11 September 2013

Even More on Self-Inquiry, Self-Realization, and Love

Just because your mind is a constant companion, does not mean it is you.  By “you”, I mean your fundamental state.  The mind is added on.  How many times have you caught yourself doing things and there was nothing on your mind?  No thoughts, images, or feelings?

Remember, mind is witnessed by you, or can be when you make an effort to watch the mind.  Is the witness merely a split off part of the mind as Jiddhu Krishnamurti claims, or is it an entirely different functioning within Consciousness, or is it beyond Consciousness altogether as claimed by Nisargadatta and Immanuel Kant?

Here is a question to ponder:  Who is the seeker looking for the Self?  Is it the Witness itself, the subject, the Self, trying to understand its own existential nature?  Or, is it the mind who has read many spiritual texts that say you must try to understand or discover who you are?  Is it only a big trick foisted upon us by mischievous gurus? That is, is the whole self-realization by self-inquiry trip just a joke?

Or, is the mind first made aware by these teachers, that you do not know who you are?  You have been too busy with the world to ever turn that intelligence inwards to find out who and what you were?

All of self-inquiry is aimed precisely at self-discovery, discovering the subjective aspects of Self that one grasps after your attention is turned inwards.  Self-inquiry is JUST about turning inwards, turning your attention into your inner world instead of the external world, because eventually you will find that the entirety of the external world is just a projection of your internal world and your ideas about the external world. 

You will eventually discover first hand, not as an idea offered by some guru in a book, that the world you perceive “out there” is really created by internal, “in-here” processes you never were aware of before.

What a discovery!  The world you perceive, the world you see, hear, taste and touch, is totally created in your subjectivity!  You are, so to speak, King of your world, not merely a pawn.  Change your subjectivity and you change the world you live in.

This is easier said than done, but when you know this key, you no longer feel small, finite, easily killed, injured, or otherwise destroyed.

I am not saying an external world does not exist.  I am saying that the external world that you live in, is an illusion and has nothing to do with the external world you have never really seen because of your ignorance of the “real,” or noumenal external world.

The world you live in is a co-creation of the real world and the world you lay on top of it with your senses, based on a lifetime of being taught about what the world is like by parents and schooling.

Have you ever taken a class at any level of school that questions what the external world is really like?

Maybe if you studied ontology and epistemology in college in a philosophy course, but even then, was more than a month of reading of idealist-leaning philosophers ever explored?

Physics classes turn the “real” world into a conceptual world of emptiness, atoms, electrons, sub-atomic particles, quantum phenomena, and invisible curved space.  None of this is observed through the senses.  It is speculation back by repeatable experiments which conjecturally “prove” the existence of invisible phenomena based on inference.  The world of science is not directly observable.

Now we cannot directly perceive matter as it is in itself, nor the world of science.  We only know our perceptions and the concepts that help create the world we see.

One method of self-inquiry, and a very difficult and slow path, is to “deconstruct” all the ideas we have about ourselves as humans, as sentient beings, and as the Self and Witness.  As long as we have ideas about any of this subject matter we cannot know the subject matter as directly as possible.

A new path that we have created in the sense that we use phenomena that others have long observed and used to change the world, can also be used to discover who and what the self is, and that is to direct the student of Self to explore various “levels of consciousness” within the complex matrix of Consciousness that is “us” and BEYOND “us.”

We direct such to explore their Subtle Body phenomena, which are all of the conscious and unconscious phenomena associated with being a sentient being, such as: feeling the body from inside, feeling the energetic body or sense of presence, feeling various kinds of energies, intensities and flow patterns, perceiving the inner emptiness or voids and what they are like, emotions, images, thoughts, and most importantly, the feeling of self, of I-Am.

This complex exploration can take many years, or a very short time depending on you, depending on your spiritual maturity, your preciseness of focus and how awakened your spiritual intelligence is.

However, I direct students to explore this Subtle Body with LOVE, because love has an enormous power to focus all one’s energies on the object of love and the experience of love itself.  When one can love someone or something intensely, arousing extremely intense love, one’s total beingness becomes like a laser, self-absorbed by the object, then the love itself in merger, and then the discovery that you are love itself.  That is your one and only property---for a time, that will allow you to go “deeper” into more esoteric and subtle “layers” of your own awareness.

