes in 1973 having been collected and edited by Maurice Frydman who in late life became a disciple of Maharaj. There has been no further book published. Last year I askedMaharaj — I had been recording all his question and answer periods — if he wanted me to put them together for a book. He said yes. So Seeds of Consciousness will come out this year. Another volume will appear later: Beyond Consciousness.
In spite of his illness he gives darshan every day?
He is in much pain at times but manages to talk twice a day. He is one of the hidden saints so he only draws a few people at a time. His teachings aren’t for the general public — we are blessed to listen to him.
He himself arranged yesterday for you to give this Interview. Can you say why he was so rough with me just now?
No, I can’t. No one can give a reason for what he does.
How does he usually teach?
Up until his illness it was by questions and answers. Now he will no longer teach the ABCs — he doesn’t have the physical strength — he tells us the position, then it’s up to us.
He seemed to insist that I ask questions.
He wants questions to come out, then there will be silence so that remaining questions will be answered within yourself.
His following is mainly Western by what I saw.
Westerners are in predominance — thousands have seen him; some for a few days, some stay months. Some he makes leave at once. He says he doesn’t know why he sends people away although they want to stay.
Are you living in India on a permanent basis?
Yes, I have a residency permit. I have finished work on the second book: the work is complete… everything he has to say has been said.
Do you ever miss Western society, your home life?
Can you say something about your personal relationship to your guru?
There are no words to describe that…
Do you have an aim in life? For instance, to become one with him?
My aim in life is to lose an aim in life — that’s his teaching: there’s no purpose to this life, it’s just entertainment. That’s all.
That sounds rather Krishnamurtiesque.
Many of Krishnamurti’s followers come here — ten came recently.
How did Maharaj attain enlightenment?
You will find that in the first part of I am That. I can tell you this: the first time he met his guru— his friend insisted on taking him and even had to buy the garland to present to the guru — he never wanted to go.
Was he very young then?
He was in his thirties. The bidi(1) shop at the corner belongs to him: his son runs it. He had eight shops, but when his guru died he left everything, his family and business. He wandered for months all over India until he met a fellow disciple who convinced him it was better to live in the world. He returned to Bombay but all the shops had gone except this one. He didn’t want anything; all worldly ambition had gone. When people started coming to him, he built that upstairs room.
It’s minute. What are the dimensions?
Oh, about 9 by 12. I’ve seen that room very crowded, mostly by Westerners. He says Indians are not ready for his teachings.
Do you think it was because he didn’t want personal publicity that he appeared to be annoyed with me?
That’s correct. I feel sure that was the idea. He doesn’t want disciples — if they come, it’s fine; if not, that’s also fine. He gains nothing. He has reached the peak because he isn’t enamored of anything the world can offer.
Does he ever talk about other gurus and their methods?
He talks about the self-styled gurus who propagate their own concepts.
Does he admire any living teachers?
As far as I know, J. Krishnamurti. In the past Ramana Maharshi. The other day he said: Krishnamurti, Ramana and myself are one.
Does he advocate a vegetarian diet?
That pertains to the body; he doesn’t teach anything to do with that. All he wants you to do is find out who you are.
His followers can drink and indulge in free relationships?
Whatever comes naturally to each person he should do.
He gives no ethical guidance?
No. As long as you think you are a person and this world is real, then you live by certain rules. Once you understand the complete thing, your life lives itself…there are no rules, no good, no bad: I should do this, I shouldn’t do that. If you think about it, all this is taking place in this life span, in this span of consciousness, and when this consciousness goes, what difference does it make?
Does he not advise detachment from worldly activities?
This comes naturally. The main and only thing he teaches is to find out who you are. The closer you come to this, the more detached you become from the world; that will happen naturally. You can’t do anything to make that happen. This idea of doing something is an ego idea: “I” can accomplish. Maharaj says the consciousness drags you there by the ear because it wants to know about itself, your true nature.
What has he said about leaving the body at physical death?
For him it will be a great festival — he’s looking forward to it. For those thinking they are the body it will be a traumatic experience. For an enlightened person it’s a joyous time(2).
When he gives you meditation does he ask what you see inside?
There has to be somebody to see something (laughter)… No, he doesn’t. Visions and experiences take place in consciousness, they have no meaning whatsoever. Before you were born, did you know anything about this world? When you die, will you know anything about this world? You didn’t know you existed — you exist as the Absolute, but you aren’t aware of your existence. When this consciousness comes, spontaneously you know “I am”. You grab a body and become identified with that. He wants you to go back, back, away from this into your true nature. Right now it’s consciousness: the longer we abide in that consciousness only and observe it, we see that everything we see is not ours – there’s a “you” seeing this.
But what does he teach about God?
Without “me”, there’s no God.
And he’s teaching that?
Yes. Was there a God before you were? Without you is there a God?
What brought me back into this body?
Do you remember a previous body?
Many people have that recollection. Are you saying we have never taken birth before?
There’s no “we”, there’s no entity; there’s universal consciousness which is continually expressing itself through these bodies.
Maharaj doesn’t believe in karma and reincarnation?
Ramana Maharshi taught that, surely?
They will talk to you on this level if this is your level. But if you understand what I’m saying: there’s only universal consciousness expressing itself, there’s no individual, then he will bring you there. He will no longer speak of this. If you die with concepts these concepts take another form; but they will not be you — you don’t know what that form will be. Concepts will come again and again until they are exhausted.
What does Maharaj teach about selfless service, helping others?
On their level it’s good. But his teaching is that there are no others, no individual entities: everything happens spontaneously, there’s no doer. He teaches: Let this life live itself and understand you are not this.
If we aren’t “this”, we are “that”. What is “that”?
“That” is consciousness right now.
Right now? What will it be when we leave the body?
The Absolute.
Then what comes back?
Consciousness is continually renewing itself. You throw a piece of food into a corner, within a few days worms will come — life, consciousness. The same consciousness in that worm is in you. It’s not “my” consciousness, “your” consciousness; it’s one universal consciousness, and that universal consciousness is you.
At our level of understanding, aren’t all these concepts? Didn’t you find these theories confusing at first?
The first day I came to Maharaj he said: My beingness is a product of food… and the same consciousness in the donkey was in Sri Krishna. I went to get a reservation back home; none was available, so as something inside knew this was true, I went back. He had jerked the rug from under my feet and he kept on doing this until I lost any place to put my feet. He forces you to let go of all concepts.
Does he often send people away who come to see him?
Often. He never knows why, though. Every moment watching him is like a spectacular movie: every person’s need is taken care of — I’ve watched that happen. You can sit quietly but questions you have inside will be answered. Everything happens according to your need. There’s no him, he has no pose of his own… that’s why this can happen. There’s no ego there to bump against.
Living so close to an enlightened being can’t be easy.
It’s not easy if you have any ego left.
Can you say something about the positive side?
There are no words for it; everything is taken care of automatically. There’s no “you” to thank God for anything anymore. You let go of everything. There’s no you, no separate entity, everything is happening spontaneously. It’s like there’s quiet space where you are yet everything is happening round you.
What work did you do in America?
I worked on newspapers.
Is there a reason why people get involved with imperfect teachers?
We as human beings think there’s a reason for everything; there are no reasons, no causes — it’s a causeless happening. As long as we are on this human level and think there’s a cause we will be able to come up with one. If some people are taken for a ride by false gurus, you can say this is happening to them to get rid of something — whatever happens is perfect. We are just to understand there’s no personal consciousness, everything is impersonal, you see.
But when we meet a perfect teacher it’s our consciousness which recognizes that, surely?
Then our lives change.
That’s the new life?
That’s part of the divine plan requiring no effort?
No effort.
To round off, could you say what are the benefits gained from coming into contact with your guru?
I’ve gotten rid of the idea that there’s somebody going to benefit from something… (much hearty laughter). But let’s now have more coffee, right?