All of this is covered in great detail in Siddharameshwar’s book, “Masters of Self-Realization” available on Amazon.  Really, you only need to read the 85 or so page introduction several times to understand better my approach.  Not that I follow his approach that closely, but he presents a model I use to take people to Self-Realization through love, by practicing self-inquiry with a loving, accepting, open, and wondering attitude towards Self, which because of the laser-like ability of love to focus attention, speeds the whole Self-Realization process.

Also, Siddharameshwar does not emphasize love of another as much as I do as an aid to self-realization, whether it is love of God as an idea or experience, love of guru, or love on another.  Love of an “outer” other is a very natural path in itself, Bhakti Yoga, but it can seamlessly be used alongside self-inquiry to discover who you are.


AMAZING DISCUSSION REGARDING THIS POST ON FACEBOOK BELOW. It explicates various positions more clearly:


·       Susan De Muynck and when that LOVE of another is rejected, then there is the chance to truly dissolve...when the "love " cracks, there is melting, there is just the unknown and heart breaking gratitude to LIFE. and yet that melting and dissolving is ALIVE.......as the breath , breathes......there is endless falling......
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Ed Muzika And when it is accepted and returned, one can experience such ecstasies and enter the Fourth State effortlessly.
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Jackson Peterson If we discover the empty nature of thoughts, we have discovered the empty nature of mind. When we discover the emptiness of the mind we discover our true nature was itself the empty nature of the mind, not a "witness" of it. The energetic and formative creativity of pure Awareness is itself the mind, not an outside influence. By discovering the empty nature of our thoughts as mind, we discover our true nature to be the empty nature of the mind itself. This message is approved by Nagarjuna... 
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Susan De Muynck as long as it is DIRECT experience YES..:)>
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Ed Muzika But not by me. Emptiness is a quality of beingness, of Consciousness, it is an object, nothing more, the container of the manifest world, both "external" and "internal." What you are has two aspects: the manifest and the unmanifest. Nisargadatta and Siddharameshwar point to the unmanifest noumenal witness as our true nature, and it has nothing to do with the emptiness of the manifest world and inner world we experience.

The neo-Advaitins and you apparently think emptiness is your true nature. Actually, you are much LESS than that on one hand, and much MORE than that on the other, the experiential hand.

I cannot disagree with you more Jackson.
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Jackson Peterson Also "no one" enters the Fourth State. The ideas and energetic contraction called "me" is a bundle of concepts only. When that bundle of "me" thoughts are seen to be empty of an inherent self-entity, there is no one left to enter any state. What remains is exquisitely indescribable.
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Susan De Muynck Is this your experience Jackson?
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Ed Muzika Of course no one enters the fourth state; that is a metaphor. The fourth state is revealed is another metaphor. And to say it is indescribable is not true. One can use words, but they are still metaphors, such as used by Ramana and Nisargadatta, Satchitananda, existence, knowledge and bliss, which are characteristics of this stateless state, but the subjective experience itself, like describing the experience of the color "yellow," is not communicable except between two who have shared that experience.
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Ed Muzika Susan, what can you make of someone who claims to experience an experience that cannot be described?
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Jackson Peterson Emptiness is the insubstantial nature of Being. Emptiness is the transparent and impermanent nature of thoughts and mental events. However the empty nature of Being is luminous Clear Light knowingness. Manifestation is the radiance of that empty Nature. Self Nature is empty of all affliction and substance but not empty of its divine attributes. Perhaps the Buddhist model is a bit more precise and accurate as it is free of all reifications of a cosmic Self. The ego loves the notion of becoming a Super Self. That's the flaw in Vedanta and Advaita in general.
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Jackson Peterson Susan, there is "no one" that "has" this experience. It's simply the ground of Being flashing on Itself.
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Susan De Muynck ED, it is a "sense".a "feeling"..........and Jackson " Do you KNOW this for SURE"????
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Jackson Peterson Ed, there is no "subjective" experience in the Absolute knowingness. If there is then it was not Absolute it was some lesser ego state. If you can remember the state clearly then it wasn't "super-consciousness" or Absolute. However one can write down the flash while its happening and read it later and be startled by the beauty of what was written. It's the only way to really know what happens when the mind is completely absent.
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Susan De Muynck I HAVE no idea, and yet there is a softness to this "not knowing", soooo much laughter, and endless gratitude to the endless unfloding.
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Jackson Peterson Susan, have you read my book? I document this and offer a means for others to experiment and find this out as well. The certainty in that moment is invincible clarity.
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Ed Muzika Jackson, I never, ever said you can experience the Absolute. The absolute is entirely beyond experience. One can only be the Absolute.
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Susan De Muynck Jackson, I have not read your book...
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Ed Muzika It is poor taste to advertise your book on someone else's thread, especially I was trying to explain my own points which are completely different and opposed to yous Jackson.
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Jackson Peterson Ed, you were in Zen for years. Zen is grounded in Madhyamaka as Nagarjuna taught as well as the Prajnaparamita. A quote from the Prajnaparamita: "Mind is no-mind, Mind is Luminous Clarity." You are opposed to Nagarjuna and the Prajnaparamita? Am I saying anything different?
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Ed Muzika Zen has no concept or experience of Self. Buddhism in general has no concept of Self, therefore the Buddhist explorer of the inner world has no experience of Self.

Self-Realization is an entirely different path than Zen and most of Buddhism.

Self Realization as I speak of it, is realizing who and what you are as a human being and as the "divine." It occurs within experience. However, there is also another, separate realization of the Absolute as I mention above and in previous posts, as noumenal witness that cannot be perceived as an object in Consciousness, because it is the subject, the missing Indian in the fable of the ten Indians who count only find 9 Indians because they did not count themselves, the tenth Indian as subject, as witness of Consciousness, which is ephemeral.

This is entirely outside what you are talking about because you talk within an entirely different spiritual path, so the Absolute, the Witness, does not exist for you, and cannot as long as you hold onto your worldview.
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Ed Muzika But when you realize your Self, the Self of All, it is a profound EXPERIENCE unlike any Buddhist experience; a path of Love, Acceptance, Bliss, and enormous energetic power that extends everywhere, but also permeates your body and mind as profound gratitude and humility.
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Jackson Peterson That would still be just an "experience" Ed, that implies a separate experiencer" and an experience. For mystics of all traditions they claim "realization" is not an experience, but something beyond all paradigms of experience. The Absolute can't be "experienced" by an experiencer.
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Jackson Peterson Realization is the total absence of an experiencer. That's the experiencer had by no one. The Self is No Self, otherwise its objective.
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Ed Muzika Jackson, precisely my point. I am talking about realization of the Self as Consciousness. This is classical Advaita of 900 years ago, not the Advaita of Nisargadatta. This is realization of Self as the manifest energy and love of Consciousness, as Satchitananda. You have to read what I said so clearly in my post.

Then there is also the other “self-realization,” going entirely beyond the world, beyond the manifest Consciousness. That self you can never "know" in any classical sense of experience or knowledege, although one can "apperceive" the Witness as explained elsewhere.

Other than apperception, one can only be the Self as subject, as Seer. Even there you don't know yourself. All that you can know is the manifest world of Consciousness.
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Rahul Gautam Edji,if I may,that's 1200 years not 900 if we take Adi Shankara, and if we go by the upanishads in Rig Veda,it can be said that it is close to 3500 yrs.
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Markus Raphael Interesting discussion. Maybe all the perspectives exchanged have their validity. That is to say that there is beyond the apparent incompatible describtions is a common ground that is just hard to put into words. The deeper we go the more we become quiet and unable to grasp verbally what we discover.
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Rahul Gautam No perspective is inherently any truer than any other,but why a common ground,escepcially after what Jackson has written,he is plain ignorant and he is selling books? Ridiculous.
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Rk Unmanifest A 'Point of View'......searching for THE ' Point of view'......not finding THE 'Point of view ...realizing A point of view is The point of view,,,:-)
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Ed Muzika What common ground? Consciousness is so deep and profound that it can hold dozens of apparently incompatible paths because they go to different realizations and states. No need to find a common ground; even finding the endpoint of even one path is an incredible success. No need to find the common elements of all.