  1. Wow! This is really powerful. When I started reading it my skin began to burn intensely and waves of energy pulsated throughout the body. Reminds me of several things that Ed shared in this last satsang. A deep love and appreciation for Nisargadatta in this heart.
    Thanks for posting this Ed.


  2. Good post.

    Has anyone out there bought a hard copy of the Nisargadatta Gita? I read it on my Kindle, but I'd really like a paperback copy to carry around with me. According to Lulu.com the dimensions of the book are 6X9 inches - which seems pretty big. Does anyone know?

  3. Hi Gary, I purchased one several months ago from Amazon. Here is the link http://www.amazon.com/Nisargadatta-Gita-Pradeep-Apte/dp/B0028MD992/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1316526110&sr=1-1. I see one for 12.00, then one for 74.95. It is a standard sized book.


  4. I don't have adequate words to express what took place while reading this from Jean Dunn. All I know is everything fell away, and all that was left was the IAM.

  5. So powerful! There is this deep emotive yearning or begging for grace that arises in the chest or stomach or lower. When I merge with it, it becomes grace and bliss. It shoots up in waves, with the apparent speed of a freight train. I know which way to go now, Ed. I know because you planted the seed, you showed me and continue to show me. Outer Guru, inner Guru. Thank you for this! Thank you.

  6. It is wonderful that we have her three edited books as a kind of record of her love with no concepts for her guru...they were one, as she mentioned Maharaj stated that he was one with J. K. and R Maharshi. Real love.

    Love to you all,


  7. Joan


    Still, If it can lead to an awakening I guess that's a bargain:)

    Thanks. Gary

  8. A very fine interview. I particularly like Jean Dunn's closing statement about the so called "benefits" in having had Nisargadatta as her guru.


  9. Readers might also be interested in this interview about Nisargadatta. I've only just stumbled upon it, and haven't, yet read it.


  10. (OK. I've read it now)

    This is brilliant:


  11. This is tremendous! Thank you, Edji, for posting it. Chills ran through my body when I got to the end, and my heart feels like it's burning (I don't think it's indigestion). Great stuff.

    Janet C