One can spend 30 years studying Zen and not fathom its wisdom totally, and 30 years being a Sufi without exhausting its depths. Each path is a jewel by itself.
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10 September 2013

More on the Witness by M.

Ed,

Just finished sitting (practicing with the I AM).  My question, though, is about working with the subject. I took the point you made a few emails ago. That I'm at a point where I will have to explore matters for myself. So I don't know how much help I can expect from you. Still, writing helps me get clearer about my practice and gives you some indication of where I am at. 

I asked before about the possibility of being aware of the subject as subject. Here's how it seems to me. It seems to me that in meditation I can become aware of myself as a subject—or in any case aware of a subject I identify with.  This is not awareness of self as object.  It is a distinct subjective awareness of the subject. I think this falls under what Kant calls 'apperception'.  Apperceptive awareness of the self is pretty bare. It's just the awareness of a subject as a subject

Okay, now, here's where the question comes in. You asked if what I was calling "the subject" was "the witness." I hesitated. The reason I hesitated is that I thought that there was supposed to be no awareness of the witness, subjective or objective, except perhaps for what you call "seeing the footprints of the witness" and "feeling the presence of the witness on the other side of phenomenality. So I guess I'm wondering if there's a subject distinct or distinguishable from the witness. One thing that would distinguish this subject-that-is-not-the-witness from the witness proper is the subject-that-is-not-the-witness proper is not noumenal (there's apperceptive access to it, which is to say, a kind of conscious access, a kind of awareness of it.) Look, I'm not freaking out about this. I don't feel I have to have an answer to practice. But this is a question I have.

M.

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Yes, precisely the wording I use: "Apperceive."

The witness, the subject, is not an object nor does it have the feel of an intuition. 
It certainly is not just an intellectual, logical or inferential knowing. Intellectual knowing is of an entirely different category.  Intellectual knowing has a quality of "clarity" because it is created by the rules of knowing of the mind. Apperception is far from clear.

Yet is is a knowing of sorts, just one never recognized before as a separate category. A different sort of knowing. 

Try this on to ponder: Perhaps apperception is the Witness itself knowing it exists because the mind--an aspect of consciousness--it being witnessed by the Witness, the subject, therefore it feels it must exist as part of the relationship of knowing and the knower.  In other words, apperception of the subject is a feeling of a knowing by the subject itself, and is not of the seeking mind.

Chew on that for a bit.

However, there is one more step and it is a big one and that is to become the witness, with the big AHAH! that follows.  I'll leave that to you.

Who are you then?

Ed

07 September 2013

Experiences of some new students

I was delighted to receive three new students and Michael at my home Friday at noon. They arrived just as I tuned into Deeya's Kindle My Heart's Flame webcast, and we all sat listening while I explained about the need for love and welcoming when practicing self-inquiry, or better self-abiding.

We did some guided meditation where everyone looked for the I Am, then fixated on it. The two new male students, for the first time, located the I Am energy in their hearts, and in both energies moved outwards into their bodies.

The woman not only felt the I am, but perceived it as blue light as bliss energies circulated throughout her body for an hour and a half.

Michael felt a blast of love and later a 2 second blast of bliss, while I felt great happiness to be able to help them find the beginning of the path of Self-Realization through love and Subtle Body energies--of course also with the help of Robert and Deeya's kindle hour of silent sitting, listening to chanting.

I explained the difference between Devotional Advaita, and classical Advaita of Shankara and Robert, and this is an evolution fitting for certain kinds of people, embracing perhaps a larger audience, giving them happiness, bliss, and a sure knowledge of who they are.













SATSANG TODAY September 9, at 6 pm California Time

SATSANG TODAY 6:00 PM CALIFORNIA TIME

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Topic: Locating the Self.

05 September 2013

Seven New Satsang Audio Files

Seven New Satsang Audio Files are below for listening and download.  Video files coming soon.

02 September 2013

SELF-REALIZATION RETREAT IN LOS ANGELES OCTOBER 18-20

THREE-DAY 

SELF-REALIZATION RETREAT

IN LOS ANGELES

IN HONOR OF ROBERT ADAMS

OCTOBER 18-20, 2013

AT: FOLLOW YOUR HEART

WITH ED MUZIKA AND DEEYA


     Deeya has generously donated her teaching space for a three-day retreat at Follow Your Heart, the yoga studio annex to the restaurant used by Robert Adams and his students from 1989-1995 in Canoga Park, Los Angeles.

     The retreat is dedicated to learning methods for Self-Realization, from Ramana's abiding in the Self to Nisargadatta's loving focusing on the I Am, to exploring Subtle Body energies as an antechamber of Self. We will explore levels of the Self and the nature of Consciousness and why these techniques work.

      There will be intensive chanting to still the mind and open the heart, meditation, both silent and guided, talks, and question and answer. 

     We will walk in Robert’s park as he walked with his students, to feel his lingering presence.  

     The EVENT IS FREE, BUT A DONATION TO COVER COSTS  IS APPRECIATED.

     Each evening we will have a late dinner at Follow Your Heart.

     email: satsang(dot)online(at)gmail(dot)com
                   devoteddeeya(at)hotmail(dot)co(dot)uk

Address: 21825 Sherman Way, Canoga Park, CA 91303, United States

Friday 18th 10.30am-6.30pm
Saturday 19th 12.30pm-8.30pm
Sunday 20th 12.30pm-8.30pm

30 August 2013

Problems That Arise With Self-Inquiry

I have a real problem with the method of self-inquiry as promulgated by Robert Adams, and often by Ramana, and that is you can get lost; lost in the perceived emptiness of the Subtle Body, or in the comfort of knowing nothing in the Causal Body where there is no self-awareness, only awareness.

Practicing This way, asking "Who and I?" and waiting for an answer, or following the I-thought to where it appears or disappears is much like practicing a Mantra. It is only to empty the mind, and Self-Realization of the Jnana sort can arise from an empty mind alone, it can also arise in other ways.

The problem with following the I-thought is that it arises from one's perceived emptiness and disappears into emptiness.  A few years of doing this and you will identify with emptiness and become a shell with no emotions and no motivation for life.  This can gradually give way to identification with the witness of emptiness, or the Absolute.  You become a pure passenger watching the phenomena of your life pass by.  Such is how Nisargadatta described his current state in his last book, "Consciousness and the Absolute."

But I ask, is this what you want?  Peace, rest? Or would you rather know yourself as Consciousness and the energy, drive and force of Consciousness, the Shakti?

Would you rather know yourself as love, bliss, and embodied energy acting out thee will of God, or as Nothingness?

Would you rather be an observer or a 100% participant in life?

This is the difference between the Bhakta and the Jnani or Sage.

The way of the Bhakta is filled with sound and fury, divine love followed by deep despair, followed by being wracked first by deep bliss often felt as orgasmic, with a high sexual tension, and then followed by physical pain of a tensed body, unfulfilled desires, and a deep longing for both fulfillment and rest at the same time?

The way of unity with Consciousness is obtained through love and surrender to another, whether God, Guru, Lover or other, whether their path is pure Bhakti, or awakening the Kundalini or Shakti.  It is dualistic.


29 August 2013

LONG LOST ROBERT-ADAMS VIDEO!!

This link is circulating from Arunachala Goldsmith, who, like I got it from sources in India. I hope this video was edited as wished by the videographer to hide identities, because he has already been threatened by Infinity lawyers, just as I will be for posting this link.

WATCH THIS VIDEO OFTEN, AS I DOUBT IT WILL BE UP LONG.




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28 August 2013

Nisargadatta is Subtle; the key to understanding him

Nisargadatta is difficult to understand because he steps entirely outside the box of objects and phenomenal entities, and instead talks about us as being a functioning arising out of the body/mind complex and the chemicals of life.  You can appreciate this if you carefully read the three books of Jean Dunn, Maharaj’s final talks.

He asks you “Who were you before you were born?”

You respond, “I don’t know.”

He replies, “You must have been there to know you don’t know.”

This sounds ridiculous.  It sounds like he is saying you must have been there in time, a hundred years ago.

Is he saying this? Yes and no.

He asks, “Who were you after you awoke but before you were self-conscious.”  He then says, “Right now trace yourself back to that No-I state, before knowing you exist.” What were you then?

You find a thoughtless mind that is not self aware.  It is not aware of objects or anything else. It is not aware of birds singing even while birds are singing. It is not yet aware of the pain in your shoulder from yesterday’s tennis game.  You are not yet aware even of your full bladder.  Everything is perceived, but nothing is know or understood.  This is true no-mind, no-knowing.

Nisargdatta refers to this as the causal body, implanted into flesh and when born becomes your body/mind.  This is a state you need to know before you can become self-realized.

Then what happens?

Self-Consciousness arises along with the feeling of ‘me’ and the I-thought. Then you think, I need to pee and you go pee.

It is the arising of this self-consciousness, I, to which Maharaj refers to as Maya, illusion. And in what way?  In that it touches everything that was impersonal in consciousness with the I-feeling. Consciousness becomes everything that is manifested. Nothing exists outside of Consciousness.  Only consciousness is.

But, at one moment there was nothing.  The next moment awareness arose without self awareness. Then self-awareness arose. He calls this knowledge or knowingness.

Now Nisargadatta makes a giant leap. He said while tracing his awareness back to the pre-I-Am state, there was just awareness.  What is it that became self-aware?  This is the fundamental question.

His conclusion was that the ultimate “entity” (which is not an entity, but a functioning) is that which knew Consciousness but itself was not consciousness.

He says the fundamental quality of the I-Am is knowledge and on the flip side, ignorance or no-knowledge, such as your true self 100 years before you were born or that which you were in before awakening.  Deep sleep gives way for a moment to living totally in the Causal Body, but just for a moment before self-awareness arises as I-Am.

You ask many questions about Consciousness and spirituality he says, but the asker, knowledge, is also knowledge itself.

You, as the manifest, are knowledge. Later on knowledge of specifics is added on.  In other places he says you are the principle by which things are known.

Thus, you are not the body or the mind.  You are not all the objects in the world, all its people, animals and events.  You are the knowledge that things are happening, and knowledge cannot be perceived, it is the perceiver of knowledge.

Then he takes one step further and says you are the knower of the knowledge, but as the principle of knowing itself not as an entity.  As the manifest, in the world, you are knowledge; as the Unmanifest, you are that which knows knowledge and that there can be an absence of knowledge, which is true nothingness.

As the principle that is aware of Consciousness as well as its absence, you are beyond mind and any perceptions. You cannot know yourself as an entity.

What you do know, he says, with the full force of your awareness is the I Am.  Find the I Am, stay there. Love the I Am, for everything in the universe flows from that I-Am’s arising after awakening.

So he describes in many ways the I Am and Consciousness, its energy and attributes. It is the totality of the dynamic of Consciousness manifest in a million ways, and to the devotee of the I Am, as bliss, ecstasy, love, and the sure knowledge that you exist.  You are the manifest universe, including God or Krishna or Christ Consciousness.  To know this the knower must rest in the I-Am and totally know all aspects of Consciousness.

Then, he said, for him the personal, the sense of I gradually got weaker and weaker until the last year of his life it disappeared altogether.

But he says, do not be in a hurry to destroy the I, because Consciousness and its awareness is all the “capital you have.” When it is gone, everything is gone.  Puff!!! And then you as the principle of knowing must wait for another body to be born into before once again you have self-knowledge, the I-Am.

This does not mean that you, as Tom, Dick, or Sarah is reborn, for that particular I-Am died with the body/mind.  But the principle of knowing, a ghost, a chemical, impersonal, awaits for its birth in a new body, whether worm, elephant, or human.  That universal ability to know, that principle is the “eternal you,” but it has nothing personal in it.

I want you to understand is that I use different terms for the same meaning.  Instead of saying you are that which knows, the function of knowing, I say you are the subject, the knower, but not of this world.  You are like an entity from a different dimension staring through a membrane into our universe, experiencing it, but not of it, not touched by it.


And instead of saying, “Trace yourself backwards to that which you were before the I Am arose,” I say, which Maharaj says at other times, “Find your sense of I-Am, your sense of me.  Stay there.  Reside in that sense.  Be open to it in wonder, with love and appreciation.”

          You will find the I-sense flowers, grows into a solid sense of presence, bliss, and constantly moving energy along with the concrete conviction of who you are.  Without a doubt you will know who you are.  You will become solid and immovable, but at the same time, the energetic source of the universe. You will become Consciousness—all of it.